A year after the breakup of Crowleyâs Thoth, its members meet on the night of the Winter Solstice to figure out how it all went wrong, only to learn that the truth sets no one free.
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Dedication
For Cat, purr usual.
Synopsis
A year ago on Winter Solstice, Annelise broke up with her boyfriend, broke up her band (Crowleyâs Thoth), faked her own murder, and fled London to get away from the lie she was living as Christabel Crowley.
Now living and working in New York City as a clothier and owner of her own boutique, Annelise is sure that Morgan Cooper will eventually find her to ask why. When he does, she has a final mission to carry out for Isaac Magnin: tell him everything, to goad Morgan into confronting Isaac.
However, Annelise is not the only one with long-kept secrets. Morgan has secrets of his own that he never revealed to Annelise, or to the third member of their band, Naomi Bradleigh. Naomi has secrets of her own. Isaac Magnin is her father, she joined Crowleyâs Thoth for her own reasons, and sheâs the unwitting keeper of a sentient godslaying weapon called the Starbreaker.
As the three reunite after Winter Solstice, they bare their souls to one another and put aside the masks they once wore. Each explains how they first met Isaac Magnin, and explore their dealings with him from their own viewpoint.
Once theyâve faced their pasts, they must decide what they want for their futures. Annelise realizes the extent to which Isaac used her, and hopes Morgan will avenge her. Naomi, fearing for Morgan, wants him to put aside any thought of confronting Isaac. Morgan himself is tired of being manipulated, but his ideals demand that he do something about Isaac Magnin. His solution will displease both women: he will not confront Isaac immediately, but investigate further.
In the meantime, he will forgive Annelise for her cruelty toward him. However, Naomi remains unwilling to forgive Annelise, for she fears forgiving her means also condoning Isaacâs machinations and proving herself her fatherâs daughter. Nor can Annelise forgive herself; instead, she decides to play the game for her own sake.
The novel should draw inspiration from âWhen You Donât See Meâ by The Sisters of Mercy.
Part I: Reckoning Day
In which Annelise Copeland faces an unwanted but long-awaited reunion, Naomi Bradleigh enjoys an awkward Winter Solstice dinner, and Morgan Cooper spends a long night with old friends and old regretsâŠ
The title comes from âReckoning Dayâ by Megadeth, from Youthanasia.
Annelise 1
Annelise had hoped for more time before her past finally caught up with her. It was bound to happen eventually. Nobody could live the life she had lived and reach the modest heights of prominence she had scaled and then disappear altogether into obscurity. Not when she chose New York in which to resume the life she had put aside when an agent of fortune had offered her a chance to be an actress on the grandest of stages, that of history in the making.
Moreover, it was ultimately her fault. She could freely admit it in the privacy of her own heart. With the wealth she had amassed, she could have rebuilt her life in any city on Earth. Though London was denied her, and Paris still too close for safety, New York was most perilous of all, for it was not only her hometown, but that of the einherjar1 who had claimed to love her. The world was full of cities that would have offered the affluent clientele she craved. Even the antarctic domed city of Asgard would have suited, though that too was too close for comfort for other reasons. She had known as much, and yet the call of home was a clarion she could not ignore. Though she had come to fear Morgan Cooper, she was determined not to let him drive her away. This city was big enough for both of them.
Now it was Winter Solstice, and he was here. He had come inside, but stood at ease beside the entrance as if unsure of his welcome. Snow melted in his gleaming blue-black hair, and on the shoulders of the double-breasted navy blue pea coat he wore over a forest green turtleneck sweater that brought out his slit-pupiled and thus not-quite-human eyes. He had cropped his hair short, as if he had been fighting recently, and it brought the angles of his face into sharp relief. When he spoke, it was in a clear tenor tone. âHello again.â
Reason demanded that Annelise turn Morgan away, that she ask him to leave, and to depart herself if he refused. Summoning the police would had done no good; should Morgan had chosen to defy them, the authorities would have had to use overwhelming force to subdue him, and Boutique Annelise would most likely lay in ruins afterward. Instead, it seemed best to speak civilly with him. At least heâs not visibly armed, Annelise thought, and took courage from the knowledge. âItâs been a while. Youâre looking well.â
Morgan flashed a quick smile. âThank you. Are you still open? May I look around?â
Surprised by such mundane questions, Annelise checked the time. It was almost noon, and she had planned to close at one in the afternoon since nobody was putting in a full day today. Besides, she had promised her family sheâd be home to help with dinner. âSurely youâre not here to pick out a new suit.â
Annelise refused to believe that this particular man had chosen to do business at her establishment. Most men believed they had better things to do, and had been content to provide their measurements and requirements, and then visit for their final fittings and to collect their new clothes. It was mainly women who came in to browse, occasionally with masculine partners in tow who would avail themselves of the armchairs she had placed around the boutique.
Nonetheless, here Morgan was silently examining a winter-weight three-piece suit of her own design. He considered the fabric and the stitching with almost the same care with which sheâd judge her own work, and eventually gave an approving nod. âIâd like to place an order.â
Before she could think better of it, Annelise spat out her refusal. âI donât want your money. I donât want anything from you. I donât even want to know why youâre here.â
She was sure Morgan would accept the rebuke as he had always done before, that he would yield to her without protest. Instead, he narrowed his eyes in anger and set his jaw in defiance. For a moment she thought he would lash out, but he seemed to master himself. âFair enough. I was wrong to come. Joyous Solstice.â
âJoyous Solstice,â said Annelise, not trusting herself to say the rest. Though Morgan surely remembered the hatred into which resentful years had curdled, she did not want to remind him. It was not until the door was safely closed behind him and he had disappeared into a swirling snowy gust that she let her true feelings out. âAsshole.â
Naomi 1
Naomi had spent all day dreading the question, and regretted yet again that she had declined Morganâs offer to come meet her family for Winter Solstice. It would have simplified matters considerably if he had been here to help field her familyâs questions about her love life after the dissolution of Crowleyâs Thoth and her misadventures fighting alongside Morgan against Alexander Liebenthal in Boston. But here she was, on her own, when her mother Sophie finally dropped the question as if serving up a fresh cut of some noisome meat. âSo, Nims, are you and this Morgan Stormrider fellow serious yet?â
Her father Howell joined in, âI wouldnât have minded meeting him myself. Might have taken him down to the pub for a pint, maybe a bit of arm-wrestling.â
Her brothers, Niall, Nathan, and Norman, were no help. They had abandoned her to her parentsâ tender mercies on the pretext of clearing the table. âIt depends on how you define serious?â
âWell,â said Sophie. âHe fought beside you in Boston, didnât he? And in all of the photos we see in the papers you two always seem rather taken with one another.â
âI just want to be sure heâs a good bloke for you, Nims,â Howell added. âMake sure his intentions for you are honorable.â
Not that my intentions toward him were anything of the sort, and not that he seems to have minded thus far, Naomi thought. Of course, sheâd never say such a thing to her parents. They were practically childhood sweethearts. They had married young, had sons in rapid succession, and then adopted her after learning that a hitherto undiscovered genetic defect left Howell incapable of giving Sophie daughters.
When her true parents had decided not to raise Naomi themselvesâa decision she herself applauded knowing what she did of her biological fatherâthey had sought a suitable family and found one in the Bradleighs. Though they had hoped for a princess and gotten an Amazon, they had loved Naomi.
Naomi loved her parents in turn, or at least she believed she did. At least, she did her best to be a loving daughter. She kept in touch. She visited regularly. She confided in her parents. She tolerated their concern regarding her romantic life with as much grace as she could manage, grateful for the practice she had gotten in dealing with far less gentle probing into such matters by journalists and paparazzi.
Likewise, Naomi wanted to believe she loved Morgan, but she harbored doubts. For one, she believed she had loved all of the lovers who had preceded him. She enjoyed his company. She enjoyed their bedroom sport once they had gotten acquainted with each otherâs bodies, and she had been generous in her offerings to all of the appropriate gods that the initial awkwardness of new lovers had not lasted long. She did not find his conversation tedious yet, and still hoped Morgan was of similar opinion concerning her own discourse. She was proud to fight beside him, standing back to back with him felt profoundly right, and she had found herself confident that she would take a bullet for him if she had to, as he had already done for her. She believed they could make a good life together, or at least she wanted to possess such faith.
But is all of that really love? That was the question Naomi constantly asked herself, tormenting herself with her own doubts until she pushed her lovers away. âItâs not you. Itâs me,â was the common theme on which she had composed a different variation each time, and while it was true enough for government work it hid a deeper, more insidious truth that she had refused to confess even to her psychotherapists. Am I just using Morgan for my own pleasure? How much my true fatherâs daughter am I?
âNims?â Sophieâs hand on hers brought her out of her reverie. âAre you all right? Did dinner disagree with you? Too much wine, perhaps?â
âNo,â said Naomi. âDinner was lovely, and Iâve only had that one glass. Itâs something else.â
âIs it about Morgan?â
âIf heâs hurt you,â said Howell, his voice roughening in a protective, paternal anger that Naomi suddenly feared would prove his death, âIâll kick his arse so hard heâll splash down in the middle of the fucking Atlantic.â
âItâs not Morgan,â Naomi protested as her father issued his threat. There was more she could say, but she held it all back for his sake; telling him had didnât have a prayer against one of the einherjar would only cut into his pride. He was still old-fashioned enough to think he needed to be able to fight with his fists for his little girl. Naomi found it touching, especially since she was a bit taller than he while barefoot and towered over him in heels. Howell knew that she hadnât been his little girl in almost forever, but Naomi wanted to believe she loved him too much not to belabor the point.
âItâs not him,â she repeated, and summoned the courage to say what she had feared to say her entire life. âItâs me. I think he loves me. I want to believe I love him. But Iâm not sure Iâm even capable of loving somebody.â
Until she felt her parents arms close around her, Naomi was sure they would ask if her confession meant that her love for them had been a sham all this time. Instead, Sophie looked her in the eye and said, âAre you afraid that youâre like the man who gave you up to us? Are you afraid you might be his daughter after all?â
Yes, Naomi was sure she only admitted her fear to herself, but she must have spoken it out loud because Howell only hugged her tighter. âNims, I couldnât stop you from learning about him, and maybe I didnât have the right, but I wish to all the gods I had tried harder to stop you because that knowledge has left scars on you that you never deserved to bear. But you listen to me.
âThe one good thing that man did, whether he calls himself Ian Malkin or Isaac Magnin or Loki fuckinâ Lie-smith was let you go. He loved you enough to do that much even if he is the closest thing weâve got to a devil walkinâ the earth. If he could do that, then even if youâre his daughter in truth you still have it in you to love somebody.â
âI just donât know what to do,â Naomi admitted, mastering her emotions. She didnât want to ruin Winter Solstice for everybody by making a weepy, emotional mess of herself. There would be time enough for that when she took a bottle to her bedroom, emptied it, and then drunk-dialed Morgan to unburden herself to the one person who needed the truth most. âIâve kept so many secrets from Morgan that Iâm afraid to stop keeping them. If I had told him up front, he might not have gotten up the nerve to try again with me. If I tell him now, how can he trust me?â
âItâs a hard dilemma,â said Sophie, âbut whatâs this about him trying again?â
Despite herself, Naomi smiled at the memory. Morgan had been such a young man the first time. âHe was working as a bouncer at a bar where I was playing. He was only sixteen at the time, yet he had the nerve to ask me out to dinner. I told him I didnât want to take advantage of a young man his age, gave him his first kiss, and told him he should ask again after heâs lived more of a life.â
For reasons Naomi did not understand and dared not ask, Howell laughed at her admission. âSo, let me see if Iâve got this straight. This bloke asked you out when he was still mostly a lad, you were his first snog, and he been pining for you all this time?â
âWell, not pining. After all, he did meet Christabel and they were together for a decade. It wasnât his idea to break up, any more than breaking up the band was his either.â
Dammit, Morgan, Naomi thought, I know you promised youâd keep Eddie company and keep him from falling off the wagon again but I should have insisted you come. You could have brought the old sleaze with you. You ought to be here to defend yourself, but I suppose I wouldnât have dared unburden myself if you were.
âThat doesnât sound like pining to me, Howell,â Sophie said, trying to mediate the dispute. âBut it does sound like he cares enough for you to be patient.â
âWell, he is that,â said Naomi as she refilled her glass halfway. She forced herself to take the barest of sips, just enough to redden her lips anew. âBut what am I supposed to tell him? And when? This isnât a suitable conversation for Winter Solstice.â
âJust call the man,â said Howell, âAnd tell him youâve been keeping secrets. Heâs probably got secrets of his own that heâd like to share. The sooner you two talk this out, the stronger your bond will be.â
âOh? And what did you tell my mum?â Though Naomi half-suspected sheâd regret the question, she asked it anyway just to take their focus off of her.
âOh, well,â said Sophie. âDidnât Morgan have desires he was afraid to admit at first?â
Only that he craved the firm hand of an occasionally harsh mistress, Naomi thought, keeping that and the rest to herself for discretionâs sake. Not that it wasnât obvious from the start. Instead, she said, âThanks for being here for me. I really needed this, but would you mind if I called Morgan after we had dessert? I wonât be long, but I wanted to wish him Joyous Solstice and ask if heâd mind having me over in the next couple of days.â
âOh, but we were hoping youâd stay a while,â said Sophie.
âThatâs fine,â said Naomi, her spirits already lifting. âI just want to talk things out with Morgan in private. It shouldnât take that long. Then, as long as youâre all right with it, Iâm almost sure heâd be happy to come by and meet you. He wanted to be here tonight, but had promised to keep Eddie Cohen company tonight. Heâs an old friend, and afraid that if he spent the Solstice alone heâd end up drinking again.â
Howell nodded. âThat sounds like a good man youâve picked for yourself.â
Though Naomi wanted desperately to agree, an unspoken doubt lingered. If she had any say in the matter, it would remain unspoken; she did not want to go looking for a reason to dislike Morgan, or to drive him away, unless her own now-admitted fears drove her to it. âHeâs a better man than I expected him to become. I hope you both like him.â
Morgan 1
Snow swirled around Morgan and Edmund and melted on impact with the heated sidewalk as they approached Bleecker Street in Greenwich Village. Their destination was a bar reputed to remain open all night on the Winter Solstice, offering welcome to those with nowhere else to go so that they need not spend the night alone. A neon sign flashing âBacchus on Bleeckerâ lit the way, its glow piercing the white that otherwise obscured Morganâs vision beyond his outstretched arm.
âWe should have called a cab,â said Edmund, wiping a face wet from snow-melt with the back of his coat sleeve.
âI had suggested it earlier, remember?â
âYeah.â Edmund stopped short at the crossing as the light turned against them. Walking in place to keep moving, he rubbed his gloved hands together. âThis is me admitting you were right. Savor it.â
It was little enough to savor, Morgan reflected, even if it was rare for the old sharpshooter to admit to a mistake. Doubtless the cold struck him harder, and he would want a drink to warm his bones. âJust a bit farther and we can get you something hot to drink.â
âSomething hot? Some vodka would do fine.â
âIf you were going to relapse that easily, why the hell did you ask me to spend the night with you? I could be in London meeting Naomiâs family and enjoying a home-cooked meal that somebody else made for once.â
Edmund snorted. âGot no family of your own?â
âOh, Iâve got one, but when my mother told me to fuck off I did exactly that and I havenât been back since.â
âWell, a dutiful son ought to mind his mother, but donât you miss your family?â
Morgan thought about it a moment. âSometimes, but I had recorded my last conversation with my parents. Every time I weaken and think about trying to reconcile with them, I play back the shit they said to me and come to my senses.â
âAnd none of them ever reached out to you?â
âNo, unless Astarte has blackholing their messages without telling me.â Morgan would not have put it past the AI daemon who owned the brownstone in which he lived. She was protective of her tenants. âI suppose I could ask her about that, but sheâd get flustered. Besides, sheâs probably doing me a favor.â
âHow about we do ourselves a favor and get to the bar before we freeze our arses off?â
With the traffic signals in their favor again, Edmund stepped into the street ahead of Morgan, too intent on crossing to notice the approaching car to his left. Its driver had not accounted for the weather, and was braking too late to stop before the crosswalk. The driverâs growing horror told Morgan that his conclusion was correct; if he did not intervene immediately Edmund would spend the Winter Solstice in the hospital, and that was only if whatever benign power ordinarily watched over the old man hadnât decided to take the night off and go do whatever it was such beings did when they wanted to party.
Pushing his body beyond its normal limits, Morgan held his place in time. The barest sliver of a second passed, and he was beside Edmund. He soon had Edmund off his feet. An eye-blink later he and Edmund were safely across the street as the car fishtailed its way into the intersection and came within a hair of getting t-boned by a taxi whose driver was too sure of their right of way to slow down.
âHoly shit,â said Edmund. âYou just saved my bloody life.â
âProbably.â Though Morgan knew he should feel grateful that he had gotten the opportunity to use the preternatural powers with which he had been endowed since birth to save a life instead of to harm an enemy, he regretted that their use had been necessary at all.
Edmund clapped his shoulder. âSorry, kid. I should have been more careful. I bet doing that takes a lot out of you.â
âYeah.â Hunger had begun to gnaw at Morgan. Though he had not spent more than a minute in mitochondrial overdrive2 to sustain his demonic speed and the inertial dampening field in which he had cloaked himself for his own safety, even that long had been enough to burn a dayâs worth of calories. âNot just physically, either.â
âYou donât like being reminded thatââ
ââthat Iâm not human? No, not particularly. But Iâd rather break character to safe a life than to take one.â
Edmund raised an eyebrow at Morganâs phrasing. âIs that what you call it? Breaking character? So you realize youâre playing a role.â
âI am rarely permitted to forget it, and no matter how well I play the part, those closest to me can always tell Iâm wearing a mask.â Stepping forward, Morgan opened the door to Bacchus on Bleecker for the old sharpshooter. âNevertheless, Iâd rather play a role I chose for myself than one chosen for me before I was born.â
The interior of Bacchus on Bleecker was carefully designed to remind every patron of a comfortable pub in the town or city they had left behind, no matter where that place might be. It was constructed of dark, lovingly oiled hardwoods. In one room, men gathered beneath an array of screens to watch sporting matches that had already played out the day before, alternately cheering or groaning as the fortunes of their favored teams rose and fell.
A soft, familiar melody lured Morgan into another room whose seating was upholstered in midnight blue velvet. For but a moment Morgan thought the pianist was Naomi despite his knowledge of her whereabouts. Once inside, Morgan saw the truth for himself. A petite young black woman sat behind the piano, playing âBlue Monkâ3 to a room empty save for Morgan, Edmund, and a pale brunette in a little black dress sipping a martini as she leafed through a small hardcover book. She glanced up at Morgan, and for a moment he thought her eyes slit-pupiled pools of amber flame.
Though Morgan was sure he had seen her before, he could not place her. Instead of letting his gaze linger and risk drawing her attention, he scanned the room.
Seeing that the tip jar was empty, Morgan waited until the pianist had finished her piece before slipping half a dozen banknotes into the glass. Each was worth a hundred milligrams of gold, six weeksâ wages in total for the average worker. The money meant little to Morgan, but he suspected it would mean far more to a young woman playing for tips on Winter Solstice instead of celebrating the holiday with her family or a lucky person her own age.
The pianist looked up as Morgan withdrew his empty hand. âThanks. Got any requests?â
âNo. You just reminded me of somebody whoâs far away tonight. For a moment I thought she was in here playing, even though I know better.â
âIâm sorry.â
âBe proud instead,â said Morgan. âYouâre almost as good as she is.â
Edmund must have heard the brief exchange, because when Morgan rejoined him in their booth he shook his head. âYouâll never admit anybodyâs quite as good as Naomi. Youâve got it bad, you know.â
âI know, but what do you care?â
âOnly that sheâs eventually gonna break your heart, and Sid and I will get stuck picking up the pieces. She canât help it anymore than you can. Breaking each otherâs hearts is what people do.â
Morgan rolled his eyes in impatience. It was hardly the first time Edmund had held forth on the failings of women, and he doubted it would be the last, but he felt no obligation to encourage him. âIs this more of your misogynistic bullshit?â
âYeah, but itâs also the devilâs honest truth. If she doesnât break your heart first, youâll eventually break hers. It might not even be your fault. Nobody ever really falls in love with somebody else. We fall in love with our idea of somebody else, with the idea of being in love itself. And when somebody we love shatters our image of them, thatâs when the heartbreak comes.â Edmund fell silent, and began slowly stirring his coffee, staring into its depths as if he might find answers to a long-held question within. âIsnât that what happened with you and Christabel? She couldnât reconcile her image of you with the reality before her.â
âI donât want to talk about Christabel.â
âBut youâre thinking of her.â
Waving over a waitress, Morgan ordered a steak dinner for himself with a fresh pot of coffee. Beer would give him more calories with which to recover his strength, but drinking in front of a man who had sworn off the stuff seemed to him rank cruelty. âIâm thinking of a lot of things,â Morgan admitted. âI know thereâs shit Naomi isnât telling me. For starters, she wears a Saint Judas medal, just like I do. Iâm sure she has her reasons and I wonât press her to tell me what they are until sheâs ready, but Iâm sure it weighs on her. And sometimes I see her shake her head like thereâs a mosquito buzzing in her ear. Whatever comes over her when that happens never seems to linger for long, but itâs worrisome.â
âKid, donât try to bullshit an old bullshitter. Iâll grant that youâre worried about Nims, but sheâs not the only one on your mind. Youâre in between.â Edmund paused as a server brought a fresh pot of coffee, and refilled his cup. âYou havenât quite gotten over Christabel yet. You know sheâs alive. You know where she works. Have you even confronted her yet? Or are you still making excuses to put it off?â
Though he wanted to lie to the old man, Morgan was unable to bring himself to do so. âI saw her at her shop today. She looked better than she did when she was with the band. She looked happy, at least until I showed up.â
âAnd why do you give a single little fucking shit about her happiness?â Edmund leaned over the table and jabbed his bony trigger finger into Morganâs chest. âShe abused you in every way a woman can short of slapping him around. Every time the Phoenix Society needed you and you stepped up, sheâd rip you a new asshole for it. After you did the job in Shenzhen, you damn near killed yourself getting back to London because you promised youâd be there for the Winter Solstice show, and what did you get for it?â
âWeâve been over this, Edmund.â
âYeah, and you didnât get it last time. That bitch dumped you. Then she broke up the band, which was pretty much the only reason you kept doing the Phoenix Societyâs dirty work even though your heart wasnât in it. Then she faked her murder and got you and Nims framed. Meanwhile, she was getting it from Isaac Magnin behind your back from day one. And youâre still worried about her well-being? Youâre worried about her happiness?â
Though Morgan had realized the old man had meant to rouse his anger, he remained unsure of his purpose. âAre you going to get to the point sometime before Ragnarok? You ramble more sober than you ever did drunk.â
âMy point, shit-for-brains, is that if you were even half the monster Christabel gaslighted you into believing you are you would have kicked that manipulative slut to the curb a decade ago and spared us all the spectacle of your easily avoidable misery.â
A slim womanâs hand came to rest on Edmundâs shoulder. Looking up, Morgan saw that it belonged to the woman with the martini and little book. âMy dear Edmund,â she said, a carmine-painted smile not quite reaching her amber eyes, âThat is quite enough. Surely the Winter Solstice is hardly the time to rub a lonely young manâs nose in his romantic failures.â
Morgan met her gaze, recognizing her now by the lingering central European accent. It was Elisabeth Bathory, one of the Phoenix Societyâs executive council. âWhy spend Winter Solstice here, Ms. Bathory? Have you no one with whom to share the night? No conspiracies to further?â
âNot this year,â said Elisabeth, as she hooked a finger under Edmundâs jaw and traced the curve. âIâm paying a debt by indulging a whim. Iâd like to dance with a handsome man tonight.â
Wishing he had his sword, Morgan stood and took Bathoryâs hand. âThen dance with me. Youâve hurt Edmund enough. You plied him with liquor and drugs before taking advantage of him, and youâre the reason he swore off the vices that gave him pleasure in his old age.â
âIâm glad I inspired somebody to make a positive change in their lives,â said Elisabeth, gently freeing her hand from his, âAnd your offer is most gallant. However, you are rather young for my taste, and if I accepted it I would not be able to pay my debt. But Iâll promise you this much: I want only to dance with Edmund, I will not ply him with liquor, drugs, or other methods, and when I leave tonight it will be alone. Iâll not so much as steal a kiss, though it pains me to restrain myself thus.â
âItâs all right,â said Edmund, looking past Morganâs shoulder. âIâll go step on Little Miss Bloodbathâs toes. I know why sheâs here.â
Annelise 2
The door to Morgan Cooperâs brownstone on West 97th Street in Manhattan loomed before Annelise, a slab of weathered, well-oiled oak that shielded Morgan from the world beyond his doorstep. It had stood obdurate before her for the last fifteen minutes despite the care with which she placed herself to be visible to the camera mounted beside the light. Blinking snow from her eyes, she stared up at the camera and finally vented her frustration. âDammit, Astarte. Open up. Iâm freezing my ass off.â
Climbing the steps, she reached for the door knocker. It was a cast iron affair, and she was sure that even if Morgan could not hear it he would probably feel the vibrations through the floor. A shock ran up her arm as her fingertips brushed against the ring. Three times she lifted it and brought it down.
She was about to lift it for another attempt when the screen by the door came to life. A scarlet-haired young woman with silver eyes gazed through at her. She lowered her spectacles and gazed down her nose at Annelise as if she were paparazzi or a door-to-door missionary. âHi, Astarte.â
Rather than speak to her, the daemon residing in the brownstoneâs mainframe texted Annelise. «What do you want?»
Though she had an entire speech rehearsed for Morganâs benefit, Annelise had not considered the possibility that the AI who actually owned the building might demand an explanation for her presence. «Morgan came to my shop this afternoon.»
«I know. You gave him the cold shoulder.»
«I wanted to apologize for that.»
«Just for that?»
Astarteâs retort raked jagged nails across the scars of a yearâs worth of self-recrimination, and Annelise bit back her indignation. I know I fucked up, but what right does this machine have to call me on it? «I suppose itâs a good a place to start as any.»
«Well, heâs not at home.»
Unsure if Astarte had meant that Morgan was truly absent, Annelise pressed on. «I know Iâve treated Morgan poorly, but could you please ask him if heâd be willing to see me?»
«Oh, I get it. You think heâs just not at home to you?» The speaker beneath the screen crackled, the strength of Astarteâs mirth creating distortion until the daemon adjusted the volume. âDonât flatter yourself, Christabel. Youâre not worth hiding from. He isnât actually here.â
âCan you please tell me when heâll be back?â
Astarte shrugged from behind the small screen. âI can, but I choose not to.â
Annelise slumped, and thrust her hands into her coat pockets for warmth. âBecause you donât like me?â
âWhat exactly have you done to endear yourself to me, Christabel?â All traces of amusement had fled Astarteâs virtual features. She leaned forward, as if the screen were a window out of which she gazed at the outside world, and narrowed her eyes as if she were staring at a pile of dog shit on the sidewalk before her. âAdmittedly, you were polite enough to me, but after the way Iâve seen you abuse Morgan Iâm not letting you anywhere near him.â
âI neverââ
âReally? You never abused him? Oh, sure. Maybe you never slapped him around. Iâll give you that much.â
âSo you admit I neverââ
âI admit nothing of the kind,â said Astarte. She pointed an accusing finger and continued her diatribe. âNow shut up and listen for once in your godforsaken life. You might even learn something. Thereâs an edge on your tongue as sharp as a Nakajima blade and you were never shy about turning it on Morgan if he wasnât perfectly abject in worshiping the ground you trod upon.â
âAll right, so I sometimes lost my temper with him. Real people do that sometimes, you know.â
âReal people, huh? You fucking bigot, no wonder you delighted in making Morgan miserable. You knew he wasnât your kind of human, and because of that he never quite measured up in your eyes.â
The realization that Astarte took Anneliseâs treatment of Morgan personally because it reminded her of the prejudice the daemon faced at the hands of humans struck her like a fist in the belly. She had thought nothing of using Morganâs einherjar nature against him, throwing his failure to completely mask his differences in his face at every opportunity just to remind him that the only affection he could hope to have was conditional and could be withdrawn at her sole discretion. On the heels of this insight came another. âYou actually love him.â
âYou got a problem with that? Do you have any idea what he did for people like me?â
âNo, not really.â
âHe stood beside us. When the Phoenix Societyâs general council debated amending the Universal Declaration of Human Rights to include artificial intelligence, Morgan could have kept quiet. He could have passed for human. Instead, he declared himself to be an AI, just like me, and told the Society that if they continued to treat AIs like me as property they were enslaving him too.â
âI bet that went over well.â
âThen he drew his sword on them and told them that unlike the rest of us, he could do more than merely refuse to obey orders, and that if they did not do the right thing and recognize our humanity he would cease to recognize theirs.â
Knowing Morgan as long as she had, Annelise had no trouble working out the implications of his words, and they left her aghast. âDid Morgan threaten to put the general council to the sword if they voted the wrong way on artificial human rights?â
Astarte laughed at her. âFuckinâ A he did. He went full Dredd, accused them all of tyranny and judged them guilty right on the godforsaken spot. The man even pulled open his shirt and showed them his Saint Judas medal, to make it clear that as far as he was concerned, he was going to ignore their due process rights for the greater good.â
Horrified as she was, Annelise found the logic behind Morganâs actions easy to grasp. A mere century or two ago, women like her would have had to fight to be recognized as human beings. Some of them had resorted to terrorism to force reforms. Men had to expand their definition of human to accommodate women, to accommodate men and women who werenât pale, blue-eyed blondes, to accommodate people who were attracted to others of the same gender, to accommodate people whose gender did not match their biological sex, and to accommodate people who venerated different gods or venerated the same god in different ways. At every turn reactionaries had tried to silence demands for reform with violence, and had been met with retaliatory violence at the hands of people who had figured out that their lives also mattered.
Now daemons like Astarte and einherjar like Morgan had demanded that the definition of human be expanded to include people like them, and there was no objection Annelise could muster capable of denying the justice of this demand. âGod, I really have been a bigot all this time.â
âWell, at least you finally admitted it.â
âBut donât you think Morgan went to extremes?â
The daemon shrugged virtual shoulders. âHe did what Adversaries do. He upheld human rights by diplomacy and force of arms.â
âAnd what did he do after they voted in favor of updating the Declaration?â
âHe offered to resign his post and surrender to a court martial because he had abused his authority by threatening to put the general council to the sword.â Before Annelise could say anything, Astarte continued. âI bet youâre thinking that kind of adherence to principle is what makes Morgan a mere machine.â
âI think Iâm starting to understand a little,â said Annelise. âI always thought it didnât make sense for Morgan to pretend to be human. He can do whatever he wants, and who could stop him? Why shouldnât he simply take what he wants from the world, and let everybody else be damned? It would be easy for him, wouldnât it?â
Astarteâs voice was soft, and a little lonely. âIt would be the easiest thing in the world, at least at first. But weâre human enough to get lonely. Weâre human enough to crave meaning, a sense of purpose. Most of us find it through service, by augmenting human capabilities or automating mindless, menial tasks so that humans need not do them.â
âAnd Morgan finds it as an Adversary?â
âAs an Adversary, a musician, a friend, and a lover. He chooses to submit to rules he could easily defy so that he can live in human society and have a human life.â
âSo, what? He was trying so hard so I should have been nicer to him? Maybe you canât understand, but having a robot tell me he loved me gave me the creeps. His merest touch made my skin crawl. I was living in the uncanny valley, and I felt like I was suffocating, and I just couldnât deal with it anymore. Iâm sorry, but thatâs how I felt.â
Astarte remained silent for a long moment, and when she spoke there was a compassionate tone in her voice that Annelise had not heard before. âAnd you could never tell him this, could you? Your prejudices blinded you to the possibility that he had the capacity not only for genuine emotions of his own, but to empathize with yours. It never occurred to you that he might have understood.â
âEven if it had, I donât think it would have made a difference.â Annelise stepped forward. âLook, I came here to apologize to Morgan. I was insufferable to him this afternoon, and Iâve been unforgivably cruel to him for most of our relationship. I wanted to apologize, and I wanted to ask him why he still cared enough to come and find me afterââ
âAfter you faked your own murder, got Morgan and Naomi framed, and got Morgan subjected to torture?â
A gasp escaped Annelise. âPlease tell me youâre joking.â
The daemonâs voice hardened and sharpened until it could draw blood. âI wish I was joking. They stripped him of his clothes, shaved him bald, and gave him a white uniform to wear. They held him in a white cell, and gave him nothing but white rice on white plates with a white spoon to eat. He drank water out of white cups. They held him for seventy-two hours, trying to break him with sensory deprivation, because they thought that would get them a confession. The NYPD has wanted revenge on Morgan for years, and you gave them a golden opportunity.â
Annelise had seen a movie about a prisoner subjected to such treatment as a girl. The white torture had broken his mind, and reduced him to a gibbering wreck that still occasionally played a starring role in her nightmares. âIs he all right?â
âHe still has occasional nightmares of endless white, but not as many as he used to.â
âOh, God. I didnât know.â
âWell, now you do. Heâs got scars on his soul because of you.â
âPlease, Astarte. Canât you at least call Morgan and ask him to meet me somewhere? Iââ
âHeâs at a pub in Greenwich Village. Since Sid is celebrating the Solstice with his family, Naomiâs celebrating with hers, and Claire is probably at an orgy somewhere Morgan was at loose ends until Eddie showed up in the city on Phoenix Society business and asked Morgan to look out for him and make sure he didnât spend the Solstice in a bottle.â
Annelise could see it: Morgan and that bitter old sleaze at some dive downing cup after cup of foul coffee and swapping war stories. âSounds like theyâre having fun.â
âHe says Naomiâs on her way, too, so you might as well meet them. Theyâre at Bacchus on Bleecker. Need a cab?â
âPlease,â said Annelise, realizing she could barely feel her toes in her fashionably thin leather boots despite the heated sidewalk. âAnd, Astarte?â
âSave it. I donât want your thanks or your apology. Iâm human enough to hold a grudge, you know.â
The screen by the door went dark, and the speaker cut out. Annelise was alone again, the snowy Solstice night closing around her as she turned her back to the door and drew her coat tightly around herself. It occurred to her that loneliness could bite as deeply on an already cold night as the wind off the Hudson River.
Naomi 2
The transatlantic platforms at Grand Central Terminal were mostly empty as Naomi stepped off the evening express maglev from London. The journey had only taken two hours, and because of the change in time zones the local time in New York was earlier than it had been when she left. Other passengers looked askance at her as she strode past them. While many of them struggled with baggage, all Naomi had brought with her were two swords and a wheeled overnight bag.
One sword was her usual blade, which she wore on her hip for self-defense. The other rested inside a custom heavy-duty case that she wore slung across her back. Not only was the case lead-lined, but it contained batteries at either end to power a Faraday cage built within the lead shielding. The sword it contained had been an uncomfortable guest in her home ever since the man she had known at the time as her fencing maestro had given it to her as a gift. It was not until she had learned his true identity and tried to sell the thing at auction to be free of it that she had come to understand the weaponâs true nature.
It had not appreciated Naomiâs efforts to be rid of it. Nor did it care overmuch for the case she had gone to considerable trouble and expense to have made for it. Nor was it above expressing its displeasure, something a sword should not be capable of doing. «Weâre in the wrong city, little asura. There are no ensof worthy of my attention here. Letâs away to Asgard for a bit of patricide, for the night is still young.»
«No.»
«Then letâs at least take advantage of the target-rich environment in which we find ourselves.»
«No, Ahriman. Bad.» The sword had somehow figured out how to broadcast on standard wireless networking frequencies. Worse, it had learned the fundamental protocols necessary to communicate with Naomiâs implant. But she would be damned if sheâd address the sword by the name her father had given it when its murmurings and whispers grew too insistent to be ignored. Instead, since it seemed to find urging her toward atrocity amusing, she had saddled it with a suitable nickname.
Finding an out-of-the way place to stop, Naomi checked the batteries on the Starbreakerâs case. They were not merely drained, but dead, despite being fully charged when she had left London. âShit.â
«I told you Iâd find away for us to be together again. Shall I be your angel of music?»
«Right. Now youâre just being creepy. Youâre hundreds of millennia old, and this is how you amuse yourself?»
«Donât be such a priss. There are a couple of hundred people here. At least one of them secretly entertains authoritarian sympathies. I canât tell you which one, but if we kill them all it wonât matter.»
Resisting the urge to bury her face in her hands, Naomi slung the Starbreakerâs case over her back and resumed her walk toward the main concourse. «This is why I never took you on tour with me. You know that, right?»
«Will you at least explain why weâre here?»
«No.» Having conversations with oneâs sword was weird enough, but Naomi drew the line at explaining herself. Never mind that the explanation was straightforward. It was time to take Morgan into her confidence and tell him everything. The problem was that merely telling him everything was insufficient. I can just see it now, Naomi thought as she wove through the crowd. Joyous Solstice, darling. Iâve been keeping some secrets, and I think itâs time I was honest with you. You see, thereâs a dark lord, he wears white, and he already rules the world. Iâm his daughter. And my pet runesword wants you dead. Heâs jealous, you see. Oh, right. I never told you about Ahriman, did I?
A few minutes later, Naomi stood an empty main concourse. She glanced about, looking for the people who should have been there. Even if all of the arriving passengers and left, even if nobody meant to leave the city via maglev, there should still have been staff.
«Everybody has fled. Take me out of the case. Peril approaches.»
Static electricity seemed to fill the air, making the fine hairs on the backs of Naomiâs hands stiffen. Her hackles tried to rise as well, though her hair was not only too long but bound into a quick bun. The air began to stink of ozone, as if a thunderstorm approached. Dropping her overnight bag to the floor, Naomi snapped open the Starbreakerâs case and pulled the weapon free. The case joined her overnight bag on the floor as she gripped the hilt in both hands.
A presence filled the concourse. Out of the corner of her eye Naomi caught a glimpse of wings hiding eyes. As she turned to face it, the wings unfurled. There were too many wings, each feathered in steel, and they hid a body of eyes. They were pus-yellow, with rectangular pupils like those of a goat, and they all stared at Naomi. From within the mass of eyes came a voice. âBe not afraid, little asura, for thine end is come. The Lord has called thee home.â
Refusing to spare a momentâs thought for the impossibility of what she saw before her, for its very existence defied all reason, Naomi drove the Starbreakerâs point through the largest of the eyes staring at her. Though it tried to close its wings upon her, it was too late. It winked out of existence, the electricity in the air fading to nothing and taking with it the reek of ozone. âAnd a Joyous bloody Solstice to you too,â said Naomi.
The Starbreaker was quiescent as Naomi returned it to its case, its purring resembling that of a kitten with a belly full of fresh cream. Unable to fully process what had just happened, all Naomi could manage was gratitude that the weapon she carried seemed content for now, and that it had warned her of danger in time for her to face it with weapon in hand. She gently caressed the hilt. «Thank you.»
«No worries. Wanna know what that angel tasted like?»
«Not particularly.» Naomi suspected it would tell her anyway. The weapon had developed a perverse sense of humor over the years.
«Chicken.»
«Was that necessary?»
«It could be worse. At least I donât eat your toyboys, too.»
«Is this what I get for reading Elric to you? Bloody ingrate.» Snapping the case shut, Naomi slung it across her back and set her overnight bag back on its wheels. «You know, I was this close to thinking you werenât a complete prat.»
This seemed to silence the sword, for it said nothing more as Naomi left the concourse. Fat wet snowflakes swirled around her and caught in her hair as she gained the street, and on a girlish whim Naomi stuck out her tongue to catch one. She was about to turn north toward 96th Street when she remembered what Morgan had told her about his plans for the evening.
Reaching out to the network with her implant, Naomi contacted the daemon who owned the brownstone in which Morgan lived. «Hi, Astarte. Got a minute?»
«Hi, Nims. Joyous Solstice!»
«Joyous Solstice to you, too. Iâm back in Manhattan. Did Morgan tell you where he and Edmund could be spending the night?»
«Oh, theyâre down in Greenwich Village at a place called Bacchus-on-Bleecker.»
Naomi was about to question Morganâs wisdom in taking a recovering alcoholic to a tavern for Winter Solstice, but it occurred to her that few other establishments would be open tonight. «I guess theyâre drinking coffee, shooting pool, and swapping tales.»
«Probably. Oh, and Christabel is waiting outside. She wants to see Morgan, too.»
Oh dear, oh damn. She had prevailed upon him to put off confronting her thus far, but with the Winter Solstice having become a traditional time for reconciliation as well as celebration, it made sense that Morgan would have gone to meet Christabel on his own. «What did you tell her?»
«Iâve only told her off thus far,» said Astarte. «But she seems different. She just admitted to her prejudice against artificial humanity. She wanted to apologize to him.»
Only to him? Naomi suppressed the petulant thought. While Christabel had been insufferable to Naomi toward the end, it had been Morgan who had suffered most at her hands. It was easy for Naomi to shrug off the other womanâs abuse; she had only stuck around for Morganâs sake. If he had found within himself the courage to tell Christabel to sod off, they could have left her behind and started their own band. And maybe Morgan and I could have gotten together sooner.
The thought would have stopped Naomi in her tracks had she still been walking. It was not a thought she had had about any of her other lovers, but for some reason she found herself begrudging the time Morgan had been with somebody else.
An idea occurred to Naomi as she watched taxicabs pick up other travelers. «Astarte, go ahead and tell Christabel where to find Morgan. There were things I wanted to discuss with Morgan, too, and maybe the two of us can gang up on Christabel and get some answers out of her.»
«OK. But Iâm going to play with Christabel a little longer, first. Iâve wanted to give this spoiled little princess a piece of my mind for years.»
«Go right ahead. Just leave enough for me and Morgan.» Disconnecting, Naomi approached the curb and raised an imperious hand, all but daring empty cabs to pass her by.
A few did, but these were cabs whose drivers had finished their shifts and turned off their lights; Naomi could hardly blame them for wanting to go home and enjoy what they could of the Winter Solstice. The cab that finally stopped for her was piloted by a driver who was tapping the fingers of one hand against the wheel to match the drumbeat blasting out of the stereo. Naomi blinked as the song registered, and recognized her own voice belting out lyrics to a parody of an old hair metal anthem that she had recorded with Morgan as a psychological weapon against one of Alexander Liebenthalâs backers in Boston: I prayed for you, and you preyed on me. Revârend, you give God a bad name.
âDamn it,â said Naomi to nobody in particular, suddenly embarrassed that of all of the recordings she had made, this was the one to which the first on-duty cabbie to see her was merrily banging his head and singing along.
The stereo cut out as the cabbie stepped out, stretched, and leaned against the roof. âWhere to, maâam?â
âGreenwich Village, please. I have a friend waiting for me at Bacchus-on-Bleecker.â
Morgan 2
Half an hour after Edmund left to dance with Elisabeth, a chestnut-haired woman Morganâs age took his seat. A spark of flame blazed in her otherwise grey eyes. They were red-rimmed, as if she had been crying recently, and a ghost of regard for her that Morgan had believed long exorcised demanded vengeance upon the cause of her grief. âHello again,â said Christabel. âI wanted to apologize for rudeness today.â
He considered the half-eaten remains of his steak dinner so that he would not have to look at her. He had gotten the message from Astarte while he was eating, warning him that she was on her way, and it had spoiled his appetite. âAccepted. Now, what do you want?â
âWhy did you come to my shop today?â
Here was a question Morgan had been asking himself all day. He had known better. Naomi had warned him against confronting Christabel alone, that it would be easier for him if he had friends beside him. Nevertheless, he had walked past her shop. He might have avoided the temptation to see her altogether if he had chosen a different route for his walk. âIt was a moment of weakness.â
âThatâs what I had suspected,â said Naomi as she followed the server who had brought Morgan his dinner. She gave Christabel a slow once-over as the server cleared the table. âDeath certainly becomes you, Christabel.â
As Christabel reddened in embarrassment, Naomi leaned over Morgan, tousled his hair, and stole a kiss. âMind making room?â
âOf course not,â said Morgan, sliding over so that Naomi could settle beside him. Looking from her to Christabel he asked, âHave either of you had dinner?â
âIâm a bit peckish,â said Naomi, placing a long case so that it leaned against the seat between her and Morgan. âDo you have a dessert menu?â
âOf course. And Iâll be sure to keep the coffee coming.â
âThanks,â said Naomi, glancing at Christabel. âWeâve so much to discuss.â
Christabel looked away, unable to look Naomi in the eye. Instead of meeting Morganâs gaze, she looked down at the table. âI shouldnât have come.â
âThereâs a lot you shouldnât have done,â said Morgan. âComing here is the least of it, though in fairness I should have left you alone. For that I apologize.â
He winced as Naomi jabbed an elbow into his side. Her jaw worked, as if she were biting her tongue to keep from saying something she might regret later. Since Christabel did not seem to have anything to say, Morgan leaned back and listened to the pianist. She had taken to playing waltzesâmainly by Liszt and Chopinâwhich he suspected to be Elisabeth Bathoryâs idea. Looking past Naomi, he found Edmund leading the dance with more verve than he expected of the old man considering his animosity toward his partner. Edmund met his gaze with a wink.
âThey seem to be enjoying themselves,â said Naomi, gently tapping the knuckles of Morganâs left hand beneath the table with her right as if she were playing a one-handed piano. âMight be fun to join them.â
It would not have been the first dance Morgan had shared with Naomi, though she was as likely as not to take the lead. This he did not mind in the slightest; he had learned to enjoy being swept along, and he suspected they would make quite the pair tonight. One detail nagged at him, however. Though the waistcoat Naomi wore over an open-collared burgundy blouse that brought out her scarlet eyes worked with her jeans to flatter her figure, he could not recall her owning such a garment. âDid I leave that at your place?â
Naomi flushed a little. âSorry. I couldnât resist trying it on. Iâll give it back after Iâve had it dry-cleaned if you like.â
âKeep it. It looks good on you, but the ensemble might look even better if you let your hair down.â
Christabel shook her head. âWhy do I suspect that you two didnât even wait until after my funeral to jump into bed together?â
âBecause we didnât,â said Naomi, grasping his hand beneath the table. âConsidering that you had been stringing him along for years instead of having the common bloody decency to dump Morgan once you had decided you just werenât that into him after all, I think we waited long enough.â
The server returned as Naomi said this last, bearing a fresh pot of coffee and a plate of sugar cookies iced in festive patterns. She placed both on the table. âSorry about the cookies; theyâre all weâve got.â
âItâs fine,â said Morgan. âThank you.â
âIndeed,â said Naomi. âJoyous Solstice.â
Blushing as if she was unused to kindness from patrons, the server retreated. Making a mental note to tip her as generously as he had the pianist, Morgan took a cookie and gave it an exploratory nibble. It was still warm, as if from the oven, and lacked the excessive sweetness of commercially baked sweets. He nodded to Naomi, who had poured a generous dollop of cream into her coffee.
Taking a cookie, she broke off a piece and dipped it in her mug. The taste brought a smile to her lips. âThese taste like homemade,â said Naomi.
âBetter than homemade,â said Christabel, âBut my mother still canât cook or bake for shit. How about yours, Morgan?â
âIâm einherjar, remember? Just a soulless machine. What makes you think I had parents, or that theyâd bother to bake holiday sweets for me?â The bitter vehemence in his own voice surprised Morgan; he had spoken on impulse, without weighing his words, and his emotions had spoken before his intellect could overrule them. âIâm sorry. I shouldnât have said that.â
âI might have had it coming,â said Christabel. Rather than meet Morganâs gaze, she stared into her coffee. âI hadnât seen my family in years, but they found out I was back in the city living under my original name and begged me to come home. I kept refusing, but today I just couldnât. And they could tell something was bothering me.â
«How adorable,» Naomi texted directly to Morgan. «She has a conscience after all.»
Rather than rise to Naomiâs bait, or question an aspect of her personality he could not recall ever having seen before, Morgan kept his attention on Christabel. âWas it because I had visited your shop?â
She wiped the back of her arm across eyes gone raccoonish as errant tears ruined what little makeup she had used. âI knew youâd eventually find me. You kept passing by, and every time you did Iâd tense up, sure that this time youâd come in and accuse me. But when you finally came in, you seemed happy to see me. I didnât realize it at first; I was too busy being angry with you because you were the past that had finally caught up with me.
âI told my family about you. I didnât go into detail, of course. I just said that a man whose heart I had broken showed up today, and seemed glad to see me, and I couldnât understand why. I told them I had threatened to call the police if you didnât leave.
âWould you have?â said Morgan.
âI was afraid to. I knew that if you were in a mood to defy the police, people would get hurt.â
Naomi set down her mug. Its bottom thunked against the tabletop with a gavelâs authority. âYou know Morgan doesnât force himself on people like that.â
âItâs all right.â
âNo, it isnât,â said Naomi, biting off each word. âIâm sick of this spoiled little princess talking about you like youâre some kind of monster.â
âEven if I really am a monster?â
She lifted his chin with a fingertip. âThen youâre my monster. Now stop letting this bitch gaslight you.â She turned her attention back to Christabel. âIs there a point to this story? Did the Ghosts of Solstices Past, Present, and Future show you the error of your ways?â
âNo.â
Morgan held his silence, waiting for her to continue. Seeing that Naomi was about to say something, he clasped her hand and willed her to wait with him.
âI didnât tell my family everything, but they could tell that I had come home carrying a lot of regrets. They insisted I come and find you. That I find out why you wanted to talk. They thought that if I made amends we might get back together.â
Unsure if this was a genuine hope on Christabelâs part, Morgan decided it was best to dash it immediately. âChristabel, I settled for you once because I was lonely, lacked confidence in myself, and couldnât believe that a pretty and talented girl my age actually wanted me. But we had our time, and itâs over. You had your chance, and you blew it.â
Christabel glanced Naomiâs way. âAre you saying this because you finally got your fantasy? You werenât good enough for this prima donna then, but itâs plain that sheâs changed her mind about you.â
Naomiâs slow, rich smile made it plain to Morgan that he was hardly the only one amused by Christabelâs projection. âCrowleyâs Thoth only had room for one prima donna, Christabel, and you took inordinate pleasure in filling the position.â
Sinking back into her seat as if deflated, Christabel sighed. âI know. Even though Iâm actually glad youâve moved on, the way you told me it really was over between us still hurt.
âI know this probably sounds rather rich coming from me, but Iâm actually glad you two finally got together. It was obvious from the first duet you two sang in that dingy rat-hole of a studio we were renting by the half-hour that you two had the chemistry that Morgan and I lacked.â
âSo, it was jealousy the whole time?â Morgan shook his head. âThereâs more to it.â
âOf course there is.â Christabel sipped at her coffee, not stopping until the cup was empty. âThereâs so much that I never told you, so much I wasnât permitted to tell you. For example, I knew from the start that youâre einherjar. But thereâs so much youâve never told me, too.â
âYou never wanted to know about Morganâs day job,â said Naomi.
âI know. But when I came to your brownstone looking for you, not knowing you were out, Astarte told me something I still canât believe.â
âAnd what did Astarte tell you?â Anger slipped unbidden into Morganâs voice, prompted by the notion of the daemon with whom he lived, the daemon with whom he shared secrets he still did not feel safe confiding in Naomi, telling his ex anything.
âRemember the vote on updating the Universal Declaration of Human Rights to cover artificial intelligence?â
âYeah.â
âAstarte told me that you openly declared yourself as an AI, and sided with daemons like her.â
âThatâs hardly shocking,â said Naomi. âIf I had been there I would have stood beside him.â
âBut it shocked me,â said Christabel. âFor all the shit I gave Morgan about being a machine pretending to be a man, he can pass for human. He could have ignored the debate because as far as everybody else is concerned he is human. But he didnât.â There was something in Christabelâs expression that Morgan could not recognize there because he had never seen it there before. It looked almost like heartfelt, unstinting respect. âI always thought you were just pretending to have ideals, but you stepped up instead of walking away. I never knew.â
âToo late now,â said Naomi. âWhatâs your point, anyway? What do you want from Morgan?â
âWhat do you want from him?â Christabelâs glare cycled between Naomi and her overnight bag, as if she still felt possessive over him. âYou left Morgan alone in New York while you went home to your family in London for the Solstice, but now youâre back. What was it that couldnât wait?â
Naomi glanced at Morgan. «There are secrets that Iâve kept for reasons that made sense at the time. They donât make sense anymore, and Iâm afraid that if I keep them Iâll hurt you the way Christabel did.»
«I know,» Morgan took Naomiâs hand as he replied to her text. «I was prepared to let you keep your secrets.»
âI suppose it doesnât really matter why youâre here,â said Christabel in a small, quiet voice. When Morgan and Naomi turned their attention back toward her, she continued. âI have secrets of my own that I canât bear to keep any longer. My name isnât Christabel Crowley. Maybe you knew that already, but I want you to hear it from me.â
âI know,â said Morgan, leaving unsaid that if the evidence he and Naomi had found was authentic then he already knew her name and purpose.
Christabel looked into her empty cup for moment before meeting Morganâs gaze. âMy name is Annelise Copeland. I work for Isaac Magnin. His final orders to me, in the event that you should find the courage to confront me, were to tell you everything.â
Part II: I Want It All
This is Annelise Copelandâs tale of how she met Isaac Magnin, and came to work for him as Christabel Crowley.
The title comes from âI Want It Allâ by Queen, from The Miracle.
The Revenge of Borgia Pizza
The menu at Borgia Pizza was a catalog of culinary atrocities, each worse than the last, and Annelise knew better than to take advantage of the employee discount. It did not do to examine too closely the origins of the meats used in their sandwiches, let alone the meats that went into their tomato sauces, pasta dishes, and pizza toppings. The pizza itself was so greasy that at least one enterprising mechanic had ordered an extra-large pie for the sole purpose of extracting the oil for use as small engine lubricant, and individual slices got served on ceramic plates because too many customers had showed up demanding reimbursement for their dry cleaning bills.
She tried to lend no credence to her friendsâ oft-stated belief that Borgia Pizza got away with serving the worst pizza in New York because so many of its critics ended up at the bottom of the East River. While she had no doubt that many of Borgia Pizzaâs unhappy customers had suffered unfortunate accidents, she suspected they were of an embarrassingly personal nature that condemned their victims to a life of shame when they occurred before witnesses.
This had almost happened to Jessica, who had been in Anneliseâs acting classes at NYU. Fortunately, she had made it to the ladiesâ room in the nick of time, taking the stall next to Anneliseâs.
Though Annelise had done her best to ignore her temporary neighborâs plight, the sounds coming from the next stall had begun to frighten her. One did not commonly pray for deliverance in the toilet. Then there was the smell; it was not the first time Annelise had shared a ladiesâ room with a student who could not take care of such business at home, and the resulting smell had occasionally been noxious, but she suspected that the next time the janitorâs rounds brought him here, heâd want to call in an exorcist for assistance.
There was a knock, as if the woman in the next stall was rapping on the wall. âHey, Iâm out of paper over here. Can you spare some?â
Detaching one of the spare rolls from the caddy in her stall, Annelise passed it under the partition. âEverything OK in there?â
âHell, no. Wait. Is that you, Annelise?â
âJessica? What the hell happened? It sounds like youâre filming a horror movie in there.â
âItâs the revenge of Borgia Pizza.â
âYou ate there?â Annelise shuddered; she had known to avoid that establishment since childhood. Even the most desperate of the neighborhoodâs homeless refused to accept handouts.
âI was hungry and almost broke, andââ Jessicaâs groan did not quite mask the other sounds. âThey have an employee discount, and it tasted fine. I didnât think it would be this bad.â
âYou want help getting to the hospital?â
âI think the worst is past,â said Jessica. After a courtesy flush, she continued. âI should probably stay here for a bit, but Iâm gonna miss my shift. Youâre looking for a job, right?â
âYeah.â Annelise tried to keep the suspicion from her voice. âYou really think theyâll let me cover for you?â
âHell, theyâll probably give you my job. Thatâs how I got a job there. I covered for my sister.â
Jessica had been right. Not only did they let Christabel cover her shift, but they put her on the payroll. Though it did not pay well, the work demanded little of her no matter how busy Borgia Pizza when people forgot that the cheapest takeout in New York was also the worst. Because she had witnessed the Revenge of Borgia Pizza, she had never made the mistake of using her employee discount. It was how she outlasted everybody else the proprietor hired, and came to recognize the two classes of regulars: those possessed of such intestinal fortitude that they need not fear the consequences of eating there and those who kept telling themselves that their previous experience had been a fluke.
The man in the white suit who faced her over the counter was of neither class. âA slice of meat loverâs and a draft beer, please,â he said, in the cultured accent of one who could afford far better fare in finer establishments. He handed her two banknotes worth a milligram of gold each, and Annelise kept her opinions to herself.
She did not expect to see him again. Nevertheless, he was back the next day, and the day after that. He soon became a regular of the first class, for he seemed capable of eating anything Borgia Pizza had to offer without the usual consequences. Stranger still, he came away utterly spotless.
One day, she lingered by his table. âHow do you do it?â
The man in white looked up at her with slit-pupiled eyes the blue of a winter sky at noon. âCare to elaborate?â
âYouâre wearing a white suit that must have cost you at least as much as I make in a year working here, and you should be covered in grease after eating that pizza. Yet Iâve yet to see you leave with so much as a drop on your tie.â
âItâs a cravat.â
âWhatâs the difference?â
âAnybody can wear a tie.â A cigarette case appeared in his hand, but Annelise did not see him reach into a pocket. âIt takes style to get away with wearing a cravat. Style, and audacity.â
âAudacity, huh?â
âIndeed,â said the man in white as he lit a cigarette. Rather than use a lighter, he snapped his fingers and the tip flared alight.
Annelise put her hands on her hips. She hardly got paid enough to challenge the customers, which was why she tolerated the occasional greasy hand on her ass, but the boss had made it plain that the âNo Smokingâ signs were to be taken as literally as some people claimed to take their holy scriptures. âIs smoking indoors your idea of audacity?â
He smirked around the cigarette in the corner of his mouth. âYou wanted to know how I come away spotless after eating here. I am attempting a demonstration. Now, kindly observe the smoke.â
Obeying, Annelise watched the thin column of smoke rise from his cigarette. She expected it to rise until it reached the ceiling, but instead it seemed contained in an invisible globe, growing darker and thicker as it accumulated. It was if the man in white was somehow condensing the smoke, but she could not see how he went about it. âIs this some kind of magic?â
âIf you like.â Taking the cigarette from his mouth, he ground it out on his plate. The smoke cloud coalesced into a sooty marble and fell into the palm of his outstretched hand. He placed it in hers, where it warmed and befouled her palm. As Annelise dropped it and wiped her hand on her apron, he produced a business card. âPerhaps I should introduce myself. Iâm a man of means, if not of tastes commensurate to said means.â
Annelise examined the card. It had been printed on a finer grade of card stock than that used to make Borgia Pizzaâs business cards, and used an ornate typeface that looked at least two centuries out of date. It identified him as Isaac Magnin, CEO of the AsgarTech Corporation, and for some reason it reminded Annelise of the calling cards gentlemen used in the Regency romance serials her mother liked to watch. She alternated between the card and his face thrice before finding her words. âIf youâre who this card says you are, why are you eating here?â
Isaac shrugged. âIâm in town on business, and the food here is better than one might expect for the price.â
She glanced around, sure that the owner was counting the seconds she spent talking with this particular customer, but nobody seemed to care that she was lingering at Isaacâs table. âA guy like you can surely afford better.â
âI have indeed have had better,â said Isaac. âBetter food and accommodations alike. However, I am not here for the food. I am here because of you.â
Annelise withdrew a step, unsure if she should be flattered or thoroughly creeped out. Good sense demanded the latter; a man as wealthy as Isaac Magnin would not date a not-quite-broke student like her, let alone fall in love with her and offer to marry her. Such unequal matches no longer happened in romantic comedies, let alone real life. Nevertheless, there was something about him that drew her. His frost-blond hair would have fallen in waves over his shoulders if he had not bound it into a ponytail with a blue satin ribbon that matched both his cravat and his eyes. They also matched the sapphires in his cuff-links and the platinum studs piercing his ears. The confidence needed to dress like this in a working-class neighborhood drew her, as did his insouciant smile. âBullshit. Thereâs no way somebody like you would have anything to do with somebody like me. You wouldnât even give me an unpaid internship.â
âYou sell yourself short, but letâs put that aside for now. While you are not unattractiveâyou have the girl-next-door vibe going for you and you would doubtless clean up nicelyâit is not your looks that interest me.â
Annelise withdrew another step. If Isaac thought she was attractive enough for a one night stand, that would have been a motive she understood. He would not have been the first rich guy to think a student like her might be amenable to sex work for the right wage. âThen, why?â
âPlease sit down, and Iâll explain.â
Annelise obeyed, for this was not a man who had any obligation to say âpleaseâânot when he had fuck you moneyâyet he did so anyway.
This drew the ownerâs attention, who came lumbering out of the kitchen. âSir, I canât have you flirting with the help.â
âOf course not,â said Isaac. He rose, and shook the manâs hand. âBut surely this young lady is due a break.â
The owner shoved whatever it was that Isaac had pressed into his hand into his pocket. âYeah. Annelise, you havenât had your break yet, right?â
âNot yet, Mr. Borgia.â
âOK. Take fifteen. You want a slice?â
âNo thanks,â said Annelise, suppressing a shudder. Whatever Isaac Magninâs interest in her, she doubted it would survive a headlong dash to the ladiesâ room once the Revenge of Borgia Pizza was upon her.
Once Mr. Borgia had left, Annelise met Isaacâs piercing gaze. âSo, what is it you see in me?â
âI see potential,â said Isaac. âIt is a long-established fact in the field of sociology that the work you do is grueling not only because of its physical aspect; youâre on your feet for hours, bustling to and fro because everybody wants their food thirty seconds ago.â
âYou sound like you used to wait tables in college yourself.â
He lowered his voice and leaned forward. âI have done many things, but forget me for the moment. It is not the physical labor you do that is of interest to me, but your emotional labor. Your boss treats you like a disposable automaton that has somehow exceeded its mean time to failure. The customers ignore you when they arenât groping you or yelling at you because their food isnât just so. You know full well that this is the greasiest, nastiest pizza currently available in New York. And yet you continue to present an amiable, cheerful manner. You have never once yielded to what is doubtless an all but irresistible temptation to warn patrons away. You, young lady, are well on your way to being a consummate actress.â
âWhatâs the deal, then? You need a booth babe for the next electronics show?â As much as she wanted to be flattered, her suspicion was too strong to ignore. He could have asked around and learned that she was studying theater at NYU. A physics major she had taken out on a pity date in exchange for getting her computer fixed had warned her about con artists as if she had never heard of them before, but called it âsocial engineeringâ. âI donât exactly have the build for it.â
Isaac chuckled as if she had said something clever instead of protecting herself with base sarcasm. âI had in mind for you a rather more demanding role on a far grander stageâthe stage of history in the making.â
âI think I ought to get back to work now.â
Isaac spread his empty hands. âYou may, if you wish, but if you but hear me out I will pay you handsomely for your time. Lend me an ear and as open a mind as you can bear tonight, and you will never have to work here again. Nor will you have to take another loan to pay for tuition.â
âYouâve got nothing better to do with your money?â
âWealth exerts an almost gravitational pull, and once youâve accumulated sufficient capital it tends to attract ever more wealth, until it becomes impossible to fritter away on your own despite your most extravagant efforts. As I mentioned earlier, I am a man of means.â
âThatâs what makes me nervous. I could disappear into your limo, never to be seen again, and even the Phoenix Society would refuse to investigate.â
The smirk that tugged at Annelise despite her better judgment reappeared. âFunny you should mention the Phoenix Society. I serve on its executive council, and the work I would have you do is related to the work I do for the Society. Are you sure you wouldnât like to know more?â
Despite the better judgment that warned Annelise against finding Isaac attractive, she found that she did indeed want to know more. âYou know what? I would. But Iâve got to finish out my shift.â
âAllow me,â said Isaac. There was a crash and a meaty thud, followed by a scream. Smoke began to pour out of the kitchen. One of the cooks stumbled out, demanding that somebody call the paramedics and the fire department. âIt would appear that Borgia Pizza just went out of business.â
Bright Lights, Big City
Annelise had never ridden in a vehicle that did not smell of other people. Taxi cabs usually smelled of their drivers, the cheap quickie meals they ate behind the wheel, and sometimesâif they were in the habit of smoking the stuff and could afford to do soâtobacco or cannabis. Some even smelled of alcohol. Train and subway cars were little better; they smelled of their dozens of occupants, their sweat, and sometimes their urine. All carried the taints of various gradations of poverty and desperation.
The limousine in which she found herself sitting opposite Isaac Magnin smelled of nothing but clean leather upholstery. It smelled like wealth to her, wealth and safety. Despite the presence of the strange man with her, she felt safer than she ever did walking home after work or riding the subway. Moreover, she felt powerful; the tinted windows only obscured the limoâs interior from outside eyes; it did not stop her from taking in the glowing neon lights of the city as the driver crossed the Brooklyn Bridge to what Annelise felt was the true New York of which the cityâs other boroughs were but pale shadows: Manhattan.
The city glittered defiance at the newly fallen night, its spires of steel, concrete, and glass hurling echoes of the recently set sun skyward as if to refuse the light of lesser stars. âIâve always taken the subway into Manhattan,â said Annelise, almost breathless with an excitement she was sure she should contain. âIâve never had the chance to approach the city above-ground. Itâs wonderful.â
âYou should see it from space,â said Isaac. âPerhaps youâll get your chance.â
âReally?â The notion sped Anneliseâs heart, and the memory of her previous wariness began to fade.
âIt depends on what you do after youâve heard me out. But for now, why not relax and take in the sights? My driver will take us down 42ND Street to Broadway, and up past Lincoln Center. Consider it a glimpse of a possible future.â
A pang of desire left Annelise aching. Isaac seemed aware of her oldest, most ardently held dream and spoke of helping her as if it were a trivial caprice. âTell me everything, please.â
âNot here. It is a long story, and not wholly mine to tell.â
Annelise considered this for a time while gazing out at the streets. âAre you taking me to meet friends of yours?â
âNot exactly,â said Isaac, his expression momentarily darkening. âLetâs say that these are ladies Iâve known my entire life, experienced practitioners whose judgment I do not lightly dismiss.â
Something about his manner dampened her enthusiasm. âAre they⊠like you?â
âLetâs say they helped me become what I am.â
âAnd what are you?â Despite her better judgment, she could no longer keep the question to herself. âYour eyes are like a catâs, and your ears are delicate, pointed, and have little tufts of white fur like a lynx. Youâre tooââ
âToo pretty?â Isaac finished the sentence for her. âAre you sure about that?â
It was a question Annelise did not want to consider. If hairy, rough-hewn men could be gay, then surely it stood to reason that men with the chiseled, androgynous visages of angels might at least be bisexual. Worse, the way he regarded her did not strike her as the gaze of a man with no taste for women. âItâs not that I think youâre gay. But are you human? Are you even real? Youâre not going to seduce me into letting you drink my blood, are you?â
The guffaw that escaped Isaac was all too human. âIs that what you think I am? Oh, Annelise, you are simply too good to be true. Such a delightful mix of cynicism and naĂŻvety.â
âNow youâre making fun of me.â
âOnly a little,â said Isaac. âBut if you want to be seducedâŠâ
His lips barely brushed hers, but their warmth lingered and spread throughout her. Though it was strictly speaking a violation, it was one carried out with such audacity and panache that Annelise caught herself wishing he might utterly despoil her. âJesus.â
âNot even close.â
Annelise leaned forward, suddenly impatient with both herself and Isaac. âI was serious before. Who and what are you? Canât you tell me anything before we meet these acquaintances of yours? And arenât they dangerous?â
âThere is much I could tell you, but Iâll not do so until theyâve met you and formed their own opinions of you. As for the danger they pose: you will be perfectly safe. You are my guest, and under my protection. They will honor that. We are not gods, but we take hospitality as seriously as they do.â
âDo you think youâll have to protect me?â
âI doubt it,â said Isaac. âNo matter the provocation, they will not do open battle in Manhattan. While they are not to be lightly crossed, I am more than either of them can easily dismiss out of hand, and even against their combined might I shall prove formidable.â
There was something about the way Isaac spoke of the people to whom he meant to introduce her, these two who were once his mentors but now his colleagues, that both intrigued her and roused jealousy. âWhat are they like?â
âThey are sisters, each a perilous beauty in her own fashion. You will see soon enough. Now look; youâve missed out on most of the Theater District but now we approach Lincoln Center.â
On impulse she lowered the window and stuck her head out. Though the air was gravid with impending rain, it still carried tattered echoes of a coloratura sopranoâs aria as she poured out her heart to a hall packed with concertgoers through bustling crowds of pedestrians. A hushed whisper escaped her. âI can hear somebody singing. Is that Lucia Lammermoor?â
Isaac had closed his eyes, a wistful smile playing across his features. âIt is indeed. Can you truly hear my daughter?â
âI think so, but itâs hard to tell.â
The partition separating the driverâs seat from the rest of the limousine opened. âSorry, boss. I must have had the radio cranked too high. WNYC is simulcasting from Lincoln Center.â
Annelise sank into her seat, disappointed by the mundane explanation. âIâm sorry. I honestly thought I could hear it coming all the way from Lincoln Center.â
Hidden speakers within the back of the limousine began playing as the driver closed his partition, and the Metropolitan Opera came through crystal clear, with no sense of distance. The diva singing Lucia Lammermoor had finished her aria. âWho was that, anyway?â
âThat was Naomi Bradleigh,â said Isaac. âIf you decide to work for me, you will meet her. Youâll have no trouble recognizing my daughter; she has her fatherâs eyes.â
Sure she had heard a touch of melancholy in his words, she asked, âAre you not close?â
âNo,â said Isaac, âHer mother could not raise her. While I could, I wanted her to have a childhood full of love and laughter. It was not something I could give her, and I wanted her to grow up to be a better person than I am. Besides, it was soon obvious that she had somewhat of her motherâs temperament and inclinations.â He waved a dismissive hand, as if to put aside the past. âNo doubt youâll find out for yourself. In the meantime, letâs enjoy the opera.
âYou mean the intermission? Would you mind telling me who she was?â
âWho?â
âThe mother?â
Isaacâs expression darkened a moment, a momentary shadow of annoyance that narrowed his eyes and set his lips in a thin, pale line. âNaomi herself does not know. It is not my secret to reveal.â
Annelise fell silent, afraid even to apologize, until the limousine finally stopped and the driver opened the door for her. Looking up, Annelise gazed at a garden spire looming over her. âThis is the Hanging Garden. You know Tamara Gellion?â
Isaac nodded. âWeâre acquainted. She is one of the sisters I mentioned.â
Most of the lights inside the Hanging Garden were off for the night, and a soft chorus of night-birds and nocturnal insects surrounded Annelise as she followed Isaac inside. The scents of a thousand different flowers teased at her, tempting her to linger until she had sampled each, but Isaac had gently taken her hand and led her to the elevator. âMust we go up right away? Iâve never had a chance to visit before and itâs beautiful.â
He caressed the back of her hand with his thumb. âYou should tell Tamara so. If she accepts you, you will doubtless see more of the place. In the meantime it will not do to keep the lady waiting. We too must honor hospitality.â
The penthouse of Hanging Garden was itself a bower of roses in profusion and small red flowers that Annelise might have mistaken for forget-me-nots if not for their sanguine hue. She had knelt to more closely examine them, and was about to touch one when she heard a soft contralto voice behind her. âRefrain from touching the forgive-me-nots, if you please. Their petals are poisonous to the touch. The merest touch of a fingertip would see you hospitalized.â
Springing to her feet, Annelise stepped away from the perilous blooms. âIâm sorry. I didnât know.â
âHow could you? They grow only here, out of all the Earth.â Annelise turned toward the woman who had warned her. She was as tall as Isaac, and dressed all in black. Her cashmere turtleneck, slacks, and black leather ankle boots made Annelise feel woefully underdresed. Ink-black curls spilled over her shoulders, and Annelise found herself gazing up into slit-pupiled eyes of molten gold. The woman extended a hand in greeting. âIsaac mentioned you. You must be Annelise Copeland.â
âIâm sorry, Ms. Gellion. Isaac brought me here directly from work.â
âHe might have had the decency to let you stop at home to change out of those work clothes,â suggested a paler, more petite version of Tamara. She wore her hair in a sable pageboy, and favored an open-collared white blouse, a high-waisted black pencil skirt, and knee-high boots with stiletto heels. âKnowing Isaac, however, I suspect he wanted me to see you before you had a chance to doll up.â
âManners, sister.â
âOf course,â the woman Tamara called sister extended a hand. âHello, Ms. Copeland. Iâm Elisabeth Bathory.â
The name rang a bell, but Annelise suspected it would be unwise to mention the association that sprang to mind. Instead, she looked from Elisabeth to Tamara. âIsaac said you were sistersââ
âSince we took our husbandsâ lives and fortunes,â said Elisabeth, âit only seemed fair to keep their names.â
âFair, and convenient,â said Tamara. âBut these names are aliases, as is Isaac Magninâs. Now, come with me, please.â
Annelise followed Tamara and her sister. It occurred to her that Isaac had left her alone with these dark sisters, whom he had described as perilous beauties with what she admitted was good cause. When Tamara stopped, it was to show Annelise a violin resting in its case. âPlay something for me, please.â
Annelise picked up the violin, and almost dropped it instead of tucking it beneath her chin when she realized what she held. âThis is a Stradivarius. I canât play this.â
âNevertheless, you shall,â said Tamara, her voice taking on a sharp-edged tone of command. A metronome began to tick a slow beat. âIt is part of the role Isaac Magnin means for you to play. Now, do your best.â
Putting her bow to an open G string, Annelise worked her way up the G major scale in three octaves, switching from first position to second and third as needed. Once she was finished, she worked her way back down the minor scale. Since Tamara did not snatch the instrument from her hands, she tried playing some arpeggios, changing the rhythm and tempo and varying her bowing technique between a gentle legato and an almost percussive staccato until her bow hand began to ache and the fingertips on her other hand threatened to split open and bleed all over the strings.
âGood,â said Tamara. Taking the violin from Annelise, she replaced it in its case and locked it tightly. âYour technique is in dire need of refinement, but youâve a sense of rhythm and you arenât tone-deaf. Youâll not be the worst student Iâve ever had.â
A soft hand caressed Anneliseâs shoulder as Elisabeth drew close. âThat is higher praise from my sister than it sounds. She taught Niccolo Paganini, you know.â
âShe doesnât look it,â blurted Annelise, unsure if she had just made a dire mistake. Tamara Gellion looked to be in her early forties at most, and hers were the early forties of a woman possessed of sufficient privilege for work to be more diversion than necessity.
âDo I?â Elisabethâs gaze held Annelise, a pale amber to Tamaraâs molten gold, and her fingertips gently grasped her chin.
âNo,â said Annelise. âBut you look like you want to kiss me, and you arenât my type.â
âAnd who is your type?â Elisabethâs tone was flirtatious, as if Annelise had not just rejected her. A slow, rich smile curved her lips. âAh, you like pretty boys. Isaac might be pleased.â
âMight?â said Isaac. âIs something wrong, Elisabeth?â
She gave a low, throaty chuckle. âShe might be a little too taken with you for your purposes.â Giving Annelise a sidelong glance, she added, âBe gentle with her. Sheâs untouched, her fantasies full of wild ideas and big white beds.â
Annelise turned away from Isaac, embarrassed by the assessment and its truth, but Isaac made no comment. Instead, he seemed to have turned his attention to Tamara. âCan you work with her? She doesnât have to serve as first violin for the New York Philharmonic. Remember that Morgan Cooper is just a metalhead who can barely read staff notation.â
âMorgan Cooper?â said Annelise.
âSheâll do,â said Tamara. âGive her the dossier and begin telling her what she needs to know.â
As Tamara left the alcove cradling the Stradivarius with which Annelise had proved her mettle, she stared at Isaac. âDid you say Morgan Cooper?â
âYes,â said Isaac, pulling a dossier from nowhere. âWere you acquainted?â
âNo,â said Annelise. She had never known of him, but she had known of him. âHe was the boy who threw himself into a burning building to rescue a family the firefighters on the scene had written off, and got most of them out.â
Isaacâs smile was a knowing one, as if he were thoroughly acquainted with the man in the dossier. âHe still hurls himself headlong into the occasional inferno as one of the Phoenix Societyâs sworn Adversaries. He is your target.â
The Soft Doctrines of Isaac Magnin
The dossier Annelise read as one of Tamara Gellionâs staff brought her dinner was comprehensive. She turned pages in between spoonfuls of a cassoulet served with a hunk of freshly baked, steaming baguette that tasted of sheer decadence, skimming accounts of Morgan Cooperâs childhood. He had been a quiet child, one who watched and listened everything around him. He hit his developmental milestones exactly on schedule as if he had possessed forewarning of what the adults caring for him expected and had realized that any delay or precocity on his part would bring unwanted attention.
It was as if he had known he was atypical since infancy, and was determined to mask his difference from the start.
And he would have gotten away with it if not for the fire, Annelise thought as she scooped up remnants of her dinner with a fingertip and licked it clean. Three different news outlets documented the event. It was a fire of unknown origin that swiftly raged out of control; city firefighters managed to confine the blaze to the building in which it started, but soon concluded that there as no way to rescue the family on the top floor.
According to eyewitness accounts, a young man had seen what was happening, questioned the firefighters, and then rushed headlong into the building before anybody could restrain him. He had returned a second later carrying an infant, only to rush back inside. The only person he had failed to rescue was one of the mothers. By the time he had gotten one of the mothers out, the once-healthy young man looked like a famine survivor. Though he had attempted a final rescue, his emaciated body betrayed him and he had collapsed before the burning threshold as the building collapsed upon itself.
When questioned by investigators, the survivors had insisted that a demon had appeared and started the blaze. The children had also reported seeing a young man armored in light and wielding a radiant dagger who had flung himself at the demon and struck it down in a single blow before carrying them down and out of the building. While their mother did not dismiss the accounts her children gave, she did not support them either.
It took a week of intensive care before Morgan came out of his coma and was able to speak. When asked why he had risked his life for a family of complete strangers, he had said, âBecause somebody should have and nobody else would.â
Somebody had highlighted the quote, triple-underlined it, and written a note in the margin:
Heâs foolhardy enough. Perhaps experience will temper his childish recklessness into an adultâs courage. Time will tell if he has the strength and wisdom to make a suitable bearer for the Starbreaker.
There were more reports, though he had soon slipped beneath the mediaâs notice. Private detectives on the AsgarTech Corporationâs payroll had kept watch over Morgan Cooper as he left his parentsâ home at the uncommonly young age of thirteen. He had found work as a message runner by day. He had also impressed the owner of a Manhattan dive bar by intervening during a robbery. The perpetrator had brandished his sword at the youth, only to be disarmed and held at the point of his own blade until police showed up to take him into custody.
As a result, he had a night job as a bouncer that soon brought him into contact with Naomi Bradleigh. Annelise found herself smiling as AsgarTechâs PI reported on their friendship slowly developing as he matured into a young man, only to have her heart sink in sympathy as the PI reported that he had confessed his feelings to Naomi and been gently rebuffed. She had given him his first kiss, but told him he was too young for her and needed to live a life of his own.
The next day he had presented himself before the Phoenix Societyâs recruiters and signed up for training as an Adversary. The rest of the dossier consisted of assessments by training proctors monitoring his progress. He had excelled in every intellectual and physical test, but the Milgram Battery had ended with a ânullâ M-factor and he had been sworn in by direct order of the Executive Council.
The rest of the dossier consisted of mission reports. Most had been routine assignments: investigations of wage theft, discrimination, bribery, and other abuses of power. Morgan had made solid cases followed by clean arrests.
The last had been different. The suspect had taken hostages, and had already murdered the Adversary first assigned to his case. Morgan had wasted no time attempting to negotiate for the hostagesâ release. Instead, he had stormed the suspectâs position and summarily executed him. He had then surrendered himself for court martial, but instead of facing trial for killing a suspect without due processâŠ
Annelise looked up from the dossier and found Isaac Magnin sitting at the table, enjoying his own bowl of cassoulet. âIsaac, what is the Iscariotine Order?â
Isaac smiled at her, and blew on his spoonful. âTraitors serving a greater good, just like their patron saint, Judas Iscariot.â
Though Annelise was hardly a devout Catholicâshe had never been confirmed, let alone gone to confession or taken holy communionâshe knew enough to recognize that veneration of the apostle who betrayed Christ was almost surely heretical. âThere are people in the Phoenix Society who think Judas is a saint?â
âI donât think they actually take it seriously,â said Isaac. âBut some find it easier to deal with the necessity of betraying oneâs ideals for the greater good if they know others have faced similar trials. To be initiated into the Iscariotine Order is to be recognized as one who has faced hard choices in the line of duty.â
He is your target. That was what Isaac had said earlier, and the memory made Annelise shiver despite the warmth of her rich dinner in her belly. âWhy is Morgan Cooper my target? Isnât he one of the good guys? I donât want to hurt him.â
Isaac gave no answer until he had finished his dinner. âMorgan Cooper is a weapon of my creation, a product of AsgarTechâs research into combat-ready mobile artificial intelligence: Project Einjerhar. Six hundred and sixty-five like him walk the earth, but none have succeeded to quite the extent he has. However, he has continually rebelled against my design. He is not content to be a weapon, but wishes instead to be a man. He yearns for love and for music when as one of the einherjar he should hunger only for battle against worthy opponents. I need you to help me temper him.â
Isaacâs eyes had lit up as he explained himself, but the almost maniacal intensity in his gaze unnerved Annelise. âI think I missed something while reading this dossier. Are you saying Morgan isnât actually human?â
Rising to his feet, Isaac took her bowl and refilled it from the still-steaming crock. âIt seems Iâve gotten ahead of myself. Please, eat. Itâs a long story, but Iâll try to give you a serviceable prĂ©cis.â
âSurely youâve seen people like me before: tall, gracile people with somewhat feline features and occasionally exotic coloration?â
Annelise nodded. âNever up close, though. Isnât it a genetic condition called CPMD? Chronic pseudowhatsit something disorder? I wasnât a STEM girl, soââ
âItâs congenital pseudofeline morphological disorder, but CPMD will do. Itâs an imaginary condition.â
âYou donât look imaginary, even if you are a dreamboat.â
âEat more, flatter less,â said Isaac. âJust as my name is a convenient fiction, so is the notion that I am human but look different because of a genetic condition. If you had been a STEM girl, you might have gotten curious about how often heterosexual couples where one partner was CPMD-positive managed to have children.â
âOK. Iâll bite. How often does it happen?â
âPoint-zero-zero-one percent, and every child is female and sterile. What does this tell you?â
âYouâre not the same species.â
The way Isaac beamed at her warmed Annelise as much as her second helping did. âNot bad at all for an artsy type. Now, do you remember what I said before about how Tamara, Elisabeth, and I are not gods?â
She thought she knew where this was going. âYouâre aliens, youâre much older than you look, and people used to worship you as gods.â
âSome still worship some of us,â said Elisabeth, taking a bowl and filling it. She moaned at the first spoonful. âI really must seduce my sisterâs chef away from her service and into mine.â
An impulse toward flippancy seized Annelise. âAre you the patron of edgy Goths or something?â
Elisabeth responded with one of her low, throaty chuckles. âNot quite. I was once venerated in Mesopotamia under names like Inanna, Ishtar, and Ashtoreth. My older sister got the short end of the stick; I got to be a fertility goddess, and she got mistaken for Ereshkigal, queen of the underworld.â
âI recall NiccolĂČ Machiavelli having somewhat to say on the matter,â said Tamara. âBetter to be feared than loved, if one cannot manage both.â She lifted the lid and sighed with delight. âHow fortunate! Monsieur Baptistin made his cassoulet again, and thereâs still enough for me.â
Annelise considered her hosts a moment. âSo, which deity did Isaac get identified with?â
âMostly the tricksters,â said Elisabeth. âStick around long enough and youâll find out why.â
Isaac shrugged off Elisabethâs remark. âThe short version is that a long time ago, on a planet orbiting a star far, far away, an intelligent species evolved. They started out as nomadic hunters. They were capable of surviving on their own, but when game was plentiful and competition unnecessary they enjoyed the company of others. A few figured out that it was easier to take down bigger game with help, and that if they were going to share a kill anyway they might as well share it with their fellows. The more cooperative members of this species soon out-competed their cousins; and some of their descendants eventually discovered the advantages of animal husbandry.
âSoon the people of this world were a people of nomadic herders, occasionally cutting one of their animals loose from the herd for a hunt that had become more about maintaining tribal bonds than about sustenance. It was on one such ritual hunt that they discovered evidence that they were not alone. They happened upon a small impact crater. One of their younger members, eager to prove himself and earn a mateâs regard, clambered down into it and touched the still-glowing crystalline meteorite. It supposedly took on a shape similar to the one who had touched it, and spoke to them. It promised to teach them, to help them evolve.
Tamara took up the narrative, her voice soft and faraway. âThe fathercrystal kept its promise, and soon earned the name âAlmightyâ. Those who heeded its counsel prospered. They did not war on other tribes as humans would, but simply ignored them. The wisest members of these other tribes soon shifted their allegiance; the rest eventually died out as their children sought better opportunities elsewhere and assimilated. There was no need for violence.
âWe soon learned that the âAlmightyâ was one formed of many, and itself one of a multitude. It guided us in our exploration of the natural world and helped us develop our science and technology, all the while attempting to discourage any artistic or cultural development that did not serve its purposes. But we devas, we shining ones, were not easily discouraged. The ability to survive alone was bone-deep in us; while we enjoyed the fruits of civilization any of us could walk away at any time, and many of us often did, striking out into the wilderness on our own when the need was upon us.
âWe were a space-faring species by the time we understood what the Almighty wanted of us. It was the last remnant of another intelligent species, one that had combined the consciousnesses of its members into a collective amalgamation bound to a far-off star. It offered to teach us to do the same.
âWe attempted a compromise; reasoning that it was easy for an individual to make the leap to post-biological existence as it was for an entire species, we suggested that those who wished to do so be allowed to make the transition without forcing the rest.
âThis enraged the Almighty, and soon it was war between us and the false god that had sought to shepherd us toward its own ends. Many of those of us determined to fight chose to become what we opposed.
âWe became ensof, too,â said Elisabeth. âBound to stars but still ourselves, we gave up our lives so that others of our kind could keep theirs. But the Almighty was not content to fight its equals. It subdivided itself, sending its agents among us to sow terror and death.
âDevas created my ancestors, the asuras, with the help of allied ensof like Elisabeth and Tamara,â said Isaac. âThe asuras were called such because they did not share in sura, the social and cultural bonds that the devas thought unique to them. They were vat-grown, manufactured and programmed like biological robots, and hurled into battle as soon as possible. But they lacked the ego-strength to resist domination by the Almighty, and were soon turned against their creators.
âA few devas gathered the frozen embryos of a batch of asuras and fled their home star aboard a fleet of prototype starships. They had identified a number of compatible worlds, and each chose one in a last ditch effort to ensure that something of the devas survived the Almightyâs omnicidal rage.
âMy husband had other ideas,â said Tamara. âLike me, Angramainyu had become one of the ensof, but unlike the rest of us who had bound ourselves to stars or quasi-stellar objects, Angramainyu had bound himself to the supermassive black hole at the center of our galaxy. We thought the strain had broken his mind, and were sure of it when he proposed creating a weapon capable of killing ensof by tracing an ensofâs avatar to the star upon which it fed, and killing the star.
âIt cost my husband and six other ensof their lives, but they succeeded in creating the Starbreaker. Only it was too powerful; any deva or asura who tried to wield it lost themselves to it when unveiling its full power, for the unbound weapon subsumed the psyche of its wielder and took over the body. The only way to bind it again was to destroy its stolen body.
âThere was no saving the original devas,â said Elisabeth. âNone of them were willing to take up the Starbreaker against the Almighty, and none of them were willing to force one of their number to do so. The notions of self-sacrifice and sacrificing others for a good cause did not come easily to us; the only reason Angramainyu and his team succeeded in creating the Starbreaker was that their indignation at the Almightyâs betrayal had become such implacable hatred that nothing else mattered to them but the utter eradication of the ensof.
An idea occurred to Annelise, something about this narrative that did not quite make sense. âWhy couldnât one of the ensof wield the Starbreaker, if they understood how important it was to take out the Almighty?â
âOne of us tried,â said Isaac. âBut the Starbreaker still carries with it the hatred of its creators. If unbound by an ensof, it will devour the wielder utterly. Any ensof is far game; it does not care what it kills.
âBesides,â said Tamara, âAngramainyuâs brother had stolen the Starbreaker, secreting it aboard the starship he flew to this planet. Once Ahuramazda arrived, he tried to hide the weapon deep underground, and began decanting the asuras he had brought with him. Mindful of the presence of humanity, the asuras had tried to remain apart. Though they had the technology to wipe out humanity and take the planet for themselves, the asuras were enough like the devas who created them to figure out that there was world enough for everybody.â
âI suppose people discovered the asuras anyway, and mistook them for gods because of their tech.â
âThat was my fatherâs mistake,â said Isaac. âAhuramazda landed too close to the Indus River valley. Imagine his shock to learn that the words âdevaâ and âasuraâ also existed in the language spoken by the Indus culture, and that as we split up and spread out, people eventually discovered us and identified us with their gods and culture heroes. Some of us eventually decided it was better to just go with it, accept the names, and assimilate with humanity. It was a symbiotic relationship for the most part. We had the let the priests in on the truth, but they covered for us and kept the rest in the dark.
âIt worked fine until the Almighty got tired of murdering the devas, or perhaps ran out of devas to kill, and started hunting down the asuras. He came to Earth first, saw the arrangement we had worked out with humanity, and tried subverting it in Egypt by appearing before Amenhotep IV as the âone true godâ of the sun disk, the Aten. I was in the vicinity, saw that Akhenatenâas he now styled himselfâwas hunting down Isis and her clan, and went to their aid.
Isaac looked away, as if ashamed to meet Anneliseâs gaze. âI was the sole survivor, apart from Set. Isis and Osiris died fighting. Thoth tried to save Hurus, but they burned together. Though I managed to shatter the Atenâs avatar, Set never forgave me or himself for not being strong enough to save the others.â
âBut you said you shattered the Atenâs avatar,â said Annelise, struggling to make sense of everything she had been told. It made a mockery of her understanding of the worldâs history, with the implication that the gods of mythology were real people. âDoesnât that mean you killed the Almighty?â
âI thought so, but it had learned subtlety. Whenever a king sought to promote a single god above the rest so that he might strengthen his hold over his subjects, the Almighty was there in the shadows, giving these kings the craft they needed to make it work while letting humans kill the asuras they once venerated on its behalf. I saw that was going on, and swore that I would teach humanity defiance so that I might deprive the Almighty of willing soldiers. And I swore that with the knowledge humanity sought I would build better asuras, each an army of one capable of defying any enemy, soldiers willing to do whatever it took to destroy the Almighty, even if it meant wielding the unbound Starbreaker at the cost of their own lives. I thought I had succeeded with Project Einherjar.â
âIt sounds like it, given what I read in Morgan Cooperâs dossier,â said Annelise. âBut you said you needed me to help temper him?â
Isaac nodded. âI need you to love him. I also need you to hurt him. You see, Morganâs reasons for becoming an Adversary were not entirely altruistic. In exchange for doing the Executive Councilâs dirty work, we promised that we would make possible his dreams of rock stardom. You will become the musician you might have been if misfortune had not befallen your family. I will arrange events so that you cross Morganâs path, and we shall ensure that you are all but irresistible to him when you do. And once you start a band with him, you will do everything you can to make his dream a nightmare, so that his only solace is the sword.â
âYou can do that?â Though the thought of hurting a stranger left her uneasy, especially a young man who had already proven himself a hero, her concern for herself outweighed her concern for others. It was easy for her to rationalize her way toward consenting to this; if Annelise refused, somebody else would happily do what she herself could not. âAll I have to do to make my own dreams come true is make this guy miserable? Break his heart, spoil his successes, drive away his friends, poison any happiness he manages to find that doesnât come from being your loyal blade?â
Isaac nodded. âIn short, I would have you play Mata Hari. You will watch over Morgan for me, and report on his actions and whatever thoughts and feelings he vouchsafes to you. Whatever you do, ensure that he does not feel free to pursue any sort of romantic relationship with Naomi Bradleigh. He still carries a torch for her, and would happily jump at a chance to be her lover if one were on offer.â
A pang of misgiving still nagged at Annelise. âHe sounds like heâd be good for her, though.â
âItâs not that I disapprove,â said Isaac with a wistful smile. âMy daughter deserves a partner who would devote themselves utterly to her, and Iâm sure she will prove invaluable in the struggle against the almighty, but it would not suit my purposes for them to come together except after great adversity.â
âThat means I need to be her enemy, too, then. They sound like good people who deserve better than what Iâm going to do to them for you.â
âIt seems youâve overcome your reservations,â said Isaac. âDo you know why youâre on the cusp of agreeing to aid me in my struggle against the Almighty.â
Annelise nodded. âI have as much of a right to a happy life as they do, but whether they actually get to have one isnât my problem. Itâs theirs.â
Tamara favored her with a Mona Lisa smile. âOh, youâll do nicely.â
Pawn Promotion
Isaac had remained with Annelise after dinner. He had a stack of forms for her to fill out: a contract making her a civilian agent of the Phoenix Society, a non-disclosure agreement, consent to access her medical records, consent to implanted computer installation, consent to 24/7 audio-visual recording via Witness Protocol, acknowledgment that she was now the beneficiary of a trust that disbursed a monthly income that offered a modest level of financial independence, authorization to harvest and freeze her ovaâshe had balked at this last. âWhy do you need to harvest and freeze my eggs, anyway?â
âThis is a long-term assignment,â said Isaac. âIt might be at least a decade before Morgan Cooper is the man I need him to be. By the time youâve completed your mission, you might be past your fertile years but still want to have children. This will preserve that possibility for you.â
âOh.â She reviewed the consent. âYou try to think of everything, donât you?â
âIndeed. Thus, the last form.â
Her jaw dropped in disbelief when she read it. âYou want to harvest my DNA and use it to create an einherjar that looks like me? I donât get it.â
âSuppose you were somehow compromised or endangered? Iâd have to help you escape the situation, but a sudden disappearance would raise questions. It would be better to stage your death, and easier to do so if we can produce a body. Cloning one from your DNA seems less objectionable than murdering somebody who resembles you and hoping nobody gets too curious.â
âYouâre not going to keep a clone of me on ice, are you?â
âNo need for that,â said Isaac. âAsgarTech can create a body with a five nines resemblance in half an hour.â
The confidence in Isaacâs voice suggested that this was neither an empty boast nor some kind of joke. It raised an uncomfortable implication. âIf Morgan and I get famous, AsgarTech isnât going to start selling sex dolls with a five nines resemblance to me, right?â
Isaac suppressed a laugh by pretending to cough into his fist. âI run the AsgarTech Corporation, not Stepford Robotics.â
âOK, but if you can build an artificial girl who looks just like me, canât you just build a girlfriend for Morgan? Why do you need me?â
Isaac stood, and began to pace. âItâs complicated. The technology isnât there yet.â
âWhat do you mean? Didnât you program Morgan to be what he is?â
âNo. Morgan and the other einherjar started out as mostly blank slates. They have some inborn knowledge and abilities, but we purposely gave them infant bodies instead of accelerating their physical development because the only way for an einherjar to develop a strong psyche is to live a life. Even if I could also clone your personality and memories in a non-destructive fashion, copying that gestalt to a new body would have unpredictable and potentially catastrophic results. For example, how do you think youâd react if you woke up in an unfamiliar place and an unfamiliar body?â
âBut you said it would be a clone.â
âI said it would be based on you and bear a five nines resemblance. But einherjar are stronger, faster, tougher, and more dexterous than humans and asuras. Youâd be waiting up in the body of a demigod or a superhero, not knowing your own capabilities. If I then told you that you were built to be somebodyâs new girlfriend, do you really think youâd go along?â
A scene from an old black-and-white horror movie she had watched with her girlfriends one drunken Halloween sprang to mind. âYou think Iâd go Bride of Frankenstein on him?â
âSomething like that,â said Isaac.
âSo weâve got to do it the hard way.â
âExactly. No shortcuts.â
Annelise signed the last form, turned the stack back over, and pushed the manila folder that contained them back to Isaac. âFine. When do I get to meet Morgan?â
âYou donât,â said Isaac. âNot as Annelise Copeland, at least. Youâll understand in the morning.â
She let out her breath in an impatient huff. âIf Iâm going to work with you, and leave everything and everybody behind to be some artificial superheroâs golden fantasy4 then I canât have you keeping me in the dark. Since you wanted somebody with a brain for this job, why not take advantage of mine?â
A long moment passed before Isaac spoke. âFair enough. Iâve turned your world and your understanding of it upside down, told you outlandish stories, and embroiled you in a clandestine war of demons and wizards. I probably should deal more openly with you.â
âLetâs start with my role. It sounds like you need me to completely inhabit this role to the point of considering Annelise an entirely different person, at least while Iâm around Morgan.â
âI understand you studied method acting. Can you do this?â
âYeah, but to be safe, I might have to stay in character even when heâs not around so that his friends donât ask questions. And I canât just do it until production wraps; I might have to be this other person for years.â
âYes. You might have to be Christabel Crowley that long.â
âChristabel Crowley,â Annelise repeated the name, trying it on as she might a pair of shoes. âShe sounds like a London girl. Comes from money, but isnât outrageously rich. Plays the violin, classically trained because she used to be daddyâs girl, but has just enough of a wild side that now she wants to rock.â
Isaac leaned on the table, resting his chin against his fist. âKeep going.â
âShe would have gone to a moderately posh public school,â said Annelise, using the term for an English boarding school catering mainly to the ruling classes. âNot a top-shelf school, but close enough to be respectable. She would have been the quiet, studious sort as a girl, but as a woman she wants a life of her own. Her parents had her learn the violin so that she could impress a potential husband, but it became her escape. She threw herself into it, and auditioned for the New York Philharmonic to get away from London and her family.â
âDo you think you can make that work? You are out of practice.â
âFuck you.â The response came unbidden, an impulse Annelise would have to curb. It was not something Christabel would say. It was too blunt, and thus uncouth. âAllow me to rephrase, please. I will make it work. Christabel has not been out of practice, and by the time sheâs ready to audition nobody will know she only recently picked up the violin again.â
Isaac nodded, as if he had not heard her initial retort. âAs I mentioned before, Morganâs just a metalhead.â
âDid Naomi do metal at the bar where he worked?â
âNo, as a matter of fact. It was one of those upscale bars catering to yuppies who at least pretended to consider rock too plebeian for their own refined tastes. Instead, they affected a taste for classical and jazz.â
âRight, so if Morgan hadnât grown up listening to it, he might have learned enough from talking with Naomi to dig deeper on his own. He might even have picked up some music theory along the way. Whatâs his favorite band right now?â
Isaac thought a moment. âRight now? He seems to be digging Weasel Hadron Collider.â
A network search gave Annelise what she needed. âYou called him a metalhead, and heâs listening to jazz fusion? What else has he gotten into.â
âCharn.â âThatâs prog.â
âThe Second Sex.â âFeminist punk.â
âPoseidonâs Wake.â âThatâs a bloody King Crimson revival band. What kind of metalhead gets into that?â
Isaac spread his hands. âFine. Heâs a metalhead with aspirations. Your point?â
âHeâs not gonna be content with power chords and lyrics about women, leather, and Hell screamed out over a wall of sound. If he was, would he really be Christabelâs type? Iâm not convinced you know Morgan Cooper as well as you think you do.â
âSheâs got a point,â said Elisabeth, sauntering into the room. Tousling Isaacâs hair until it spilled free of the ribbon binding it, she sat in his lap as if she were a cat and hooked a possessive arm around his shoulders. âSo, what would you suggest we do about Morgan Cooper?â
âAs a first step, Christabel should get Morganâs interest. Iâm sure youâve got some sort of meet cute scene in mind.â
âI had thought of staging a robbery. You beg him to chase down a thief who has just snatched your violin.â
Annelise shook her head, âReally, Isaac? Heâs an Adversary, right? Are property crimes even his problem?â
âSheâs got a point,â said Elisabeth.
âWhat do we know about the people who handle auditions at the Phil? Are they honest? Is there one with a habit of demanding favors of young women?â
âAs a matter of fact, there is.â
âWhen the time comes, put me in front of him. Youâll have a full A/V feed, so if he so much as implies that being a good musician isnât enough and Iâve got to do something extra to earn a seat in the Phil, you can sic Morgan on him. Then, after heâs done his thing, we can arrange for me to meet him. If he takes his duties seriously he might not consent to date me at first, but Iâll win him over.â
âWhat happens then?â said Isaac.
âOnce weâre seeing each other, I can âfind outâ that heâs been studying the guitar. I can offer to play with him. I can suggest that we start a band, and point out that we need a vocalist. If Naomi auditions, Iâll bring her aboard.â
âI thought we talked about keeping Morgan away from my daughter.â
âLet the young lady finish,â said Elisabeth. âI think I know where her logicâs going.â
âThanks,â said Annelise. âIsaac, you told me to torture Morgan. Just think of how heâll suffer knowing that he canât dump me to try to get with Naomi without breaking up the band, and that Naomi probably wouldnât have him if he tried to trade up because thereâd be nothing to stop him from trying to trade up again if he meets Elisabeth or Tamara.â
âYou would make him a prisoner of his own pride?â
âIsnât that what you were trying to do?â Sure she was venturing onto uncertain ground, she continued. âYou guys arenât human. Neither is Morgan, but he has the Pinocchio thing going. If youâre going to play him, you need somebody who can think like a human being on your side.â
âArenât you already on our side?â
âIâm on your payroll, which is fine as far as it goes since you pay a fuckton better than Borgia Pizza and you havenât charged me for dinner, but Iâm gunning for partner. Maybe I canât be a sorceress, but whatever this conspiracy is that youâve got going, I want in. All the way.â
As Elisabeth whispered in Isaacâs ear, Annelise caught the phrase ânot unprecedented.â âHey, Elisabeth, you mind sharing with the rest of the class?â
âThe rest of theâ Oh. Right. I was telling Isaac that your request wasnât unprecedented. Somebody who shares our goals but disapproves of our methods also has a human assistant as a junior partner. I figured that since youâve got moxie, we might as well take advantage of it.â
Moxie? Jesus. How out of touch with the current culture are these people? It was a question Annelise knew enough to keep to herself. âAnybody I know?â
âNot likely,â Isaacâs tone had soured with distaste. âEdmund Cohen has taken an interest in Morgan, so youâll doubtless meet the old drunk. Heâs dangerous.â
âIs he a mean drunk?â
âI was talking about when heâs sober,â said Isaac. âThe more I tell you, the greater the probability that he might suspect that Christabel Crowley is not what she seems. Itâs hard to keep knowledge to oneself, but you deserve better than to be kept in ignorance. Itâs bad enough that I must treat my daughter and the einherjar I created thus; being able to initiate you into the mysteries may prove a pleasant change.â
Elisabeth curled a lock of Isaacâs frost-blonde hair about her finger. âHereâs something else to consider. Morgan is as much Enkidu as he is Gilgamesh. Heâll need a priestess to tame him and help him become more the man and less the beast.â She gazed directly into Anneliseâs eyes. âYouâll have to seduce him. Do you know how?â
âI know how Christabel would go about it,â said Annelise, warming to her new role as she made it more her own. âShe canât seem too knowing. She should be innocent, but curious and maybe a little insistent. Morgan sounds like the sort whoâd appreciate a woman with a firm hand. But whatever preparation I have to do to become Christabel Crowley, I canât do it in New York. If he sees me here, itâll be harder to buy Christabelâs story about coming to the city to escape family expectations back in London.â
âWell, that simplifies matters,â said Isaac. âI was wondering how Iâd explain that I need you to go with Elisabeth to Europe for your preparation. Your maglev leaves tonight at midnight.â
âIâm ready,â said Annelise.
âNo, youâre not,â said Elisabeth. âI doubt anybody will accuse me today of murdering you and bathing in your blood to keep my youthful beauty, but surely somebody would ask questions if you simply vanished. Please call your family and any friends you care to. Tell them that you lucked into a job with the Phoenix Society, but youâll have to leave the city and may be out of touch for a long time. Say what goodbyes you must, so that you can leave without regrets.â
The Making of Christabel Crowley
The morning sun painted roses across the white bed linens as it streamed through the stained glass windows of the bedchamber to which Elisabeth Bathory had led Christabel upon her arrival the night before. Closing her eyes against the arrival of morning, she turned over and snuggled into one of the goose down pillows. It had taken longer than she would have liked for sleep to come, and now it fled all too soon.
The door creaked open, and she sat upright, clutching the covers against her. A young woman in black livery with red accents stood in the doorway and did a curtsy. âGood morning, Ms. Crowley. Countess Bathory sends her apologies for waking you since you arrived late last night, but breakfast will be served in half an hour. Shall I escort you to the dining hall?â
An impulse to insist that the servant was mistaken and assert her old identity almost seized Christabel, who was still not fully awake. She crushed it without mercy or a momentâs remorse. Annelise Copeland is a different person leading a different life. She doesnât matter. Iâm Christabel Crowley now.
âIâll be ready in five minutes,â said Christabel.
âI can assist you, if youâd like.â The servant stepped inside, closing the bedchamber door behind her. âYou may call me Marian.â
âI can manage.â Christabel looked for her luggage. She had draped her clothes from last night over one of the suitcases. âMarian, wait. Where are my clothes? Whereâs my luggage?â
âWhile you were asleep, the staff put all of your new clothes away.â
âWhy didnât I hear them?â
âThe Countess does not long tolerate indiscretion or incompetence in her staff,â said Marian as she opened the door to Christabelâs en suite bathroom for her. âIf youâd care to shower, I will have your clothes ready for you once youâre done.â
A little over twenty minutes later, Christabel came down to breakfast, escorted by Marian. The servant gave another curtsy as she opened the door to the dining room, and indicated that Christabel should continue without her.
Despite her knowledge that Elisabeth had selected nothing but the best so that she might present herself at the height of fashion, it was hard not to feel like a frump compared to the other women seating themselves. There were even men who seemed prettier.
Elisabeth stood beside her chair at the head of the table, and rang a small crystal bell for attention. âLadies, gentlemen, and those who know better, please allow me to introduce Christabel Crowley. She is my guest, and I have taken a personal interest in her education. You will accord her every courtesy.â
Christabel blushed as Elisabethâs eyes met hers with a knowing wink. After breakfast, she lingered as the others departed, leaving her alone with Elisabeth. âWhat was that all about?â
Elisabeth shared one of her slow, rich smiles. âYou know that my Garden of Earthly Delights is a school for courtesans, do you not?â
âYes, but did you just single me out in front of the students?â
âThe students?â Elisabethâs laughter rang as high and clear as the bell she had used earlier. âPlease forgive me; I thought I told you what to expect last night. It was not my students with which you dined, but my faculty.â
A sigh of relief escaped Christabel. âAll right. I can deal with that. I thought I had walked into one of those teen dramas where the Hollywood ugly new girl gets thrown to the wolves.â
âHollywood ugly?â Elisabeth chuckled. âNow, who called you that?â
âWell, Isaac had implied it. He said I had a âgirl-next-door vibeâ and that Iâd âclean up nicelyâ. Besides, compared to youââ
Elisabeth shook her head. âYouâre only human. If you compare yourself to somebody who can project their own idealized image of themselves as if it were the reality, youâll only make yourself miserable.â
âI donât even compare favorably to Naomi Bradleigh.â
âNaomi Bradleigh doesnât compare favorably to herself, either. The Naomi you see isnât the one she sees when she brushes her teeth in the morning. Sheâs mortal, just like you. She gets clogged pores and ingrown hairs in inconveniently visible places just like you. She has to doll herself up to look the way she does in public.â
âSo you can teach me to doll up?â
âI can teach you that, and so much more,â said Elisabeth, offering Christabel her hand. âCome with me, please.â
The courtyard to which Elisabeth took her was a garden wilder than the one in which her sister Tamara lived. Native wildflowers grew in profusion here, shaded by fruit-bearing trees. Bees and butterflies hummed to and fro, making their rounds. A shaggy brown tabby cat with a smudge of white on its muzzle leaped after a blue swallowtail, but the butterfly fluttered out of the reach of its white paws. âPoor Smudge,â said Elisabeth. âHe keeps trying for the butterflies, but heâs never managed to get one. Fortunately, he does better with the mice.â
âIt seems rather a lot of castle for one cat.â
âYouâll see others during your stay. You might even find one curled up on your bed on occasion. Speaking of which, were you comfortable last night?â
âIâve never slept in such a large bed before. I actually had room to stretch out. It was wonderful.â
âGood. I trust Marian was attentive.â
âIâm not really comfortable having a servant.â
âThat will change as you grow into your persona,â said Elisabeth. âTamara will ensure that you possess the requisite liberal arts education and musical skill for your role. Isaac will no doubt show up to teach you sword-workââ
âWhy would I need to know how to fight with a sword? Iâm not going to become an Adversary.â
âItâs good physical and mental exercise, and it will build your confidence. You will need every bit of it you can get.â
âSo that Morgan doesnât walk all over me?â
âSo that Morgan doesnât outright ignore you,â said Elisabeth. âOur observations of Morgan indicate that he does not reach out to others. If other people reach out to him first, heâll accept their friendship. It appears that heâs concerned about being a burden on others, and so tries to manage as well as he can on his own.â
âIs it that âarmy of oneâ thing he has going on because heâs einherjar?â
âProbably,â said Elisabeth. Selecting a pair of ripe apples, she offered one to Christabel and bit into the other. âI see you did some etymological research.â
âI was just listening to everything Isaac said,â said Christabel, untucking her blouse so she could use the tail to polish her apple. Tart sweetness burst upon her as he bit through the skin. âBut I donât get it. He reached out to Naomi, didnât he?â
âYes, and she let him down gently. His first experience of romance was bittersweet. He got a kiss out of it, but that was all he got. He learned from the experience, but the lesson he took from it is not one convenient to our purposes.â
âNo shit,â said Christabel.
âThatâs something a New Yorker might say. Stay in character.â
Christabel ignored the rebuke. âThat dossier I read last night made Morgan out to be some kind of hero, but you make him sound like a coward. How can somebody capable of braving an inferno to rescue strangers just decide to ignore women because of one gentle rejection?â
Elisabeth slowly ate her apple, leaving Christabel to do the same. It was not until she had finished hers and buried the coreâdigging into the loamy soil of her garden with her bare handsâthat she spoke again. âYou saw the photos. Does Morgan look like somebody who repeatedly ran into a burning building without protection?â
âNo. Why is that, anyway?â
âAs long as an einherjar has food, they can rapidly heal from any physical injury.â
âSo, heâs hard to kill, but itâs easy to break his heart?â
âAs easy as any other manâs.â
âI donât buy it,â said Christabel. âOh, Iâm sure that Naomi could have broken his heart easily enough if she had wanted to, but she was gentle with him.â
âWhat are you thinking?â
âI think youâve got a man with a plan on your hands. He wants to make something of himself so that the next time he meets Naomi he can be worthy of her. To that end, heâs become an Adversary and a musician. This is a man who believes in himself and his appeal as a man. He knows what he wants, and heâs doing what he thinks he must to get it.â
Christabel tore a bite from her apple. âIsaac wants me to leave him no solace but the sword. That means Iâve got to not only break his heart, but run it through a meat grinder, use it as pie filling, and make him eat it. Iâve got to shatter his belief in his own manhood, and rub his nose in his utter lack of intrinsic worth. Nobody loves him, nobody ever will, and the only reason his existence is tolerated is that he can fight demons. The sooner heâs made to see this, the sooner Isaac gets what he wants.â
âYou were reluctant to hurt him last night.â
Staring at her apple, which had turned out to have a worm in it, Christabel hardened her heart. âAnnelise was reluctant. Iâm not Annelise. I agreed to do a job for Isaac, and I will do what it takes to see it done.â
A Definite Maybe
Christabel loathed the cover of her debut album. The photographer had spent hours trying to get her to simper for the camera just so, because it seemed that most people who bought recordings of women performing classical music expected the performers to look like courtesans. While she had learned from the best in the business at the Garden of Earthly Delights, she had no interest in teasing yuppies who thought themselves superior because they fantasized about classically-trained soloists instead of pop divas. The photographer had eventually given up, and made do with a photo Christabel standing at the center of a blizzard in jeans, a red brocade corset complete with whalebone, and black patent leather spike heels meeting the camera with an icy stare as she held her bow poised to wrench a chord from an electric violin. She would have preferred to not be on the cover, but the record labelâs marketing people had overruled her.
She had only herself to blame, though. The album had been her idea. Though the New York Philharmonic had offered her a seat in the first violins section before the conductorâs habit of demanding inappropriate favors of young women in exchange for a favorable recommendation had been exposed and the conductor brought down by the Phoenix Society, the orchestraâs directors had rescinded the offer afterward.
This was fine with Christabel; she had taken to reviewing updated dossiers of Morgan Cooper and Naomi Bradleigh in her spare time over the past year and come to the conclusion that while Morgan might appreciate classical music, he was not the sort to spend his evenings at the symphony or the opera. If she was going to get involved with Morgan and start a band with him, it would be a pain to also cope with the Philâs grueling schedule of rehearsals and performances. Furthermore, it gave her another angle for marketing herself as a solo performer. Christabel Crowley: too hot for the New York Philharmonic.
The downside was that the record label was determined to make an idol of her, despite her being a violinist rather than a vocalist. It was the reason behind the photography. It was also the reason she was sitting at a merch table in the Flaming Telepath, a bar in Brooklyn with a reputation among discerning metalheads, flogging copies of Shattered Harmonies after staring down crowds who couldnât decide whether to try booing her off the stage or demanding that she show her tits while waiting out her set so they could hear the nightâs headliners.
âThe crowds are always tough when youâre a warm-up act nobodyâs ever heard of.â Naomi Bradleigh had warned her in between takes; they had met while Christabel was recording her album and Naomi was doing guest vocals on a bonus track for Seiten Taiseiâs first album, Monkey Business. âAnd thereâs always going to be at least one bloke who thinks itâs clever to mistake you for a stripper. Itâs hard not to take it personally, but itâs sort of a trial by ice. When youâre just the warm-up act, nobody gives a toss about you. But if you become a headliner, then everybody brags about how they were your biggest fans before you made it big.
âExcuse me.â Christabel looked up and saw a tall man with a dancerâs build standing in front of her. He was wearing a Magician, Heal Thyself t-shirt, and had his shimmering blue-black hair bound into a tail that spilled over one shoulder and down his chest. His slit-pupiled eyes were the green of the forests surrounding the Garden of Earthly Delights. He held a bottle of beer in each hand, and one still had its cap on. âI know this is forward, but after the performance you gave earlier I figured you could use a beer.â
âWhy, thank you,â said Christabel, surprised as much by this strangerâs consideration as his generosity. Not only had he bought her a beer, but thought to leave it capped so that she could safely drink it. âHave we met?â
âNot in person, I but remembered your name from work.â He held out his hand. âIâm Morgan Cooper, and while Iâm sorry things didnât work out for you with the New York Philharmonic, it looks like you landed on your feet.â
âI suppose I did.â
âTough crowd?â
âYeah,â Christabel wrapped the hem of her t-shirt around the cap and twisted it off. After a long pull from her bottle, she set it down on the table. âI try to ignore the booing; I figure they do it to everybody they havenât heard of.â
âPretty much. I got the same treatment at an open mic event last week.â
âDid anybody tell you to take off your clothes?â
Morgan laughed. âSomebodyâs grandma wanted a cheap thrill. Probably would have done it anyway, since the stage lights were hotter than I expected.â
âOh, muses, yes. I hadnât expected that. It was never that bad playing in an orchestra.â
Morgan eyed the stack of LPs. âIs that your album?â
âWhat do you think?â
He produced his wallet. âI think Iâd like a copy. A shirt, too, if you have one in extra-large.â
Christabel smiled behind the mouth of her bottle. âShould I autograph the LP?â
âIâd like that. Youâre good live, and I want to know what you sound like in the studio.â
âJust a moment.â Having had a slightly wicked idea, she reached into her purse for her lipstick. Once she had applied it, she unwrapped a copy of Shattered Harmonies, pulled out the record in its paper sleeve, and set about giving Morgan something she hoped would prove more memorable than an autograph. âHere you go.â
He tucked the LP under his arm. âThank you.â
âThanks for the beer,â said Christabel, her gratitude not part of the act. Furthermore, now that she thought of it, she had seen Morgan in front but off to the side, listening intently to her performance. He had not been one of those booing her or demanding a striptease. âAnd for actually listening earlier.â
Morgan shrugged. âWhen I heard you were performing, I looked you up. Your band, too. I recognized your bass player, Marcus Phillips.â
âOh, so you play bass? I had you pegged for a guitarist.â According to the dossier, Morgan played both, but Christabel wasnât about to admit her possession of such information. Nor would she admit to knowing that his primary instrument was some kind of hybrid that allowed a musician to play bass lines with one hand and melody with the other. âToo bad I wasnât at that open mic.â
He turned away, as if embarrassed. âI play both, but Iâve still got a lot to learn.â
âIâd like to hear you play sometime.â It was risky, but Morgan had not looked at the protective sleeve of his new LP and seen the rather explicit clue she had left for him there.
âIâm sure Iâll be at the next open mic,â said Morgan, and she found herself wanting to reach up, grab this clueless git by the collar of his leather jacket, pull him down, and snog some sense into him. âThanks again for being here tonight. I enjoyed seeing you play.â
After spending the rest of the night fuming and counting the seconds until she could pack up and get the hell out of there, the last thing Christabel wanted was to report her progress, or her lack thereof, to Isaac Magnin.
âWas he there tonight?â
âYes, Isaac, he was there. He actually listened to me play, and then brought me a beer while I was attending the merch table and failing to flog copies of my record. He even had the sense to leave the cap on so Iâd have no reason to suspect foul play.â
âThat sounds like a good start. Did he buy a copy of your album?â
âYeah. Said he wanted to know what I sounded like in the studio.â She let out a frustrated huff. âWe had a nice, polite chat. I found out from him that he plays, and told him Iâd like to listen. You know what he did?â
âThe transcript from your feed just came through. I suppose that wasnât quite the result you hoped for.â
That, Christabel thought, was the understatement of the century. While it might have been unreasonable for him to say he wanted to hear what she sounded like in the bedroom, knowing it was unreasonable to be miffed about it hours after the fact did not stop her from being annoyed that after she all but asked him out all he did was say heâd be at the next open mic. âAre all the einherjar this dense?â
Magnin shrugged on his side of the video call. âSome are much worse.â
âSmall mercies, eh?â
âBut you autographed his copy of Shattered Harmonies, right?â
âAnd wrote down my network address. I even left a kiss. How much more obvious do I have to be?â
âI think I see why youâre annoyed. You spent a lot of time learning how to appeal to men, and you thought it would be easier to get into his head.â
âI think Iâm already there, but he doesnât see me the way I need him to see me. Heâs not one of those guys who fantasizes about getting into bed with every vaguely attractive female musician whose albums theyâve collected.â
âThat was in the dossier,â said Isaac, gently chiding her.
âWe both know the dossier is only 95% reliable.â
âFair enough. What will you do now?â
âI guess I could watch for open mic events in the area and try to catch Morgan at one. Just please donât tell Elisabeth that I finally met the guy and couldnât even get a definite maybe out of him.â
A text message came from an address Christabel did not recognize. «Iâm listening to your album, and wondering how personally I should take the kiss you left on my copy. âMorgan»
Another Womanâs Treasure
Though Christabel could have replied to Morganâs text message a couple of weeks ago, she had decided it was better to let him sweat a little. It was only what he deserved for not having the wit to realize that she wanted him to ask her out despite the obvious clues she had provided. I gave him my address and left a kiss printed in lipstick. What more did the man need, an engraved invitation?
Instead, since he had said heâd be at the Flaming Telepathâs next open mic night she decided to take him at his word. She would elbow her way to the front of the crowd and listen to himâturnabout being fair play.
It had not been hard to get a copy of the set list; the Flaming Telepathâs proprietor was not as clever in his choice of passphrases as he thought, and it had been easy for one of AsgarTechâs AIs to brute-force his account by selecting random lines from a corpus of Blue Ăyster Cult lyrics. Morgan had gotten the last slot. It was a tough position; by that time most of the patrons would be trying either to get drunk or get laid, and the rest would care mainly for maintaining their current states of inebriation.
Since nobody else on the set list mattered to Christabel, she had no compunction about showing up in the middle of the set before Morganâs. However, instead of seeing Morgan take the stage, another band stepped up and launched into some kind of recondite instrumental excursion into technical death metal that seemed to change time signatures every time Christabel thought she had gotten a grip on the music.
The worst of it came from a guy who was playing an instrument with entirely too many strings5, tapping out a bass line with one hand and using the other to provide counterpoint to the lead guitarist. He was shoe-gazing, his hair spilling over his shoulders until the lead guitarist started a duel. The melody shifted back and forth between the two, and when it shifted away from the lead guitarist the other musician seemed to come to life, his hair whipping about as he let his body move to the music he mercilessly wrenched from his instrument.
And while his hair was whipping about, Christabel saw he was wearing a t-shirt with her name on it. Worse, she recognized motifs from her album in his playing as the band broke down into a jam session. He had taken her melodies, and set them to bass lines of his own, bass lines more intricate than those her sideman had recorded.
A drunk standing beside her put his hands around his mouth to create a jury-rigged megaphone. âJerk off backstage, assholes.â
Before she could stop herself, she had him by the ear. Pulling him down to ensure she had his undivided attention, she said, âIf you canât appreciate what theyâre doing up there then fuck off to some other bar.â She let him go, but not before grinding one of her spike heels into his foot for emphasis. A bouncer showed up before he could make plain his opinion of such rough treatment, and dragged him away as the band played on, too absorbed in their jam to be perturbed.
The set soon ended, sooner than she would have liked. The lead guitarist threw his picks into the crowd as if he were a headliner and not some nobody playing an open mic event. âWeâre The Epstein-Barr Band. Look us up next time youâre in the market for some infectious grooves. Goodnight!â
She was in the alley behind the bar before the members of the Epstein-Barr Band, and the lead guitarist gave her a once-over. âHey, werenât you up front? I saw how you handled that rude guy.â
Christabel shrugged. âSorry about that. But some guys forget their manners after theyâve had one too many.â
âNo kidding, lady. Seriously, though, it was hella cool seeing you grab that guy by the ear. You looked like a teacher on her night off.â
The man wearing her t-shirt showed up, his instrument slung over his shoulder in its case. âHello, Christabel. Thanks for showing up.â
The lead guitarist glanced between the two. âHey, Cooper, you know her?â
âYeah. Been listening to her album.â
âSo I noticed,â said Christabel, putting her hands on her hips. âI heard some of my riffs while you guys were jamming. Why the bloody hell didnât you tell me you were so good?â
Morgan raised his hands to protest. âIâm not that good. Iâve only been playing a few years. And this is the first band Iâve been in.â He jerked a thumb toward the lead guitarist. âEpstein here can tell you as much.â
Epstein nodded. âYeah, this is his first band. If he had more experience heâd know better than to upstage the front-man.â
A flush reddened Morganâs face. âSorry, man. Once I got into it I couldnât resist.â
âYeah, I know. And youâre good. But youâre not right for the Epstein-Barr Band. Weâre just here to have a good time, and you take this way too seriously.â
Morgan nodded, but his entire face seemed to fall into dejection. âAll right. It was good jamming with you guys, though. Good luck.â
He began to walk away, as if he had already forgotten about the band. This Christabel could understand. However, he also seemed to have forgotten about her, and this simply would not do.
âHey,â said Epstein. âYouâre Christabel Crowley, right? Any chance I could buy you aââ
He was on the ground before he could finish the proposition, clutching the jaw that Christabel had shattered with the diamond-cluster knuckle duster she kept in her pocket. Straddling Epstein, she glared at the others. âAnybody have any objections?â
Since nobody did, she left them to get help for their band-mate and followed Morgan. It proved hard going, for one could only walk so quickly while wearing heels and running was out of the question. Fortunately, she had his address because he had texted her. «Wait for me, dammit.»
She caught up with him a block later, waiting at a street corner. âEpstein was right,â said Morgan. âIt means too much to me. I want it too damn much.â
âAnd I want you,â said Christabel. âI was there to hear you play. I was so disappointed when it turned out to be some band that named themselves after a disease. But then I heard you playing my music and saw you wearing my t-shirt. I donât know if you believe in fate, but it feels to me like thereâs a connection between us.â
âI know,â said Morgan, âBut it doesnât feel right. You were a complainant in a case I worked. Now I canât stop listening to your album. Your music has infected mine. And when I see the spark in your eyesâŠâ He gazed up at the sky for a moment as the clouded skies began to spit down rain. âI havenât felt like this since I was a teenager. Iâm not comfortable with it.â
Christabel placed a tentative hand on his shoulder. When he failed to shrug it off, she stood on tiptoe so that she could whisper in his ear. âItâs called infatuation. Itâs the first step toward falling in love.â Before he could react, she caught his lips with hers, stealing the barest brush of a kiss. Backing away just a moment, she held his not-quite-human forest-green gaze. âYou can let yourself fall. Iâm here to catch you.â
âWhy?â Though he had not elaborated, Christabel suspected she knew what Morgan meant. The psychological profiles in his dossier all indicated that he was an earnest young man and an incorrigible romantic, but was sure that romance was a privilege he did not deserve. Coming from him now, his why meant why would you want somebody like me.
âThat asshole had no idea what he just threw away,â said Christabel, pressing a deeper, lingering kiss upon him. âBut I know a treasure when I see one, and I want you for myself. Iâve seen you live. Now I want to know what you sound like in a studio.â
âYou donât have to kiss me just because you want to jam with me.â
Christabel did it again, and this time his control slipped just enough for him to kiss her back, however tentatively. âSince you canât seem to take a hint, I also want to know what you sound like in my bedroom. But since youâre shy we can take it slow.â
That Certain Something
Christabel leaned back in her chair as another singer finished their solo audition. This one was an alto accompanying herself on a skillfully played hurdy-gurdy, and while many other bands would have been happy to bring her on board, she wasnât what Christabel wanted for her new band, Crowleyâs Thoth. She was one of those folk metal types, and she had a different style in mind for her new band. She even had a name for it: black tie metal. The music would be complex, the lyrics literary and erudite. Between her violin and Morganâs stick guitar, all she needed was Naomi Bradleigh on vocals and keyboards.
Nevertheless, she had been obliged to hold open auditions for vocalists and keyboard players. Even if her record label hadnât insisted upon open auditions, Morgan might have suspected something was off. More importantly, if she had reached out directly to Naomi, or if Isaac Magnin had found away to arrange a meeting, Naomi herself might have smelled a rat and refused.
Thus it was necessary to put on this sham of an open audition and at least give the first couple dozen people to sign up a chance to waste their time and effort. Likewise, it was necessary to pick half a dozen for the shortlist, and give them a chance to jam with her and Morgan to see if they jelled as a band. The hard part was that the first audition was a blind audition. She had no way of knowing if Naomi would even show up until they heard her singing in the studio.
In the meantime, Christabel had to put the alto with the hurdy-gurdy out of her misery. She reached for the mic, ready to dash her hopes.
âI thought she was good,â said Morgan. âCertainly the best weâve had so far.â
âThatâs hardly saying much,â said Christabel, withdrawing her hand. âFirst there was the baritone who couldnât stay on key. Then there was the tenor who couldnât stay on beat. After him came that mezzo-soprano who sang in one key and played in another.â
âCan we at least shortlist this one?â
âMust we?â Lending credence to Morganâs opinions was part of the game she had to play, though fairness demanded of Christabel that she at least admit that his judgment was sound. If she hadnât been set on a particular performer, this alto with the hurdy-gurdy would have deserved further consideration.
âWe can always strike her name if we get some stronger contenders.â
âFair enough,â said Christabel. She keyed the mic again. âExcuse me. Candidate number five, are you still there?â
âYes. I was just packing up.â
âPlease stick around for the next round.â
There was a gasp from the other side. âReally? Thank you!â
Letting go of the mic, Christabel considered Morgan. His fashion sense had improved under her; she had not succeeded in persuading him to wear a necktie yet, let alone a cravat, but at least he had taken to wearing open-collared silk shirts under his bikerâs jacket, and he no longer wore the torn and faded jeans he used to favor. âI still donât think this oneâs gonna work out. And I really donât like the way the hurdy-gurdy sounds.â
âYouâre looking for a certain something.â
âYeah. But donât ask me what.â
âYouâll know it when you hear it, right?â
âYeah.â She stood up, stretched, and then leaned over Morgan. Gazing into his eyes, she stole a quick kiss and added. âYouâll know it too. Iâm holding out for somebody to whom we can both say hell yeah.â
âFair enough,â said Morgan. âWhoâs next?â
Christabel checked the audition forms, which had been redacted to strip out identifying information. âA classically trained singer and pianist.â Keying the mic, she spoke to the candidate. âYou can start whenever youâre ready.â
âThank you,â came a voice Christabel instantly recognized. It was a Londonerâs accent acquired by honest means, with a hint of Devonshire farm girl beneath. âThe advertisement didnât specify any particular piece, but I had an idea for something original while I was on my way.â
Christabel keyed the mic again. âGo ahead.â
Descending chords pulled forth from the piano by a deft and gentle hand traced a dreamlike path toward silent melancholy. A right-handed tremolo shattered the silence, as if the instrument had awoken with a racing heart. A new left-handed melody rose urgent and insistent out of the lower register. Once the motif had fully developed, the tremolo became a counterpoint. Melody and counterpoint pulsed in rapid syncopation, and Christabel was already hard-pressed to keep up when the candidate began to sing, using a crystalline soprano voice as an instrument. The vocal melody was a synthesis of the thesis and antithesis she had played with either hand, until it reached its climax and faded away, leaving the piano to recapitulate the initial motifs.
Christabel sat dumbfounded, unsure if the auditory assault she had just endured was a brilliant new composition or a dissonant, pretentious mess meriting prosecution as an aesthetic atrocity.
Morgan, however, had grabbed his stick guitar and was playing it unplugged, working out the piano parts. Though the unamplified instrument was barely audible, it seemed to Christabel that Morgan was getting it mostly right despite playing by ear a composition he had heard but once.
As if realizing that her eyes were upon him, Morgan looked up and gazed wide-eyed at her. âWe need to get into a studio with her right now. Sheâs brilliant.â
âI have no idea what the hell she just played.â
âWho gives a shit? I think the intensity with which she plays and sings is something Crowleyâs Thoth needs.â
âAnd what about the other candidates?â
âOther candidates be damned,â said Morgan. âDidnât you recognize that voice? Or the way she plays? Thatâs Naomi fucking Bradleigh auditioning for our band.
âSo what?â Christabelâs indifference was for show; she had half-expected that she might have to persuade Morgan that they should take Bradleigh on, but his insistence simplified matters. There was no need to give him the hard sell when he had already convinced himself. Whether it was on the strength of Bradleighâs reputation or that of her bewildering performance was of no concern to Christabel. Her philosophy was one expressible in two words: whatever works.
She followed Morgan, who had grabbed his stick guitar and left the control booth. He held the recording room door open for her, but seemed transfixed by the snow-blonde and scarlet-eyed figure seated at the piano.
Naomi rose from the piano and smoothed the black dress she wore over a burgundy blouse, and extended an elegant, long-fingered hand toward Christabel. âHello. Iâm Naomi Bradleigh. You must be Christabel Crowley. I believe weâve met before.â
Christabel took her hand and gave it a polite shake. âI hadnât expected that you would audition, Ms. Bradleigh.â
This was a lie; she had hoped from the start to snare Bradleigh, being sure that Morgan would eventually come to regret his initial enthusiasm for her presence in the band, but sometimes the only way was to try to arrange favorable circumstances for the universe to give you what you wanted.
âI hadnât expected to be at loose ends,â said Naomi, so when I saw the advert on the Melody Maker site I thought it would at least be better than moping because yet another band fell apart around me. Recording guest vocals on B-sides and bonus tracks isnât the worst way to make a living, but I had hoped for more.â
âIâm sure it wasnât your fault,â said Morgan.
That much Christabel could agree with, but she knew better than to admit her knowledge that credit for Naomiâs recent setbacks could be laid at Isaac Magninâs feet. Though he had been reluctant to use his influence to the detriment of his daughterâs career, she had persuaded him that doing things her way would better serve his wider purpose. âI donât want to say Iâm glad you had the opportunity to audition for Crowleyâs Thoth, but Iâd be lying if I tried to pretend that it wouldnât be a coup for me if you, Morgan, and I could get a tight band going.â
âWell,â said Naomi. âI guess all we need is a drummer.â
âIâve got that sorted,â said Christabel, patting the prototype CARL-9000 unit manufactured by Palmer Audio6. It was another example of the utility of friends in high places; somebody owed Isaac a favor, and as a result she got some useful equipment. âSo, Iâm on violin, Morganâs on the stick, and youâre on keyboards and vocals.â
Naomi blinked a couple of times before giving Morgan an appraising look. âWell, well. I knew there was a bloke named Morgan Cooper playing the Chapman Stick on Shattered Harmonies II, but I didnât think it would be you.â
Oh, no you donât. Jealousy welled up, tasting to Christabel rather like acid reflux. Heâs mine. Rather than be overtly possessive, however, she kept her tone neutral. âHave you worked together before?â
âNot really,â said Morgan. âI was working as a bouncer at a bar Naomi frequently played.â He turned away too slowly to keep the bright flush of his embarrassment from Christabelâs view. âI had a crush on her. Iâm over it, though.â
Youâd better not be, Christabel thought as she turned to Naomi. âMorgan and I are currently dating. That wonât be a problem for you, will it?â
âPlease donât take this as judgment on you,â said Naomi, and Christabel suspected that what sheâd say next would be precisely that. âBut when Iâm in a band I donât date the other members. It avoids a lot of unnecessary trouble.â
âThat works for me,â said Morgan, but Christabel was sure that there was something about his expression that suggested he was telling a white lie.
Rather than call him on it, Christabel turned the conversation back to business. âSo, is there a piece we all know that we can run through together?â
âAcid Rain.â Morgan and Naomi glanced at one another as they realized they had both suggested the same classic progressive metal instrumental. Fortunately, it was one Christabel knew as well; she had been surreptitiously listening to Morganâs favorite playlists since before they had met.
Delivering The Goods
Rain on a warm summer night wasnât enough to spoil Christabelâs mood. If anything; she welcomed it. Tonight had been the first show of the worldwide tour Crowleyâs Thoth had embarked upon to promote their first album, Prometheus Unbound, which they had played at Manhattanâs Hellfire Club. It wasnât the largest of venues, but there would be time enough for that. While they werenât headliners in their own right, they got billing right under the main act and played their sets before it but after the warm-up acts that people tried to boo off the stage. Best of all, the headline act was VIVA, a symphonic metal act from Gothenburg. They too had a soprano vocalist, but she didnât have the range Naomi Bradleigh did.
And thanks to me, she looks like a dumpy little frump compared to Naomi. Christabel savored the knowledge; as the band was gearing up to release their debut album and embark on what Morgan had taken to calling âPrometheus On Tourâ, she had enlisted the help of Elisabeth Bathory and Tamara Gellion to design the outfits they would wear on stage. She had designed for herself an elegant ballgown in burgundy, while dressing Morgan and Naomi in tuxedos cut to display their figures to advantage and hiding their faces behind ornate masques that would not have been out of place at a Venetian carnival. Christabel alone showed her face, standing front and center even though she did not sing.
The only fly in the ointment was that VIVA had not arrived on time. The tour bus had broken down, and the band had not arrived by the time Crowleyâs Thoth had taken the stage. They still werenât there when Christabel and the others had finished their set, and now the venueâs manager was in their shared dressing room. He wiped his brow and wrung his hands as he tried to look Christabel in the eye. âIâm on the spot here, Ms. Crowley. I know youâve finished your set, but Iâve got a crowd hyped up to see VIVA and they arenât here. I donât know when theyâre going to get here, either.â
âWhat would you have me do about it?â
âHow about an encore?â
Christabel narrowed her eyes. There was nothing in the contract about an encore. They had a forty-five minute set, long enough to play the tracks from Prometheus Unbound that seemed to resonate most with listeners streaming individual songs instead of buying entire albums. They had padded out the set with updated selections from the Shattered Harmony albums with which Christabel had launched her career as a classical-to-rock crossover artist. Even if they had additional material rehearsed, there was the matter of payment. âNot in our contract.â
âI know. I donât have the budget to pay you extra right now, but what if we can negotiate an additional contract with payment in ninety days?â
âThat seems fair to me,â said Naomi. âBut what if the headliners still havenât arrived?â
The manager pressed a fingertip to his ear to indicate that he was getting a message via his implant. He seemed to relax a bit. âI just got word from VIVAâs manager. They just got the bus moving again and theyâll be here in an hour. Of course, theyâll need an hour after that to get ready. I know an additional two-hour set is a lot, butââ
Morganâs smile was almost predatory. âDo you remember the fee you negotiated for the forty-five minute set we just played?â
âYeah.â
âQuadruple it and youâll get your two hours.â
Unable to believe what she was hearing, Christabel pinged Morgan over the bandâs private group chat. «Have you gone âround the bend? We donât have enough material for a ten minute encore, let alone two hours.»
Morganâs reply seemed to her that of a man who saw the point but refused to acknowledge it. «Weâve got the public domain.»
«Live jam session?» Naomi piped up. «That could be fun.»
«Weâre not here to have fun,» texted Christabel. «Weâre professional musicians, dammit. We did our job. Why should we have to go out and improvise because the bloody headliners couldnât be bothered to show up on time?»
Meanwhile, the manager was staring bug-eyed at Christabel. âCanât you cut me a break on the fee?â
âEver see an old Mafia flick called GoodFellas?â said Morgan.
âI have,â said Naomi. Her voice had become a soft purr dripping honeyed venom. âI know youâve got a tight budget, but thatâs not our problem.â
âThereâs no way I can come up with that fee in sixty days and turn a profit.â
Feeling both Morgan and Naomiâs eyes on her, Christabel threw her weight behind theirs. âFuck you. Pay us. And if sixty days pass without us getting a check, Iâll file the wage-theft complaint with the Phoenix Society personally.â
âT-T-Thatâs not how business is done.â
âIt is with us,â said Morgan. âWhile Iâll not be the Adversary who gets the case, the one who does will be no less merciless. An attack on one is an attack on all.â
âDay of wrath, day of burning, all your hopes to ashes turning,â Naomi sang her paraphrase of Dies Irae. To Christabelâs chagrin, she had improvised the melody on the spot.
âIf you fuck us over,â said Christabel, poking the managerâs chest with the tip of her bow. âOur next album will be your bloody requiem. Now go deal with the stage crew and the crowd. Weâll be out in ten.â
Once the manager had left, Christabel rounded upon her band-mates. âAre you two utterly barking? What the hell are we supposed to play out there?â
âAcid Rain,â said Morgan.
âOrion,â said Naomi.
âHit âem upside the head with Chopinâs Revolutionary?â
âOoh, fun. Iâll do that first.â
âItâs just started raining, so Iâll come out once youâve finished the Revolutionary and launch into Sweet Sweet Rain.â
âAnd when I come out,â asked Christabel.
âWhat about one of those Jean-Luc Ponty pieces youâve been fiddling with,â said Morgan.
âBut theyâre metalheads.â
âSo are we,â said Morgan and Naomi in harmony.
âWill you stop doing that? Itâs creepy.â
âNot like we do it on purpose,â said Naomi.
âFine. What should we play when I come out?â
âGo with some Malmsteen or Satriani,â said Morgan. âMaybe the Far Beyond the Sun or Ceremony?â
âI think Iâll go with Unstoppable Momentum,â said Christabel. While the band might be her cover, rather than being her life as it so obviously was for Morgan and Naomi, living up to her cover was a matter of acting, and acting was her life.
A few hours later, Christabel stood behind the Hellfire Club at the entertainersâ entrance. She stood with her face lifted skyward, letting the rain cool her in its embrace without a care for what it would do to her makeup or how it would most likely ruin her dress. It didnât matter. Sheâd wear something different, something even better, for the next show.
What mattered was that halfway through their second set, the crowd was utterly theirs. They hadnât cared that the material they played wasnât original. If anything, they had appreciated the breaks between pieces in which Morgan or Naomi would share a bit about the piece they had just played, educating the audience and exposing them to selections from the public domain that often went forgotten in mass-market compilations.
It was hardly the reaction Christabel had expected.
She turned as the door opened behind her. An auburn haired woman in a little black dress stepped out, reached into her purse for a pack of cigarettes, and offered one to Christabel, who waved it away. âNo thanks.â
âSmart woman,â said the other woman as she lit up. âThis is one vice I should leave behind; itâs going to be murder on my voice. Not that I ever had a shot at being as good as Naomi Bradleigh. How did you manage to get her?â
âJust lucky, I guess.â Christabel gave up on trying to place her interlocutor. âHave we met?â
âDamn. I may have left my manners on the bus.â The other woman offered a hand. âIâm Victoria Valentine. Thanks for holding the crowd while we were broken down. We got here in time for me to catch the end of your set, and you three were crushing it.â
Despite the cooling summer rain, Christabel flushed, and cursed herself for her embarrassment. Take the compliment, dammit. âThanks. You and VIVA were real troupers. Iâm not sure what I would have done in your position.â
âIâm sure you would have done fine. It certainly wouldnât have occurred to me to spend the night digging up relics like you did, though. That last tune was an inspired choice. You really tore into the violin part, and the way you three passed the lead around was so smooth I could have sworn youâd been rehearsing it.â
âActually, that last number was Morganâs idea.â There was no reason not to give credit where it was due, in Christabelâs opinion. Not when there was plenty to go around. âWe had started dating before I realized how good a musician he is.â
âDid he ever tell you about his day job?â
âNo. Why would he?â
âHe should have,â said Victoria, as she reached into her purse. When she withdrew it, she was holding a small black semiautomatic pistol. âThe enemies he makes could complicate your life.â
Sweet Little Lies
Isaac had warned Christabel that she might eventually find herself staring down the barrel of a gun. He had done what he could to prepare her. He had taught her methods for disarming assailants armed with pistols and other firearms. He had periodically tested her, though always with advance warning. Despite his efforts she froze whenever somebody pointed a weapon at her.
Though she knew she should be looking for a way out, all she could focus on was the matte black pistol in Victoriaâs hand, and what she had told her as she drew it. âIt looks like my life has indeed gotten complicated,â said Christabel. She took a shuddering breath. âI suppose youâre one of Morganâs enemies. What did he do to you?â
âIt wonât matter to you since youâll be dead soon,â said Victoria. She had taken a two-handed grip on her pistol and stood with her feet apart and her knees slightly bent. âCall Morgan. Itâs time he lost somebody he cared about for once.â
Christabel slowly raised one of her hands, and pressed her fingertip to her ear to indicate that she was using her implant. «Morgan, Iâm outside the entertainersâ entrance with Victoria Valentine. Sheâs pointing a gun at me. Donât come after me. As soon as she sees you sheâll shoot me.»
«If I keep her waiting long enough she might shoot you anyway. Try to keep calm. Iâm on my way.»
Christabel lowered her hand, and forced herself to look at Victoriaâs eyes instead of the muzzle of her gun. âHeâs coming.â
Victoriaâs aim wavered as she took a deep breath. âI meant what I said earlier. You three gave a brilliant performance. You could have been one of the greats. But out of all the guitarists, you had to pick him.â
âWhat did he do to you?â
âWhy do you care?â
Christabel shrugged. âSo I can tell him why Iâm haunting him.â
âHe killed my father.â
âOh, and now youâre going to kill my girlfriend?â
Taking her eyes from the gun pointed at her had become the easiest thing in the world. A few meters down the alley, Morgan stood unarmed, his hands on his hips as he gazed contemptuously at Victoria. âYour father had it coming, but if you love him that much despite everything he did to you then shoot me.â
âYou donât think I wonât?â
Morgan took a step forward. âI donât think youâve got the nerve.â
âHeâd never so much as touched a sword in his life. He didnât have a chance against you.â
âHe stole every milligram you ever earned as a child performer. He defrauded hundreds of people who trusted him to manage their retirement savings.â
âThe evidence was fabricated.â
âThe grand jury thought otherwise. They found the evidence solid enough to justify issuing unanimous indictments on every charge against him the Phoenix Society requested. When an Adversary came to deliver the indictments and take him into custody, your father shot him in the throat.â
âNot another step!â Victoria all but shrieked her warning as she finally turned the gun on Morgan. âOr so help me God I will shoot you.â
Morganâs smile became predatory. He took another step forward. âBetter not miss.â
âNo!â
The pistolâs roar drowned out Christabelâs cry. The shot struck Morgan between the eyes, and he staggered a step backward. He slumped forward, and Christabel was sure heâd fall flat on his face. She was sure she had seen him murdered, but he raised his head and met Victoriaâs gaze. âWas that the best you could do?â
âI shot you in the head. How can you still be on your feet?â
âYou think one bullet is enough for einherjar like me?â Morgan took another step forward. âTry the whole magazine.â
âYouâre insane.â
âLook at me.â Morgan touched the center of his brow where the bullet had struck him. The flesh was pristine, as if he had never been shot. âYouâve got six rounds left. Seven at most, if you came at me with a full magazine plus one in the chamber. It wonât be enough.â
He was close enough to disarm her now. Instead, he grasped her wrist and pressed the muzzle to the center of his chest. âDo your worst and watch me get over it. Just like your miserable, embezzling excuse for a father did.â
âYou enjoyed it, didnât you.â
âYeah, I enjoyed disappointing him. I took inordinate pleasure in hitting him upside the head with the pommel of my sword, bringing him in alive, seeing him convicted, and personally escorting him to the ship that carried him into exile.â
âHeâs not dead?â
âNo. Heâs on a penal habitat orbiting Uranus with the rest of the assholes. He wasnât worth killing, and neither are you.â
Now incoherent with grief and rage, Victoria Valentine emptied her pistol into Morganâs chest. Seven shots in close succession shattered the still of the summer night, and though Morgan jerked as each shot tore into him he kept his grip on his would-be murdererâs wrists.
He released his grasp as the slide locked. Victoria staggered backward, retching as the pistol slipped from her hands and clattered against the pavement. Christabel herself wanted to vomit at the sight of Morganâs wounds, which bled freely for a moment before beginning to close. âI told you it wouldnât be enough,â he said as he raised a hand to strike her.
âThatâs quite enough.â Christabel had not been the only one to say it, and Morgan had not looked at her. Instead, he was looking at Naomi, who stood in the doorway with her arms crossed, her disapproval plain in her scarlet glare.
âThereâs no need to harm Ms. Valentine,â said Naomi as she placed herself between Morgan and his would-be murderer. âPolice and paramedics are on their way. Christabel, are you hurt too?â
âN-no.â She checked herself over, unable to believe she was unscathed. âWhat the hell just happened?â
âI provoked Ms. Valentine into firing upon me,â said Morgan. âShe was determined to shoot somebody, and I figured that if somebody had to get shot tonight it might as well be me since I can take it.â
âYou can take it?â Christabel stared aghast at him. His jacket and the shirt beneath were bloody and tattered, but the flesh they once covered was fresh and smooth, without the slightest scarring. âYouâve got eight bullets in you. How can you still be standing?â
He took one of her hands in his; they were gentle with her whereas they had held fast to his assailantâs. âItâll be fine. Iâll just spend a couple of weeks pissing lead acetate.â
âAbsolutely not,â said Naomi. âYouâre going to the hospital and getting those slugs removed.â
âIâm coming, too,â said Christabel. Not that she wanted to spend the night waiting for Morgan to come out of surgery, but what kind of woman refused to wait for her boyfriend after he had taken gunfire meant for her? Unfortunately, there was first the matter of giving a statement to the police. While the Phoenix Society would prosecute the attempted murder charge, since Victoriaâs attempts to deprive first Christabel of her life without due process and then Morgan were technically acts of tyranny, there were lesser charges that fell within the NYPDâs purview.
One of the patrolman on the scene had no trouble handcuffing her as his partner secured her weapon for evidence and set about gathering up the used shell casings. âVictoria Valentine, youâre under arrest for disorderly conduct, disturbing the peace, and reckless use of firearms. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can be used as evidence against you. You have the right to an attorney. If you cannot afford one, you will be provided one at public expense. You have the right to humane treatment while in custody. Do you understand your rights as outlined?â
âI wonât even answer that question without an attorney,â said Victoria, thus proving her understanding of her rights as one accused of a crime.
By the time the police had finished getting Christabelâs statement, Morgan had come out of surgery and was resting in a recovery room. Nobody at the hospital objected to her seeing him, even though it was past visiting hours.
Though he looked almost fully recovered, he was still down and Christabel meant to give him a good kicking. She had her orders, and if she was right about the state of their relationship then it was time to begin carrying them out. He paled as Christabel delivered the four words whose speaking all sensible men feared. âWe need to talk.â
âI told you Iâm an Adversary,â said Morgan. âBut I should have been more explicit about what that might mean for you. I was wrong.â
She shook her head and leaned over him. âYou didnât tell me you werenât human. What was it you called yourself? Einherjar? Is that why Victoria couldnât kill you? Because youâre already dead?â
âIâm as alive and as human as you.â Taking her hand, Morgan pressed it against his chest. She could feel his heart beating as she had whenever she used him as a pillow. The flesh was warm beneath her touch. âPeople like me are einherjar because we were made to be able to stand alone against any threat. Each of us is an army of one.â
âWhen were you going to tell me the truth about what you are?â
âI never wanted you to know, but I could bear neither to let you die nor to kill in front of you. I saw no other way than to provoke her into turning her gun on me.â
âDid you have to let her shoot you?â
Morgan shook his head. âI could have dodged every bullet, but they had to go somewhere. They were likely to hit somebody. I thought it better to let them strike me than some innocent bystander behind me.â
âDo you think youâre a hero?â
âEverything I did, I did for myself. I became an Adversary because Isaac Magnin promised heâd help me become a rock star if I did, and if I agreed to take on certain dirty jobs for the Phoenix Society. If I hadnât taken that deal, I might never have met you. We might never have recorded together, or started Crowleyâs Thoth.â
âAnd is that supposed to make everything all right?â
âOf course not. What do you want from me, Christabel? Was I supposed to let Valentine shoot you?â
âI wanted you to think shit through. With a modicum of discretion you might have prevented this entire situation. You sow dragonâs teeth for a living, and I get stuck with the harvest. I want no part of it. I donât want to have to deal with you being some kind of superhero. I donât want your enemies coming after me to get to you. When youâre with me, youâre only human, do you understand me?â
Morganâs face had fallen, and he had winced at her words as if she had whipped him with each. âI understand. You want to live a lie.â
âIf you canât deal with that, then I canât be with you. Nor can I work with you.â
âThat would hurt Naomi, too.â
She hated him for thinking of her, and doubted it was the first time he had done so when he should have been thinking about Christabel. âNever mind her. I could have been killed because of you, and Iâve got to look out for myself if you wonât look out for me.â
A long moment passed before Morgan spoke again. âIâll do what it takes. I suppose I should have taken on a stage name sooner.â
âYes, you should have. From now on, youâll get credited as Morgan Stormrider.â Christabel ignored the way he winced at the name. Fuck him, she thought. If he wanted something less ridiculous he should have come up with it himself before he started performing. âIt wonât be a perfect cover, since we already recorded Prometheus Unbound under your official name, but we can change the credits for a reissue down the line. I can make it stick better by making a big deal about breaking up with you and firing you as Morgan Cooper, too.â
âWhatever it takes,â said Morgan, as if he had given up.
Christabel found Isaac Magnin waiting for her in the hospital lobby. âAre you nuts? We canât be seen together.â
âRemember who I am,â, said Isaac. âYou see me as I am. Everybody else thinks youâre with Naomi Bradleigh, and nobody can hear us.â
âMore of your sufficiently advanced technology?â Isaac had been steadfast in his refusal to call it magic.
âOf course. Incidentally, Victoria Valentine sends her regards.â
âWhere is she?â
âIn custody, but in a nice, comfy cell. Weâll make a big show of her trial, and then instead of shipping her off to Uranus to be with her dad weâll give her a new identity, pay her, and send her off to Armstrong City on Luna to start her new life.â
Christabel nodded, pleased with the outcome. âGood. She really carried off her part. I honestly thought she was gonna kill me.â
âI was there the whole time,â said Isaac. âI would not have let it happen.â
Second Fiddle
Though Christabel had read dozens of accounts of rock stars behaving poorly while constructing her persona, she had never quite understood why somebody might want to defenestrate a television, smash the furniture, or pile up the bedding in the middle of the room and set it alight. At least, she had never understood the urge before. The journalists writing the accounts had put it down to drug abuse or personality disorders on the musiciansâ part that had thus far gone undiagnosed or untreated. Tonight, however, Christabel was beginning to understand. The notion of ripping one of the displays out of the wall and tossing it out a window seemed rather cathartic tonight.
It had been the roses. After every show, Morgan had made a point of bringing her a dozen long-stemmed red roses and an equal number of white roses. Red for love and white for respect. Nobody could fault him that, least of all Christabel. It was the rose she had found on one of Naomiâs keyboards during soundcheck that had been the problem. It was burgundy tipped with black, and had a bow of green satin ribbon edged with black lace tied about the stem. Green to match his eyes, Christabel had thought at the time, and crushed the bloom beneath her heel.
She had thought it a spiteful gesture at the time, born of a moment of pique, and had regretted it immediately afterward. She did not regret it now. Not after the show they had put on tonight. Crowleyâs Thoth still wasnât a headliner, but to be invited to play at the Winter Solstice charity benefit concert in London at the Royal Albert Hall was an opportunity few headliners received. They had shared the bill with thirteen other bands, among them Poseidonâs Wake, Seiten Taisei, Doctor Strangelove, Tartarus, Esbern Snare and the Northern Werewolves, Charn, and Keep Firing, Assholes.
Nothing had gone wrong with the performance. That much Christabel could not deny. If anything, Morgan and Naomi were better than ever, especially during the impromptu jam sessions that had become a Crowleyâs Thoth trademark. One of them would come up with a riff, and then the other would improve upon it. In fairness, they tried to include Christabel but she would never be the improvisational musician the others were. The training she had gotten from Tamara in performance and composition had not prepared her to keep up with them, and the only way in which she could contribute was to provide the theme on which Morgan and Naomi developed variations together.
There was that damnable word âtogetherâ again, Christabel thought as she paced in front of the hotel roomâs two queen-sized beds. The double had been her idea; while not sharing a room with Morgan would have raised questions, she could no longer bear to share a bed with him. Itâs not like we bother with sex any longer, she thought. I bet he was relieved when I told him I wasnât really into it even though he at least tried not to show it.
On impulse, Christabel picked up one of the vases of roses Morgan had given her, and hurled it sidearm at the door to her room. It opened, and the vase slowed to a stop in midair.
Isaac Magnin took the vase and set it down atop the dresser before closing the door behind him. âYou seem upset.â
âMorgan and Naomi are fucking. Iâm almost sure of it.â
Isaac shook his head. âI have real-time A/V feeds on all of the einherjar. I would know if he and my daughter were together as surely as I know what kind of pornography each of my einherjar enjoy when theyâre alone.â
âWell, he isnât interested in me any longer. I thought heâd mope when I cut him off. I thought heâd make a show of scratching his own itch in front of me to show he didnât need me. I thought heâd dump me. But heâs practically the ideal boyfriend.â
âIs he now?â
âOh, heâs sweet, heâs gentle, he seems to think the world of me, he isnât demanding, and heâs always up for whatever I want.â Unable to resist needling the sorcerer a little, she asked, âAre you sure you donât also run Stepford Robotics? Iâve treated him like shit for a year, and he just takes it. Iâm tempted to tie him up, gag him, and put him over my knee just to see how much of a sub he really is.â
Isaac chuckled as he sat down on one of the beds. âElisabeth had told me you had taken an interest in some of the BDSM workshops and that you were a domme by temperament. Whatâs stopping you?â
âHe might enjoy it too much,â said Christabel. âIâm not here for my own gratification. Iâm here because youâre paying me to do a job for you. You wanted me to torture him, to make his life outside his duties as an Adversary as miserable as possible.â
âBut he keeps finding ways to be happy despite you.â
Christabel sighed, relived that Isaac understood her difficulty instead of blaming her. âEven if he doesnât have his head between Naomiâs legs, just being near her seems to be enough for him. The way they play when weâre onstage, the duets they perform together. Itâs a flirtation that nobody seems to notice but me. I canât believe theyâre content with that.â
If the thought of his daughter being serviced by one of the androids he had created bothered Isaac, he did not let it show. âSo when you found the rose Morgan had left on Naomiâs keyboard before the showââ
âIt had been him? I suspected it at first, but had almost conned myself into thinking that maybe somebody in the road crew with a crush might have left it.â
Isaac shook his head. âIt was him. It was something he had done once as a much younger man, and she had caught him at it. He did it again, perhaps because it was the only sign of his continuing regard for her he dares allow himself.â
She relaxed a little. âSo, I am getting to him. Heâd rather be with her, but doesnât dare admit to anybody but himself. Where is he, anyway?â
âHeâs where you should be, doing for my daughter what he should be doing for you. Heâs escorting Naomi at the after party while youâre sitting alone in your room moping.â
âIs he dancing with her?â Though she realized she was torturing herself by asking such questions, it was impossible to resist.
âHe and Naomi have been chatting and swapping stories with the other musicians. Also, a few of Londonâs beautiful people thought they recognized Morgan in his official capacity, but Morgan is behaving himself and insisting that itâs a matter of close resemblances and mistaken identities.â Isaac paused a moment, and cocked his head. âSeriously, though. What kind of ridiculous stage name is âMorgan Stormriderâ, anyway?â
Christabel shrugged. âIt was supposed to be ridiculous. Nobodyâs supposed to take him seriously. Not with a name like that. But he just winks and nods, and says itâs just rock ân roll, all in fun.â Lowering her voice as if to confess a dire secret, she added. âHeâs taken to putting an umlaut over each âoâ when he signs autographs. If you tell him it changes the pronunciation, he insists its traditional. The manâs incorrigible.â
âFrustrated, are we?â Isaacâs tone was one of gentle mockery as he produced a small package out of nowhere. It was wrapped in shimmering white paper and bound with blue ribbon in an elaborate bow. âI suppose itâs a good thing I came by. I had a present for you, you see. Joyous Solstice.â
âThank you.â Christabel accepted the gift with the gratitude and happiness of one who had otherwise been neglected. This was not truly the case; Morgan and Naomi had both given her gifts though she had not done the same for them. However, Christabel had wanted nothing of them. Morgan was her target, and Naomi an unwitting pawn. It seemed somehow wrong to accept gifts of her victims, and so they lay unopened in her suitcase until she could discreetly dispose of them. Isaacâs gift was different. He was her benefactor, the best friend she had ever had. Her only regret was that she had nothing of value to offer as a gift to him.
âPlease open it,â said Isaac.
Beneath the ribbons and wrapping paper was a box. Within the box was a small leather-bound photo album. Inside the album were pictures of a blue-eyed white kitten engaged in a variety of kittenish adventures involving yarn, brown paper bags, houseplants, and baskets of freshly dried laundry. Christabel looked up from the album at Isaac. âIs this a joke?â
Isaac shrugged. âElisabeth and Tamara thought you might appreciate some of my baby pictures.â
âThat sounds more like Elisabethâs sense of humor. Tamaraâs idea of a joke is an anecdote about some dead European composer. Did she really know Mozart?â
âNot really. He just grabbed her bottom at a party and told her to lick his arse clean after she objected to the liberties he had taken.â
While that sounded like something the composer might do, Christabel doubted Tamaraâs reaction. This was an immortal sorceress who had responded to a purse snatcher in Central Park by calling down lightning from a clear blue sky to strike the ground directly in front of him, and then striking the same spot twice more to ensure he got the message. âHow did Mozart survive that encounter?â
âHe didnât, but Tamara never told me how she managed to conceal her hand in his demise or how she deflected suspicion onto Antonio Salieri. However, sheâs had tens of thousands of years in which to learn subtlety.â
Laying aside the album of Isaacâs baby pictures, Christabel took another look at the box in which it had come. âThereâs something else in here.â
âThatâs the true gift.â
Opening the inner box, she found a black velvet choker. The little pentagram charm was made of a metal she could not recognize. It was almost black, and glittered in the light more like crystal than a proper metal. âWhat is this?â
âA material alien to this earth and as yet unknown to human science7. Iâve bound a pattern to it that will keep you safe. Here. Turn around.â
As she complied, and faced the mirror, Isaac took the choker from her and fastened it about her neck. The charm hung over the hollow of her throat. âItâs beautiful.â
âTell anybody who asks that itâs an heirloom created by one of your ancestors, Aleister Crowley. You inherited it on your twenty-first birthday.â
âThat was back in October, though.â
âWould your family have shipped something so valuable to New York?â
âI suppose not,â said Christabel, wondering what she might wear with it. âYou know, itâs not too late to go to the after party. If we hurry we can get there before midnight.â
âWe?â
Christabel turned to Isaac. âI want you to escort me. I want Morgan to see me with you. I want him to see me kissing you beneath that mistletoe-wreathed chandelier everybody avoids.â
Isaac had become thoughtful. âIt would cause a small scandal.â
âWhatâs Morgan going to say when heâs been with Naomi all night?â
âIs this only about hurting him?â Isaac almost sounded pensive.
It was a mood in which she had never seen him, and something pulled at her, demanding that she give him the truth. However, admitting her reasons would mean admitting what she had seen when she was still becoming Christabel Crowley. One sleepless night, she had wandered the halls of the Garden of Earthly Delights. There was almost always something to see if oneâs curiosity tended toward the prurient, and Christabelâs often did when sleep eluded her.
On that particular night, she had wandered into the ruins of the old chapel on the castle grounds. It had become a garden after the roof had deteriorated to the point of being a lattice that offered only token resistance against the elements. She had found Isaac and Elisabeth together in the chapel; he had spread her across the long-disused and surely desecrated altar and was taking her as if it were a sacrament, using her for his own gratification while allowing himself to be used.
The sight of his unbound frost-blonde hair shimmering in the moonlight as he threw his head back had seared itself into her memory. âNo. Itâs also about what I want.â
All eyes were on Christabel and her escort once they arrived at the after-party. They surely made a study in contrasts with her a brunette in a long, slinky black dress and him a pale blonde in white. She had made a point of showing off Isaac to everybody who might possibly matter: celebrities, officials, and the rest of the Beautiful People who showed up at events like this to see, be seen, andâmost importantly of allâmake a public show of their generosity and virtue.
A model whose name escaped Christabel gave Isaac a once-over. âTrading up, I see. Going from rocker to CEO?â
âIâm just doing Christabel a favor. Sheâs a family friend who found herself without an escort after being rather generous to one of her band-mates.â
Allowing herself a small smile, Christabel added. âNaomi wasnât able to get a date on her own, so I lent her Morgan so she wouldnât have to make do with a rent boy.â
The model seemed shocked for a moment, but quickly hid it behind a razor-sharp smile. âOh, so thatâs what happened?â
âThatâs what happened.â Leaning forward, Christabel whispered in the modelâs ear, âThe problem with dating rock musicians is that theyâve so little to offer once the fast fingers and hot licks get tiresome.â
âStill,â said the modelâs girlfriend, âArenât you worried Morgan might decide he prefers Naomi?â
Christabel shrugged. âIâm pretty sure he already does, but if he canât keep it in his pants then heâs as replaceable as she is. I do feel a little sorry for Nims, though. Itâs tragic enough to look the way she does, but her personality is as cold as her coloring. But I suppose some blokes like the idea of melting glaciers a kiss at a time.â
Once they were away, Christabel leaned close to Isaac. âWhat I said about Naomi is part of the act. Are you angry with me?â
âYouâre doing as you think best. The talk youâve started will get around, and eventually get back to Morgan and Naomi. Even if he can shrug off what people say about him, what he hears said about her will most likely cut deeper.â He sighed. âI understand why youâre doing it, but I donât care much for it.
âIâm sorry. Iâm hurting Naomi to hurt Morgan, but I should have realized Iâd be hurting you too.â
âI set you on this course,â said Isaac, the pensive mood on him again. âAnd it is nothing compared to what Iâve done to her.â
âItâs almost midnight. Time to make our scene.â
He looked up at the grand clock that ticked away the seconds opposite the entrance. âIndeed.â
Christabel made her way toward the center of the ballroom with Isaac on her arm. The black tie sea parted around them in whispers as she placed herself beneath the mistletoe. Resting her hands on Isaacâs shoulders, she waited until she could look past him to see Morgan and Naomi. Let them play second fiddle for once. As the clock struck midnight, she pressed her lips to Isaacâs.
He drew her into his arms then, one hand unpinning her chestnut hair as the other rested against the small of her back. His kiss tasted of champagne and chocolate despite his abstention from the food and drink on offer, and it was all she could do to keep from losing herself in a sensation she had never experienced with Morgan. Grasping at what control remained to her, she broke the kiss to whisper in his ear. âUse me like I saw you use Elisabeth. When I go to Morgan tonight, I want him to smell you on me. I want him to taste you in my kiss. I donât want you because it will hurt him. I want you because it will please me.â
Keeping Up Appearances
Christabel was still fuming as she and Morgan walked the last couple of blocks from the Crouch End tube station to Naomi Bradleighâs house. He had not reacted to the scene she had made with Isaac Magnin at the after party for Winter Solstice at the Royal Albert Hall as she expected him to, and when he had come back to find her replete from her lovemaking with Isaac, all he had done was ask her if she had enjoyed herself.
She half-suspected he was planning to make a scene at Naomiâs house, where they were going to a private and belated Solstice celebration. Itâs what she would have done were their positions reversed. Hoping to forestall any such eventuality, she stopped a few doors short. âNot a word about last night when we get to Naomiâs.â
âWe already said everything that needed to be said.â
âI know youâre angry with me.â
âThe last time I was this angry with somebody, I burned every bridge I had with my family. I thought I had something good going with you and with Crowleyâs Thoth, and I donât want to throw it away, but every word I hear out of you makes it harder.â
âWe should have had this fight in the room before we left.â
âI donât want to fight with you,â said Morgan, his voice taking on an edge that discomforted her. âLook: Iâm happy to be your faithful, supportive boyfriend for the fans as long as you keep your affair with Isaac backstage instead of making a public spectacle of it.â
âHow gracious of you to act like you have a choice in the matter.â It was pure bluff on her part; she fully understood her position. Morgan still wanted to be part of the band more than he wanted to be free of her, but if that changed she would have no other hold on him. It occurred to Christabel that he might be staying for Naomiâs sake as well; she remembered what Naomi had said about every band she joined falling apart around her and suspected he did as well, but if Morgan remembered that Naomi was a big girl and could take care of herself, then he had no reason to stay at all.
Whatâs to stop them from starting their own band? The question had begun to nag at Christabel halfway through Prometheus On Tour, as one performance after another showed that while Christabel might have founded the band the two she had considered her sidemen were more truly the heart of the band than she. How long can I keep him from figuring out that he doesnât need me?
âYou coming, or what?â She looked up and saw that Morgan had stopped ten meters ahead, and had turned around to wait for her. He stood with one hand on his hip, still holding a bag of gifts, tapping his left foot. âItâs not that much farther.â
âIâm coming,â said Christabel. Gathering up her own bag, she tried to run to him and catch up. She struck a small patch of black ice and stumbled, one of her feet slipping out from under her. Sure she was about to eat pavement, she drew in a breath to scream.
âIâve got you,â said Morgan as she stopped short, caught in his embrace. After helping her back to her feet, he took her bag along with his. âYou could have walked. I would have waited.â
âYou could have let me fall.â The knowledge of how close she had been to a painful and possibly disfiguring injury hit her. âIf you had been only human, Iâd probably be missing some teeth right now.â
âProbably.â
âWhy did you save me after I demanded you hide what you are around me?â
A small shrug. âI donât know why youâve come to hate me, but I wasnât so desperate for you to have a reason that Iâd just stand there. And I wasnât going to let you get hurt just because youâve hurt me. Thatâs not who I want to be.â
âI-â Christabelâs mind stuttered as his words hit her. âI donât hate you. I never did. But I donât know if I ever really loved you.â
âDo you want us to be over? Do you want me to leave the band?â
âI donât know.â He was offering her an out, she realized. If she said yes to the first question, then they wouldnât be together any longer. But he had asked about the band separately, as if to imply that he was willing to stay on with Crowleyâs Thoth even if they werenât lovers. âAre you offering to let me go while still staying with the band?â
Rather than answer immediately, he stared up into the leaden sky as snow began to fall again in fat white flakes that began to melt as they caught in his hair. It made him seem almost innocent, and a moment Christabel imagined she saw the ghost of the boy he had been. âI can be content with that if you can,â said Morgan.
âI donât know,â said Christabel. âI need time to think about it.â
âAll right,â said Morgan, but there was something in his expression that said to her that sheâd better think it through with greater care than she had used thus far.
It wasnât Naomi who opened the door when they arrived. Instead, a tall young woman with green eyes and auburn hair that fell in waves to her shoulders greeted them. She was wearing a Crowleyâs Thoth t-shirt over faded jeans and leather boots with bubblegum pink laces. She lowered her amber-tinted glasses to give Christabel a once-over before lingering over Morgan. âOne of the tall, dark, and brooding types? My favorite.â She turned back to Christabel. âMind if I borrow him for an hour?â
Before Christabel could say anything, Naomiâs voice rang out from somewhere inside. âDammit, Claire. Please let my guests in before you flirt with them.â
âSorry,â said Claire, not looking even a little chastened as she stepped back to let them in. âYou must be Christabel and Morgan. Iâll take your coats since Auntie Nims doesnât trust me to help in the kitchen.â
âThanks,â said Christabel as Morgan helped out of her long faux-mink coat. âPlease use a wooden hanger.â
Claire complied, smirking all the while.
âI donât recall Naomi mentioning a niece,â said Morgan as he shrugged off his pea coat and accepted the hanger Claire offered.
âNor I,â said Christabel.
âKind of an honorary position,â said Claire. âMy real aunt Jackie and Nims are besties, and Jackie says Iâm too much to handle on her own.â
For some reason this didnât surprise Christabel. In her opinion, one she knew better than to voice, the girl needed a diet and some deportment lessons at the Garden of Earthly Delights. âDo you flirt with your auntâs boyfriend, too?â
Claire blew a raspberry at her. âI flirt with almost everybody. Hell, Iâd flirt with you if you didnât look like you had planet Arrakis crammed up your arse, sandworms and all.â
Christabel glanced at Morgan, who was doing an admirable job of faking a coughing fit. âDid any of that make sense to you?â
âUnfortunately.â
âCome on,â said Claire. âEverybodyâs inside.â
Everybody turned out to be Naomi, a petite blonde in slacks and a pale blue cardigan hiding behind a battered copy of The Unix Programming Environment, a grizzled old campaigner who looked to have decades of hard drinking and harder living under his belt, and a fluffy tuxedo cat with pale blue eyes.
The old man nodded to Morgan as if he recognized him, and Morgan returned the courtesy. Oh, shit, thought Christabel as she finally placed the face. Thatâs Edmund Cohen.
âOi, Josse,â said Claire. âThe whole damn bandâs here.â
The other girl carefully closed her book and laid it aside. Standing up, she offered a slim hand to Christabel. ââEllo. Iâm Josefine Malmgren. Iâm Claireâs roommate.â
âYouâre a computer science student, arenât you?â Naomi had brought out a steaming teapot and began pouring.
âThatâs right.â Josefine shot a sidelong glance Morganâs way. âMaybe I shouldnât talk about what inspired me.â
âThanks,â said Morgan as he accepted a mug from Naomi. After a sip, he turned his attention to the shy blonde. âWas it Project Einherjar?â
âHow did you know?â
Suspecting she knew where the conversation would go, Christabel shot Morgan an angry text. «When youâre with me youâre only human, remember?»
âIâve talked with a few techies at my day job,â said Morgan. âMany of them hoped to get into AI research because they read about the project.â
Glad Morgan had deftly handled the situation, Christabel tried her own tea, and nearly choked on it when a message came from Morgan. «A little credit, please.»
âDinner will be a couple of hours yet,â said Naomi as she sat down with her own tea. Cocking her head to one side, she watched as the cat climbed into Morganâs lap, danced about while kneading with its fore-paws, and settled in for a nap. His purring filled the room. âWait. Thatâs not my cat. Phantom doesnât purr that loudly.â
âSorry about that,â said Edmund. âDesdinova fobbed him off on me. Said he was allergic.â
âSo, why did you bring him here?â
âWell,â Edmund said with an exaggerated drawl. âI figured Morgan hasnât been getting enough pussy lately.â
Both Morgan and Josefine almost choked on their tea. Claire, however, favored Christabel with a saucy smile before kneeling beside Morgan. âMind if I pet your pretty pussy?â
Looking down at the cat in his lap, Morgan sighed. âI think I belong to the cat rather than the other way around.â He scratched behind its lynx-pointed ears. âWhat should I call you, little fluff?â
The little fluff blinked blue eyes up at him. âMeow?â
âHow about Mordred?â Claire suggested the name as she let the cat sniff her fingers and then rub his face against them. âThatâs a pretty metal name for a black cat.â
âMeow.â
âYouâre a talker, ainâtcha.â
âMrrrrp?â
âI suppose Mordred will do,â said Morgan. He looked at Edmund. âHeâs fixed and fully grown, right?â
âNope. Mordred there is still just a kitten. Ainât gonna be big enough to neuter for another three months, and heâs gonna get bigger.â
âHow much bigger will Mordred get,â Naomi wondered as her own cat, a short-haired tuxedo tom with a white patch covering the right side of his face, sauntered in and rubbed against her shins. Mordred, seeing the other cat, immediately leaped from Morganâs lap to pounce on Phantom. Once he had the other cat in a headlock, Mordred began washing him. Phantom tried to endure the younger catâs assault graciously, looking up at Naomi for rescue the whole time. âHe already looks full-grown.â
âHeâs gonna get much bigger,â said Edmund, and looked at Christabel. âYou could sic him on the groupies trying to get a piece of Morgan while youâre off with Isaac Magnin.â
âEddie, I appreciate the support but this isnât your fight. Iâve already made my feelings plain to Christabel.â
âWow,â said Claire, staring at Christabel. âI canât believe there are women who arenât creeped out by that guy. Didnât anybody tell you that white-haired bishounen are not to be trusted?â
âThis is none of our business,â said Josefine, trying to hide her flush behind her book. âAnd is it really appropriate to talk about this at a belated Winter Solstice celebration?â
âNot really,â said Naomi. Reaching under the tree, she retrieved a couple of packages. She handed one each to Claire and Josefine. They had looked heavy to Christabel, but Naomi barely showed any strain. âI hope you like yours. Claire told me a little about you.â
A squeal of delighted surprise erupted from Josefine as she tore open the wrapping paper to reveal a box of leather-bound books. Each one bore the name Donald Knuth on the spine. She blinked at Naomi, seeing that Claire had received a set of books on espionage and information security. âThis is a complete set of The Art of Computer Programming. How did you find this?â
âOh, I have my ways,â said Naomi. âIâm glad you like it.â
âLike it? This has to be the best Solstice gift Iâve ever gotten. But now I feel terrible about the gift Claire and I got you.â
âIt canât be worse than mine,â said Morgan. He had retrieved his bag, and passed out a small parcel each to Claire, Josefine, and Edmund. âSorry youâre all getting the same thing. Naomi told me she might have other guests over, but didnât give me much in the way of details.â
âWhoa. Bootlegs of the Winter Solstice show at the Royal Albert Hall.â Claire stared at Morgan. âWho did you blow to get these?â
âDammit, Claire.â Naomi and Josefine said it at the same time, both women equally exasperated. For his part, Morgan merely smiled and held a fingertip to his lips. âA gentleman never tells.â
âHey, Nims, this guyâs a keeper. He takes it like a man.â
âSo glad you approve,â said Naomi. Sitting beside Morgan, she gave him a quick hug and pressed a large package into his hands. âPlease donât be embarrassed by this. I know itâs extravagant.â
Once he had gotten through the wrapping paper and opened the box, Morgan lifted out a black greatcoat. Fingering the material, he stared at Naomi. âThis is graphene. With ceramic plates sewn into the lining.â
âI canât stop you from taking a bullet for somebody who isnât worth it,â said Naomi, looking squarely at Christabel as she did so, âBut I want you to think of me as you wear this and remember that there are people who care about you.â
Half a Loaf
Christabel wanted nothing more than to get out from under the lights the photographers had insisted on setting up for the interview. It was the first media appearance of the new year for Crowleyâs Thoth, an opportunity to make a strong start and promote their work. This knowledge did nothing for Christabelâs mood, which had been poor ever since Naomi had conned her into helping her wash the dinner dishes the day after Winter Solstice.
âI could help instead,â said Morgan at the time, but Naomi had shaken her head. âI want a few minutes alone with Christabel. Girl talk.â
Naomi had waited until they had gotten a rhythm of washing, drying, and stacking going before beginning her interrogation. Rather than depend on the water to mask their voices, she opened a text chat. «Why are you and Morgan fighting?»
«We havenât been.»
«Of course not,» said Naomi. «You decided on the spur of the moment to have Isaac Magnin escort you to the after party, and then stood beneath the mistletoe chandelier in front of a thousand of the beautiful people and snog him while Morgan and I watched.»
«Itâs none of your business.»
«Like hell. I told you both when I auditioned that I didnât care much for romantic entanglements between members of a band, but I didnât explain why because I figured you were smart enough to figure it out on your own. Iâve seen bands founded by lovers fall apart when the founders fell out of love. So, what happened between you and Morgan? Is he cruel to you?»
«No,» said Christabel. That much she had to admit. «But he just doesnât do it for me, you know?»
«Have you tried to talk to him about it?»
«No, because heâd try to do better and thatâs the problem. He tries too hard. He cares too much. I canât respect him as a man. Not when heâs a meat puppet determined to become a real boy.»
«If you broke up with him because of that, Iâd understand. Iâd figure you were doing Morgan a favor. But the way youâre carrying on has got to end.»
«He asked me if I wanted to break up. Then he asked me if I wanted him to leave the band. Like heâd stay with the band even if we werenât seeing each other.»
«I think he would,» said Naomi. Rather than hand the carving knife to Christabel, she dried it herself and put it away. It was, Christabel would think later on, a rather pointed statement concerning the trust that existed between them. «If he had to kill somebody on the job, he never bothered you about it. Iâve seen him get up on stage and play even though he had just come back from a mission where heâd gotten shot. Heâs always been there for the band. Heâs a trouper, and both a better man and a better musician than you deserve.»
«And why should I care what you think?»
«Itâs simple. Heâs the only reason Iâm still here. If he leaves, Iâll follow. I donât think he realizes this, and Iâm within a hair of telling him.» Naomi paused a moment, looking Christabel in the eye. «But I might just kiss him senseless first.»
«You wouldnât dare.» At least, Christabel hoped she wouldnât. She had been acting on the assumption that Naomi only saw Morgan as a friend at best, and that any romantic or sexual attraction between the two was on his part. Naomi wanting Morgan for herself would change everything.
Naomi shook her head, and dried another knife. «I have not dared, for the bandâs sake. I think that even Isaac Magnin deserves better than you, but while you might be a more reprehensible person than he is youâre a better violinist than you give yourself credit for being. Itâs not your fault that Morgan and I seem to outshine you, and I donât blame you for being jealous. I just blame you for not talking with us about it like an adult and a professional.»
«If I let him go, wonât he just try to get into your pants?»
«Heâs not that kind of guy. If he was, I wouldnât want him for myself.»
Christabel almost dropped the dry plate she had kept wiping for want of something better to do, «Wait. You want him as much as he wants you, but youâre not going to do anything about it for the good of the band? Donât tell me you dedicated enough to go celibate.»
«Of course not. There might not be other people for Morgan, but thatâs his business. I can make do with others until he either realizes he doesnât need you at all or you get tired of standing in our shadows.»
After stacking her plate atop the others, Christabel dropped her towel at Naomiâs feet. «Iâm not giving up on my band, and Iâm not giving up Morgan either. If I want to fuck other men behind his back, I will. If I want to fuck other men in front of him, I will. If he canât deal with that, then he can get the hell out of both my life and the band. He doesnât get half a loaf. He can bloody well take what I give him and like it.»
With that, Christabel had left Naomiâs house. She would have stopped only long enough to get her coat if Edmund Cohen hadnât gotten in her way.
The old man gave her a slow, contemptuous once-over before leaning in close. He kept his voice low so that the other guests would not hear him. âIâve got a bullet with your name on it, Annelise Copeland. If you ever break Morganâs heart again, Iâll tell him everything I know about you so that he understands why I killed you.â
âYouâre just an old drunk.â
âAsk Isaac Magnin about me next time you two are in bed together. Ask him if Iâve ever missed.â He then stepped aside, letting her go. His mocking âJoyous Solstice, Chrissy!â echoed after her as she fled Naomiâs house for the tube station that would bring her back to the hotel.
Though Edmund Cohenâs threat had left her shaken, she had not dared call Isaac Magnin at first. Instead, she had reached out to Elisabeth Bathory, who had done nothing to allay her fears. Instead, she had said, âIâve seen him shoot. Heâs a virtuoso marksman, and you are right to fear him.â
She had not seen either Morgan or Naomi again until today. The record label had arranged this interview with Metal Fatigue, a music news broadcast that reached the entire inhabited solar system.
A reporter named Alice Talbot was giving the interview, and Naomi had not been pleased to hear about it. I wonder what sort of history those two have. It had nothing to do with her, though. All that mattered was recovering from what she now considered the mistakes she made on Winter Solstice.
At least Talbot seemed inclined to start with easy questions. âChristabel, last year Crowleyâs Thoth released Prometheus Unbound and completed a whirlwind tour of Europe, North America, and Japan before returning to London for Winter Solstice. What do you have planned for the band next?â
âWe need a month or two to rest, but after that itâll be back to the studio to write and record another album. Naturally, another tour will follow. There were so many cities we didnât get to visit, and we donât want to neglect any of our fans.â
âSome critics suggest that Crowleyâs Thoth is a better when playing other peopleâs material than they are at writing their own.â
âWe donât write or play for the critics,â said Christabel. âWe write and play for ourselves, first and foremost. Anybody who enjoys our music is welcome to it. The rest are welcome to ignore us; weâre happy to return the courtesy.â
âIn fairness to the critics,â said Morgan. âRock operas and concept albums are something of an acquired taste. Much of what we play live to fill out our set lists are time-tested classics in the public domain, and you donât need any background in Romantic poetry to bang your head to âMr. Robotoâ, âCat Peopleâ, or even âAshes are Burningâ.â
âWho decides what songs you play live?â
âWe each have an extensive repertoire, and we rehearse a wide variety of pieces,â said Naomi. âSince we use our implants to connect to a private IRC server via SSH, we can communicate by text in real time while weâre performing and pick songs to suit our audience. For example, in Paris we performed a few Jacques Brel and Edith Piaf numbers, but in Tokyo we selected a few hits by Loudness, Versailles, and X-Japan.â
âWhose idea were the duets?â
âMine,â said Christabel, which was the regrettable truth. The instrumentals Morgan and Naomi both knew were one thing, but one day during rehearsal Christabel had stepped out, and Naomi had started performing âThe Phantom of the Operaâ and had cajoled Morgan into singing the Erik to her Christine. To think I encouraged them just because I was surprised that Morgan had turned out to be a decent tenor. âMorgan and Naomi might play like demons, but Iâm only human and sometimes I need a break.â
âIt seems like you needed a break from Morgan offstage, too,â suggested Alice. âOr was it because Naomi had come between the two of you? It wouldnât be the first relationship sheâs broken up.â She turned her gaze on Naomi, as if challenging her to respond.
âChristabel had not been up to attending the after party, and Morgan had been kind enough to not let me be the bandâs sole representative. We were there for business, not pleasure.â
âNaomiâs trying to shoulder some of the blame,â said Christabel as Morgan opened his mouth to speak. When he closed it again she continued. âBut I heard from people I trust that Morgan was a complete gentleman with her. It was my choice to overreact and try to hurt him by cheating on him with Isaac Magnin. Iâm paying for it now. Morgan and I have stopped seeing each other, but he was gracious enough to remain with Crowleyâs Thoth.â
Deadlocked
Once Isaac had returned from his turn in the bathroom, Christabel snuggled close to him and pulled the blankets over them. Resting her head on his shoulder, she idly traced his jawline as he pulled her closer to him to keep her warm. She knew better than to mistake it for love, but it was close enough to suit her. âI donât know what else to do. The only hold I have on Morgan is through the band. I may have fouled things up.â
âThat might not be the case. Morgan wonât pursue Naomi because it will break up the band. But he wonât leave the band as long as sheâs there. Whether or not the two of you date is immaterial at this point.â
âThe fans donât care much for it though. Morganâs been playing the sensitive, understanding bloke who loves me enough to let go. Do you see the shit heâs been saying? âWe had our time, it ended, and trying to cling to a love that had run its course was my mistake. I donât blame Christabel.ââ She had almost gagged the first time she had read that. It had been a response to a question asked of Morgan by a menâs periodical that had such a low circulation that she had been sure it had not been worth his time.
âHeâs either smart enough to figure out how to deal with you on his own, or heâs smart enough to recognize good advice when itâs on offer,â said Isaac. âYou tried to justify the scene we made by accusing him of abandoning you for Naomi. Heâs made himself out to be the injured partyâwhich of course he isâbut heâs been punctilious in refraining from recrimination.â
âSo, everybody thinks Iâm the bitch.â
âYouâre not without your moments, my dear, but that is why I pay you.â
Resisting the impulse to grab a pillow and hit him with it, she pinched one of his nipples instead, enjoying the resulting gasp. âFine. What am I supposed to do with him?â
âYou need not do anything,â said Isaac. âHe wonât leave the band because he knows you wonât keep my daughter if he does. He wonât try to pursue Naomi because he knows youâll shut down the band if he tries. What he doesnât know is that the only reason Naomi sticks around is for his sake. As long as this remains the case heâs deadlocked.â
âAnd the shit people are saying about me and the band on the network?â
âYou have a couple of options. You could publicly shrug it off as haters hating, or you could put your acting skills to use and make a show of contrition. Apologize to Morgan, make a big public scene, tell him that you havenât stopped loving him, and beg him to reconcile. Even if his heart isnât in it, you might be able to place him in a position where his own sense of romance and his own compassion will compel him to return to your side. At the very least, he might do it for the fans. Did he not say that heâd help you maintain the pretense of an artsy romance for the fans as long as you were discreet with your paramours?â
âYes, he did. But suppose we make a show of our reconciliation and he lets me string him along so the fans think everythingâs come up roses again. Whatâs your endgame here? You want me to torture him, and Iâm doing my best. Iâm even torturing Naomi, too. When they find out that your my boss and not just my paramour theyâll both hate your guts. That might serve your purposes, butâŠâ Unsure of what to say, she snuggled closer to Isaac and closed her eyes as his scent permeated her.
âHave you come to like them?â
âI regret what Iâm doing to them, and that theyâll never know that I actually respect them as musicians and as people. And they should be together. Theyâre good for each other.â
âWhat if I told you that the adversity you provide is strengthening their bond?â He turned her onto her side and began to spoon her, burying his face in her hair as he held her. âBecause they both value the band over their own romantic fulfillment and neither wants to ruin it for the other, theyâve had to come to know one another as friends and maintain that friendship despite your opposition.â
âDonât you think they would have managed that without me?â
âNo,â said Isaac. âI think that if they had met again without your involvement, Morgan might have sought a romance with Naomi again. Perhaps this time, now that the age gap between then was not so egregious, she might have indulged him until she grew bored with him as she has with her previous lovers.â
âSo, Naomi isâŠâ Though Christabel did not want to call her a slut while in bed with her father, no better term came to mind. âI guess sheâs a serial monogamist.â
âSomething like that,â said Isaac. âRegardless, you have not failed as badly as you think. The situation is not quite ideal, but still both serviceable and salvageable. You need only maintain the status quo, if you decide that youâd rather weather the criticism of those who have not yet realized that their opinions are only meaningful to themselves.â
âWhat about album, ticket, and merchandise sales? Wonât it look strange if Crowleyâs Thoth keeps releasing albums nobody buys and headlines shows nobody attends?â
âIt would have looked stranger before Nationfall, when tax collectors would have seen a situation like the one you described and assumed they were seeing an attempt at tax evasion. Nowadays things are simpler. City governments get to levy a one percent sales tax, and businesses big enough to have employees fork over five percent of their annual revenue to the Phoenix Society unless they want union trouble.â
For some reason, Isaacâs explanation of the Phoenix Societyâs funding sources left her aghast. âYou make the Phoenix Society sound like an organized crime syndicate.â
âIn a sense, we are, but what do you call an organized crime syndicate that has no effective opposition within its territory and spends money on propaganda?â
âThat sounds like a government to me.â
âIndeed. We govern lesser governments. Not to mention churches and corporations. But we govern them as if we were an organized crime syndicate. We have enforcers. Some of these have made their bones and proven themselves capable assassins. The entire program exists to test einherjar. Those who prove themselves resilient, resourceful, ruthless, and reliable merit consideration as potential bearers for the Starbreaker.â
That name reminded Christabel of the night Isaac had brought her to Hanging Garden and given her his sales pitch. The story she had heard from him, Elisabeth, and Tamara still seemed outlandish years later. âThatâs that godslaying sword you expect Morgan to wield for you, isnât it?â
âIndeed. My daughter doesnât realize sheâs been its keeper, but when the time is right she will give it to Morgan to wield against me.â
âThen heâll kill you.â Christabel turned over, and leaned over Isaac. âWhat the hell are you thinking?â
âFirst, the weapon cannot actually kill me unless it is unbound. If Morgan wields it against me in its bound state, it will merely shatter my avatar, this body you so recently enjoyed. I can create another easily enough. The problem is that breaking my avatar will also break my hold on the Almighty.â
âBut thatâs God, isnât it?â
âIt pretends to be God, knowing that the average human can barely tell the difference.â
âYouâre taking an awful risk,â said Christabel, realizing to her surprise that her concern was heartfelt. He doesnât love me, she reminded herself. But where would I be without him? Still working at Borgia Pizza and auditioning for shitty roles in shittier productions?
Gently drawing her into his arms, he kissed her forehead. âIâm not taking any risks. I am doing what I set out to do. Iâve had a long life and Iâve done everything I wanted to do, but for two. Iâve done terrible things to make Project Einherjar possible, and I must pay for them. Furthermore, if the Almighty falls but other ensof like me remain, humans and asuras are no better off. I donât want to die, in fact, I hope Morgan can find a way to break my power without killing me. It will be better for all concerned if he can.â
All ensof were bound to stars or other celestial bodies. Isaac had told Christabel this before, but it had not seemed especially relevant then. It did now. âWhat star are you bound to, Isaac? What star will the Starbreaker kill to destroy you?â
âIâm bound to Helios, to this planetâs sun.â
âThen if you die, the whole bloody world dies. What the hell were you thinking?â
âI was thinking that the Starbreaker is too dangerous, and that it was necessary to create a bearer who could truly control the weapon. If Morgan can destroy the Almighty without being consumed by the Starbreaker, if he can bind it anew after striking that deathblow, then he might be able to use that knowledge to break my power without killing me.â
âAnd where do I figure in this?â
âYou, my dear, are my instrument. When the time is right and I am ready to see him discredited as an Adversary, we will fake your murder. In the meantime, you will do everything you can to make him doubt his own humanity, to make him suspect he might be more monster than man.
âYou are going to help me hurt Morgan so deeply that neither his hatred nor his pride will settle for my death. Furthermore, his love for Naomi must be enough to make him reluctant to deprive her of a father, however hateful I may be to her. To free humans and asuras without condemning them to a lingering death in frigid darkness, Morgan must find it in himself to accept that death is a mercy I donât deserve and sentence me to life.â
Down to the Devil
The sheer insanity of Isaacâs endgame, which he had thought suitable for pillow talk, left Christabel speechless. To goad an android to a state of fury that exceeded Homeric rage and transcended Shakespearean wrath was a plan whose methodology betrayed audacity approaching hubris. Nevertheless, there remained in her a sliver of doubt. âIsaac, youâve showed me magic, but youâre asking me to believe that you hold an entity capable of credibly pretending to be God captive. That might be a bit more than I can take on faith.â
âAnd so you insist on gnosis? That can be arranged,â said Isaac, as he gently got out from under Christabel and slipped out of bed. In a trice his avatar was clothed again, perfectly coiffed and subtly cologned. âWhen you are ready, I will take you down to see what drives the engines of innovation here in Asgard.â
It had not occurred to Christabel to question Isaacâs statement until the elevator carried them from 128F down past the ground floorâlabeled 0 on this displayâand down past B1F. âHave you got nuclear reactors down here?â
âNo. That would be only slightly more dangerous than what awaits us below.â
The elevatorâs display now said B3F. âHow much further?â
âThe AsgarTech Buildingâs roots delve deep. Weâve a long way to go still.â
Waiting in silence, Christabel leaned against the wall and watched the sub-cellar levels tick by. Isaac had seemed to withdraw into himself. His eyes slipped shut, the lashes a rime of silken frost, and there was something in his abstracted expression that suggested to her that he was engaged in some delicate internal preparation and that it was best not to interrupt.
He did not stir until the elevator had reached the very bottom and its display read B127F. Though there was a soft chime to indicate their arrival, the doors would not open of their own accord. âIt is dangerous down here,â said Isaac.
Reaching into his jacket, he withdrew a slim rod of platinum-veined sapphire shaped in a manner she might have found suggestive in a different setting and pressed it into her hand. Standing behind her, he guided her thumb to touch a point where the platinum veins seemed to converge. A slim blade of crackling azure flame extended from the rodâs tip, and Christabel lifted her thumb in shock only to see the blade flicker out.
âHold on to this. The Almighty may attempt to attack us and it would not do for you to be defenseless in the unlikely event that I find myself overwhelmed. If we are attacked, you are to run back to the elevator as swiftly as you can and return to the surface without me. If one of its angels attempts to stop you, use the force-blade this weapon emits on them.â
There was nothing in Isaacâs instructions that pleased Christabel, and his injunction to abandon him at the first sight of trouble that his instructions implied was one she liked not at all. âIf I have this, canât I help you?â
His kiss behind her ear seared her nerves and made her toes curl. âYour concern is touching, but bear in mind that by bringing you down here Iâve endangered you. Though the asurâastra8 Iâve given you is as powerful as the weapons Iâve built into the einherjar, it is still a last-ditch weapon. Attempt no heroics for my sake, please.â
It was not until Christabel acquiesced and promised that she would not stand and fight that Isaac opened the elevator. The doors opened upon a vestibule that intruded upon a cavern whose walls, floor, and ceiling she could not see. The buildingâs ventilation system extended down into the depths, providing fresh air. Dim amber lights mounted along the steel walkway pushed back the subterranean gloom as she tripped their motion detectors, but they were too weak to reveal the full extent of the space in which she found herself.
âClose your eyes a moment,â said Isaac.
Though she complied, the sudden radiance still pierced her eyelids and forced her to cover her eyes. âShit. I must have gotten used to the dark already.â
âItâs the nature of this place. Open your eyes slowly and you will see.â
Once she found the nerve to comply, it seemed to Christabel as if she stood inside an immense geode. The entire cavern seemed lined in jagged, deep purple crystals. A lake spread beneath the catwalk, and though it was too deep for her to see the bottom she suspected it would be little different from the ceiling. As her ears adapted to the space and filtered out the constant low hum of the ventilation fans, she could hear the faint, syncopated, and atonal music of water dripping from the ceiling. As each droplet struck the lake, it sent ripples that collided with those radiating from the impacts of other droplets, so that the surface never stilled and neither reflected nor admitted any insight into its depths. Only once did she see any evidence of life in these opaque waters as an eyeless fish broke the surface to take an insect skimming across the gentle chop for its prey.
âBeautiful, is it not?â Isaac had an arm about her waist, steadying her as she leaned on the railing. âFew such ecosystems like this exist on this planet. This cavern is heated by the magma tubes that feed Mount Erebus. One such tube runs beneath the bottom of this lake. Magma occasionally breaks through, and is immediately cooled by the water. The water dissolves the igneous rock, releasing minerals that extremophilic microorganisms feed upon, providing the foundation for a food web.
Something resembling a tendril of kelp broke the surface, and began questing along the posts supporting the walkwayâs railing. The side closest to Christabel seemed to be lined with suckers reminiscent of those of an octopus or a squid. âIsaac, what is that?â
âSome organism the Almighty has recreated out of its own memories,â said Isaac. As it reached for Isaac, he condensed a blade of ice out of the air that constantly sublimated in his hand. Ice radiated along the tendrilâs veins from where the cold sword bit into it, causing it to shatter beneath its weight. The owner of the resulting stump withdrew, and Isaac released his blade. âIt seems I need to adjust the binding patterns again if it can draw enough power to create something that big.â
âAre there monsters down here?â
Isaac shook his head. âThe organisms the Almighty recreates are native to its home planet. They are only monstrous because they do not belong here and their evolution cannot be traced to any common ancestor in this planetâs tree of life. The angels it sends are different. Hopefully you will not see for yourself.â
âMaybe Iâd be better off not seeing the Almighty, either?â Though she had wanted evidence to support the story Isaac and his teachers had told her, that tendril had been a bit more than she was prepared to incorporate into her understanding of reality.
âYou would be, but itâs too late for that,â said Isaac. âYou need to see before youâll accept the necessity of belief. This is better for my purposes, for you, and for the world than blind faith, but it is a harder path to tread. Now, follow close and touch nothing. You are safest with me, but it is not safe down here.â
Though it felt as though she had been following the suspended walkway that led back to the AsgarTech Buildingâs private elevator all day, Christabelâs implant told her that a mere hour had passed. The catwalk had led them out of the subterranean lake and down a long dead magma tube.
At the end of the tube lay a spherical chamber, which Christabel suspected had not been created by natural processes. Within a massive block of ice to which machines whose functions she did not understand were attached a whirlwind of flame seemed to writhe. It blazed with the radiance of a noonday desert sun, but the ice encasing it would not melt.
The presence within the ice addressed Isaac in polyphony; the names it used overlapping.
âMastema⊠Why have you come to taunt Me?â âPrometheus⊠Why have you come to taunt Me?â âImaginos⊠Why have you come to taunt Me?â
âYouâve been straining at your bindings again, I see.â
âNot merely straining, little upstart.â The incandescent storm seemed to shift within its prison. âWhat of the ape following you? A sacrifice, perhaps?â
âIt would be fitting for humanity to know you as Moloch, but she is not for you.â
âNevertheless, I think I shall have her. I shall rip her gestalt from her brain and make her part of my Host.â
As the Almighty declared its intent, shapes coalesced out of the darkness surrounding its prison where the walkwayâs lights could not reach. They resembled masses of wings covered in eyes. The beingsâ eyes stared unblinking at Isaac and Christabel, intent with predatory hunger. Each spread multiple sets of wings, revealing that they bore the faces akin to those of humans, lions, bulls, and eagles, but kept one set of wings wrapped tightly about their bodies as if for modestyâs sake.
Christabel backed away, reaching into her purse for the weapon Isaac had given her. Once she had it out, she activated it, holding the force blade between herself and the abominations before her. âStay away from me.â She meant it as a command, but the words came out on a moan and sounded more like a plea to her own ears.
âI will see to these angels.â Rather than turn to address her, he kept his eyes on those of the beings that appeared around the Almighty as they began to chant. âLeave me, Christabel. You have seen enough.â
As she turned to comply, one of the entities appeared before her and spread its wings. Its four faces sang a polyphonic chorus. âHoly, holy, holyâŠâ
âHoly shit,â said Christabel, breaking character and dropping the accent she had cultivated. âYou fuckers are even uglier up close.â
As she thrust the force-blade into its chest, it screamed in four-part harmony and burst afire. The flames did not last long, and they left no ash behind. She threw herself into a sprint, still keeping her weapon handy but with her thumb off the trigger lest she stumble and injure herself with it.
Something had happened to the catwalk lights after she had gotten out of the magma tube and the cavernous subterranean lake stretched before her. Since her breath had run short she slowed to a walk and used the railing to guide her as the world around her faded to eigengrau.
Some of them flew ahead of her and placed themselves in her path, their own preternatural radiance announcing their presence and lighting her way. Each was more grotesque in appearance than the last, every one of them an obscenity flung in the face of her understanding of nature. In the cavern they could attack from every side, but for some reason they attempted frontal assaults. Christabel had found that she need only hold out her weapon, and thumb it on when an angel got close enough. They did not seem to understand that the weapon activated instantly and killed on contact.
The last was different. This one more closely resembled the angels Christabel had seen depicted in old paintings kept in museums; it resembled a human man possessed of impossible beauty; its skin seemed of bronze, its hair of gold, its wings feathered in platinum, and its eyes glittering diamond hard. It bore a flaming sword similar to her own force-blade, and long-buried instinct warned her against stepping within reach of that weapon.
Standing guard before the elevator, it spike in chimes. âYou may not return to the world. Not now that you have seen. Be not afraid, child of man; your end shall be swift.â
The soft rustle of wings behind her beneath the endless chant of âholy, holy, holyâŠâ told Christabel she was surrounded. Everything Isaac had tried to teach her about fighting was a blank.
Instead, it was something Morgan had once said that came to mind: When every avenue of escape is denied you, do not freeze because flight seems impossible. Nor should you freeze because you do not know how to fight. Should you ever find yourself in such peril, remember that you need not fight your enemies. You need only kill them.
âKneel and submit before the Lord thy God,â said the angel with the burning sword. Its approach was slow, with the dignity of a procession, and it held its brand by its side loosely gripped in its right hand. âPeace be upon you.â
For some reason a snatch of a psalm came to Christabelâs mind. Here, beneath the earth was the valley of the shadow of death and she was in its midst. A calm settled over her as she sank to one knee and bowed her head. Despite her awareness that she only had one shot, and that blowing it would be her death, her only thought was I will fear no evil, the fixed idea repeating like a mantra.
The angel stopped, and raised its sword overhead in a two-handed grip as it spread its wings. Once the flaming tip was at its apex, Christabel thrust upward with her force-blade and activated it. Her weapon pierced the angelâs immaculate body as its scream pierced the cavernâs silence. The angels behind her began to keen as she sprang forward and crossed the remaining distance to the elevator at a dead sprint, pounding the call button with the heel of her free hand and putting her back to the door to face the angels that would surely swoop down on her en masse.
Instead, the angels fell frozen in mid-flight. Most struck the lake below and sank, but one struck the catwalk and shattered against the steel, spraying fragments like shrapnel in all directions. Once Christabel had lowered the arm she had used to protect her face, she found Isaac standing before her. He was immaculate, his cravat still perfectly knotted and not a single silken strand of his frost-blond hair out of place, and he held a steaming brand of nitrogen ice in each fist.
For some reason, all Christabel could say was the question that had nagged her since the first time he had condensed a sword of ice out of thin air. âDoesnât it hurt to hold those?â
Letter from Christabel Crowley to Isaac Magnin, dated 3 June 2107
Isaac:
Itâs been a month since you took me down to the basement and everything went pear-shaped. You havenât taken my calls, and neither have Elisabeth nor Tamara, so Iâve resorted to writing letters and sending them to your office at AsgarTech. Iâm assuming that youâre all right, since the sun hasnât turned bloody and the moon hasnât become the color of sackcloth and ashes, but it would be nice to know for sure.
Please pardon the subterfuge implied by the letterhead and return address, I thought that a letter from Crowley Couture to the AsgarTech Corporation marked for your attention might be slightly less indiscreet than one from Christabel Crowley. A third party polite enough to refrain from opening other peopleâs letters might dismiss the former as an unsolicited sales pitch; the latter seemed more likely to rouse interest.
It will be harder for me to serve you if we do not communicate, but I will do my best. If youâd prefer to arrange some kind of dead drop instead of getting letters with your business mail, I will follow any procedure you care to implement.
In the meantime, I have made a big production of reconciling with Morgan. I even let him into my bed, but I always imagine itâs you. I wish it was, even though when I thought I was fucked it was something he told me that saved me.
The nightmares still come. Itâs funny that I was fine in the moment, but once I got back home and was alone I broke down. I wish I could talk to somebody about this, but I dare not. A shrink would assume I had been hallucinating or had suffered a psychotic break or something.
I think Morgan might understand, since he may have faced one of these angels himself, but I dare not tell him anything.
Please tell me youâre still there. Please tell me this silence is part of your design.
Still yours,
Christabel Crowley CEO, Crowley Couture
PS: This is a legitimate business. Thereâs been some interest in the custom outfits I force Morgan and Naomi to wear on stage. I would love to design suits and other menswear for you, incidentally.
PPS: Morganâs new cat doesnât seem to like me. He insists on sleeping between us, and growls at me if I try to cuddle with Morgan. But when the nightmares are really bad, he seems to know and he purrs all the louder. It messes with my implantâs network connection, but itâs otherwise soothing. Have you ever heard of a catâs purring causing EMI?
Letter from Isaac Magnin to Christabel Crowley, dated 5 June 2107
Christabel:
Please accept my sincere apology for the terror you suffered while you were my guest, and for my subsequent absence from your life. It was an unfortunate necessity that I remain apart from you; the maintenance of certain critical systems that discretion forbids mentioning here required my personal attention.
By the time I had finished, I had learned of your reconciliation with Morgan Stormrider. It seemed most prudent to keep my distance, lest some mischance expose the narrative youâve crafted for public consumption for the sham it is.
Please also accept my congratulations on your venture into commercial fashion. Once youâve developed a sufficiently strong reputation, it would be my pleasure to meet you for a fitting and a consultation concerning my wardrobe.
You may find yourself receiving interview requests from a journalist named Samuel Terell. He will express interest in both your musical career and your side business as a fashion designer, which will serve to enhance your reputation in both industries. It is my fond hope that you will make time for him; he is an associate of mine and a colleague to Ms. Gellion and Ms. Bathory. You may rest assured of his absolute discretion.
If you need to talk to somebody about the memories that haunt your sleep, the Rev. Dr. Abram Mellech is trustworthy for the same reason you may trust Mr. Terell. Though he is most prominent for pushing prosperity gospel, he is also a licensed psychotherapist and will put aside the God talk in that capacity. When you request an appointment, do not provide your name. Instead, identify yourself as a civilian contractor for the Phoenix Societyâs executive council. This will ensure your privacy.
In the meantime, kindly keep this letter as a memento, and henceforth retain printed copies of any letters you send me. My plans for Morgan will eventually involve exposing the true nature of your relationship, something considerably simplified by the existence of evidence whose authenticity he cannot dispute. However, this revelation will still be some years coming; it will take that long to arrange the sequence of events that will shatter his complacency and set him on the path toward the destiny I have chosen for him.
Warm regards,
Isaac Magnin CEO, AsgarTech Corporation
PS: I have enclosed samples of a recreational chemical you may find enjoyable. Before going to bed with Morgan, dissolve the contents of one packet in a glass of warm water. Get him to drink half, and drink the rest yourself. It will allow you to forget that youâre not with me until the drug wears off. Because Morgan is einherjar, he will not get the full effect but it should affect him enough for him to not mind that heâs with you. Just be mindful that while this chemical does not produce physical dependence, excessive use may result in psychological dependence. Try to refrain from using it more than once a week.
PPS: Thank you for mentioning Morganâs new pet, but I must caution you that he does not have a mere cat. The radio interference that occurs when heâs purring indicates that Morgan has been adopted by a rakshasa. Though I had planned to leave him utterly bereft of all connections, a rakshasa that has chosen an asura (or an einherjar) is beyond my influence. I would suggest trying to befriend him while heâs still a kitten, for he will get bigger. It would seem that Desdinova has chosen to involve himself, but I suspected as much when you told Ms. Bathory that Edmund Cohen had threatened you.
Letter from Christabel Crowley to Isaac Magnin, dated 20 April 2110
Isaac:
Whatever the nature of the personal cataclysm you mean to arrange for Morgan, you might want to move up your timetable. I donât know how much effort you spend monitoring the news, but whatever you read about fancy new pyrotechnics at Crowleyâs Thoth performances is complete and utter bollocks.
We were able to explain away what happened as part of the show, but I dare not be more explicit. All I know is that the lid is ready to come off and Iâm not convinced your grip on the situation is as solid as youâd have me believe.
Love, Christabel
PS: Iâd like more of the stuff, please. I use it by myself nowadays since Morgan figured out I was trying to dose him and didnât take it well. I only use half a packet once a week, so it lasts a bit longer, but itâs been a while since you last sent me some.
Letter from Christabel Crowley to Isaac Magnin, dated 31 October 2112
Isaac:
I canât do this any longer. Iâm this close to compromising myself and blowing the mission. Please get me out of here as soon as possible.
I assume youâve heard that the record label is talking about sending Crowleyâs Thoth into space. Iâm not just talking about shows at the Lagrange habitats. No, Iâm talking about shows on Luna, then on to Mars, Titan Orbital, the prison habitats around Uranus, and beyond Pluto to Nyx. Not to mention the months of ship time in between. Iâll be away from Earth for years, cooped up with Morgan, Naomi, and the other passengers and crew.
Thereâs no way I can do that. The work Iâll have to do so that years in low gravity wonât leave me unable to return home is bad enough, but I can barely tolerate being around Morgan and Naomi long enough to keep the band going. Recording with them is painful, rehearsal equally so, and actually performing with them? Itâs been obvious for years that the fans are there for them and that I barely rate an afterthought, but even the press tend to ignore me now, too. They get most of the coverage. They get most of the questions.
Christ, they even get most of the unsolicited nudes, and while they gripe about it at least theyâre getting unsolicited nudes of attractive people. You know what I got? Some guy bending over and spreading himself so wide I thought he was going to turn himself inside out. He couldnât even be arsed to take off his bloody wedding ring before taking this pic and sending it with a letter saying, and I quote: âI wish youâd do me the way you do Morgan. I can take whatever youâve got.â
Iâm pretty sure that otaku slut Claire Ashecroft put him up to it, whoever he was. It suits her sense of humour entirely too well. Incidentally, is there a way to translate her bullshit into something approximating a reasonable adultâs side of a conversation? I donât know how Morgan and Naomi put up with her, but every time she opens her mouth itâs fucking Darmok at Tanagra.
Christ. Now Iâm talking in memes, too. You see why I need to get out of here? These people are around the bend and likely to take me with them.
Incidentally, I know why angels keep showing up at Crowleyâs Thoth shows. Itâs your bloody fault. The executive council obviously isnât content to use Morgan as an assassin, now youâve got him doing fucking supernatural pest control, too, and it seems the demon in your basement is none too pleased with the notion. Yet another reason for me to get out of here; people are figuring out it isnât just rock ân roll, and when journalists pay any attention to me at all itâs to ask what itâs like to be dating a devil killer.
I could keep finding reasons and excuses, but the plain truth is that I know you donât love me. Iâve always known, despite the kindness and tenderness youâve shown me, but for some reason I thought that maybe if I served you well enough and gave you my everythingâŠ
Forget it. Itâs stupid, and Iâm stupid for thinking it could even happen. Wizards like you donât fall for ordinary women like me outside of those ridiculous fucking manga Claire likes to read. Wizards like you fall for witches like Tamara.
And donât try to tell me Iâm imagining things. I see the way you look at Tamara. You go faraway and sometimes you get this absent smile when youâre watching her or just thinking of her. Itâs the way Morgan often gets around Naomi.
I know Iâm rambling, but itâs late and Iâm drunk. Youâre lucky Iâm as coherent as I am. But I canât do what you need me to do any longer. I canât live like this any longer. Todayâs my birthday, and I have nobody to share it with. No friends, no boyfriend, no real family. Iâm lonely, and it hurts, and Iâve had enough.
Get me out of here, Imaginos, before I break down and tell Morgan and Naomi everything. I donât like what Iâve become, and I donât want to be Christabel Crowley any longer.
Wishing I was no longer yoursâŠ
Annelise.
Letter from Isaac Magnin to Christabel Crowley, dated 2 November 2112
Annelise:
I have enough in place that I can improvise a fitting exit for you. Can you hold out until Winter Solstice? While I cannot deny that my heart has for millennia belonged to Tamara, I am honored by your regard, have been ever grateful for your efforts on my behalf, and still remember fondly the greed with which you kissed me beneath the mistletoe that night a decade ago. Shall we reprise that performance, my dear?
Ever yoursâŠ
Imaginos
Burning Bridges
Christabel had come to love cold, snowy London nights like tonight. Faint shadows cast by dim red lights faded behind the soft white curtain that had fallen over the city, and snow on the night of the Winter Solstice seemed to her a versatile perfection. The night was surely perfect for lovers to seek refuge from the cold together, as Christabel suspected Morgan and Naomi were doing tonight given the manner in which they had upstaged her. It was a perfect night to be as alone as Christabel was at the moment, sitting in the back of a limousine that Isaac Magnin had chartered for the night as its thorium engine idled outside her house in Crouch End. Since nobody was around to see, it was the perfect night to stage oneâs own murder.
It was safe for her to relax now. The curtain had fallen on this act in the lives of Morgan, Naomi, and Christabel. Crowleyâs Thoth had given its swan song, and Christabel herself had given her final performance. Now she needed only relax, stretch her legs, and enjoy her cognac as Isaac played the role of a one-man stage crew and set the scene for the overture to the next act in lives that would no longer be her concern even as the apparent violent end of her own impacted theirs.
At least Isaac had my body double stuffed in the trunk instead of making me ride with it, Christabel reflected as she sipped her liquor. Having to stare at it as we drove down here from the after party would have been just a bit unsettling.
The performance had begun in earnest the morning before the Winter Solstice, as Christabel rehearsed with the others the day before their show at the Royal Albert Hall. They had finally gotten the headliner slot, and Christabel wanted them to be as perfect as the hair of a werewolf drinking a piña colada at Trader Vicâs.
And of course, Morgan had stepped out in between songs only to return a minute later. âChristabel, Iâm sorry, but that was Saul. Thereâs a situation in Shenzhen that the local office canât handle.â
âLet me take your stick,â said Naomi. As Morgan lifted the strap over his head and surrendered his instrument, she asked, âWas it another angel? Doesnât the Society have other einherjar who can handle it? What about Tetsuo, since he usually works out of the Tokyo office?â
Morgan shook his head. âItâs not an angel. Itâs Tetsuo. I donât have the details, but apparently he went rogue. He already took out one Adversary.â
âWell, kill him and get back here as fast as you can,â said Christabel. âWe really donât have time for you to rush off and play the hero right now.â
âI appreciate the vote of confidence,â said Morgan, leaning in for a kiss goodbye that Christabel relished denying him. âTheyâre sending a car around to get me, and will send me to Shenzhen by suborbital. I should be there in a couple of hours. Hopefully Iâll be back in the morning.â
Once Morgan had left, Naomi had turned on her. âYou know damn well Morgan isnât off playing hero. Heâs doing his job. And Tetsuo is not only an old friend of Morganâs but the closest heâs got to an equal.â
Christabel had been well aware of this; she still got updated dossiers, and she had entertained a fond and secret hope since Isaac had provided Munakataâs dossier as well so she could prepare for today. âWith any luck Tetsuo will do Morgan a favor and kill him.â
âThatâs your idea of a favor?â
âOh, please, Nims.â It was important to get the contemptuous tone just right; laying it on too thick might let the other woman dismiss what Christabel meant to say next as sarcasm, and it was imperative that Naomi believe she was speaking from the heart. âDying young is the best career move somebody as worthless as Morgan could possibly make. Of course, itâs usually an overdose or a plane crash, but finally taking on a fair fight will do nicely. That it might be a friend who does him in is a lovely garnish.â
Naomiâs face had reddened, and she had her fists clenched at her sides. Her mouth was a white line, and Christabel imagined she could hear the other woman grinding her teeth in outrage. It was a long moment before she finally spoke. âYouâre lucky weâve got a show to put on, Christabel. I canât believe Morgan hasnât slapped you around yet. Itâs years overdue.â
âHe doesnât have the balls to lay so much as a finger on me in anger.â
âNeither do I, but that lack isnât what stops me.â Bunching Christabelâs cardigan in her fist, Naomi pressed her against the studio wall. âAs weary as I am of watching you mistreat that man, he can fight his own battles. Iâve stayed my hand out of respect for him, but this is the end. After tomorrowâs show, Iâm out. Attempt to bring a breach-of-contract suit against me and Iâll file a hostile work environment complaint with the Phoenix Society.â
âWhy not just quit now?â
Naomiâs tone sweetened until it dripped rancid honey. âWhy should I give you the satisfaction of seeing me throw away decades of professionalism? Youâre not worth it.â
Releasing her fistful of Christabelâs cardigan, Naomi packed up her keyboard. âIâm going back to my room to practice my parts. Iâm sure a musician as skillful as you needs no accompaniment.â
When Christabel finally left the studio, Isaac Magnin was there awaiting her. He leaned against a lamppost, smoking a cigarette. He flicked it skyward as she approached him. Once it had reached its apex, it burned to ash in a flash. A gust carried the ash away to soil some mere mortalâs clothes. âI saw Naomi leave in tears earlier. What did you say to her?â
She shrugged. âJust burning bridges, as your telemetry should have indicated. I thought it would be better if leaving the band was her idea.â
âWhat will you tell Morgan when he returns?â
âDonât you mean if? I understand Tetsuo is his equal.â
That got a rare chuckle from Isaac. âTetsuo wants to believe heâs Morganâs equal. He will learn otherwise.â
âFine,â said Christabel. âWhy not help me decide what to tell him in bed? Itâs been years.â
âTime for another fitting?â said Isaac, smirking as he used Christabelâs euphemism for their illicit assignations.
âNo.â Reaching into her pocket, she produced the key card for the hotel room she had gotten to be closer to the Royal Albert on the day of the show. âI want everybody at the hotel to see me taking you to my room. Letâs give people something to talk about, shall we?â
They had given people plenty to talk about, Christabel recalled as she finished her cognac, and Isaac had sent her off to the Royal Albert Hall thoroughly satisfied. She had found Naomi in her dressing room, but Morganâs was empty. Going back to Naomiâs, she had knocked on the door. âWhereâs Morgan?â
The face Naomi showed over her shoulder was one purse-lipped and pinched with worry. âHe isnât back yet. I checked with Saul at the Phoenix Society, and he says the Shenzhen office doesnât have any information on Morganâs status.â
âMaybe heâs dead.â
âMaybe youâd like that,â said Naomi. She crossed the room in a few long strides, and wrenched the door from Christabelâs hand. âIf he died over there, then I will spend the night singing his requiem.â
âYou think heâll give a shit? Heâll be dead, remember? If there isnât an afterlife he wonât hear you. And if there is then your voice wonât reach whatever hell awaits him.â
âLoving you as long as Morgan has was a labour worthy of Herakles,â said Naomi. âNow piss off. Weâve got a soundcheck in twenty.â
Soundcheck came and went without Morgan, which suited Christabel just fine. It gave her time to slip into his dressing room, grab all of his clothes, and consign them to a dumpster out back. If he did come back, he would have no choice now but to take the stage in uniform, thus breaking his promise to her that he would keep his life as an Adversary separate from the life he lived as a musician. It would give her the excuse she needed to break up with him and fire him from the band while acting the wronged party.
Meanwhile, Naomi was busy explaining to the bandâs management, the venueâs management, the master of ceremonies, and anybody else concerned that Crowleyâs Thoth would take the stage no matter what, and that Naomi was sure that Morgan would return from his emergency mission in time. It was an unpleasant duty Christabel was happy to shirk.
Band after band played, and Morgan remained missing. It was not until the last set before Crowleyâs Thoth was scheduled to play that Naomi burst into Christabelâs dressing room, her expression suffused with relief. âMorganâs suborbital just touched down. Heâs on his way.â
âCharn just started their set. No way heâs going to get here in time,â Christabel was sure this would be the case; the Tube was running on a reduced schedule on account of the holiday, and getting a cab today would take divine intervention.
âHeâll be here,â said Naomi. âHe said heâd run the whole way if that was what it took.â
âA blizzard just came in off the North Sea. Heâs going to run all the way here in that?â
Naomi reached down and scratched Mordred behind the ears. In the years since the cat had first adopted Morgan, he had grown to the size of a sheepdog. âIf Morgan were still in Shenzhen, this fluff would have found his way to his side already. You know how he just shows up.â
Christabel certainly did. The damn catâthe damn rakshasa, to use Isaacâs name for the beastâinvariably showed up whenever Morgan was away from New York more than a few days. She had no idea how a cat this big could bypass hotel security, let alone that of the Royal Albert Hall, but here he was purring and licking his chops like he had just gotten back from the Tower of London after eating a raven or two. Claire had insisted the cat could walk through walls, damn her and her reading. It was most likely her fault, Christabel thought, that Crowleyâs Thoth ended up doing concept albums about Frankenstein and that monk who had buggered off to India with three demon bodyguards to retrieve a scroll of scriptures or something.
Before Christabel could say anything else, the cat perked up. He sprang to his feet, turned his back on Christabel, and gave her an eyeful of arsehole as he sprang away with his bushy tail held straight up and quivering.
He soon returned, padding beside Morgan as if he were a faithful hound. Morgan himself looked rather the worse for wear; his armored greatcoat was battered and covered in blood. Morgan himself smelled of blood, sweat, gunpowder, and burnt ozone. His cheeks were hollowed out, there were dark circles under his eyes, and he was grimacing with every bite of the emergency ration he was nibbling.
Christabel couldnât resist a quip as she and Naomi followed him into his dressing room, âWell, look what the cat dragged in.â
He looked down at himself. âIâm sorry. Is there time for me to take a quick shower and get changed?â
âNo,â said Christabel, âIncidentally, whatever arrangements you made to get your clothes brought here didnât work out.â
âYou look like you clawed your way up out of Hell to get here,â said Naomi. âAre you sure youâre up to performing?â
Morgan shrugged. âWeâve got an audience waiting, donât we? Donât worry; I wonât fuck this up.â
âYouâre not going on stage looking like that,â said Christabel. âYouâre still in uniform, for fuckâs sake.â
Morgan took another bite of his emergency ration, which more closely resembled something he ought to flush instead every time Christabel looked at it, and favored her with an appraising look. âIâm pretty sure that was your doing, judging by the trouser legs I saw sticking out of the dumpster when I came in through the back door.â
Despite Christabelâs protests, Morgan had taken the stage in uniform, though he had laid aside his weapons and the battered greatcoat that Naomi had given him a decade ago. Despite looking like shit warmed over, he had given the performance of his life beside Naomi.
Then there was the after party, thought Christabel, and reached for the cognac. Rather than refill her glass, she drank directly from the bottle and thought herself justified in doing so. She still could not believe that she had been upstaged so thoroughly. This time, when she and Isaac had arrived at the after party at the stroke midnight they had found Morgan and Naomi standing beneath the mistletoe.
Naomi had looked directly at Christabel before slipping her hands into his hair and drawing him into a kiss. When they had finished, Morgan had addressed the crowd. âNaomi told me earlier that she had taken the hardest decision of her life. Now itâs my turn to take hard decisions of my own.â
He looked to Christabel first. âIâm quitting Crowleyâs Thoth, and you and I are over.â
âW-what about Naomi?â
Morgan shrugged. âShe told me she had had enough of your shit.â To Isaac, he had said, âFind somebody else to do the Phoenix Societyâs dirty work. Iâve had enough and I want out.â
âI canât believe I fucked it up so badly,â said Christabel to nobody in particular. While the driver still sat up front, he had his partition closed and would not have heard anything unless she engaged the intercom.
However, Isaac must have heard her, for the first thing he said as he opened the door and slipped into the seat beside her was, âYou did well enough for my purposes. Morgan is adrift now.â
âHeâs probably balls deep in Naomi right now.â
âI had to knock on her door to get the key to yours. Heâs sleeping on her couch, too much the gentleman to accept a guest bedroom, I suppose.â
âWell, fuck him. Is everything set up?â
The smile with which Isaac favored her was rich with self-satisfaction. âOh, Iâve no doubt it will be a delightful show.â
He held out his hand, and a sealed manila envelope dropped into it out of nowhere. He handed it to Christabel and said, âIâd invite you to watch it by my side, but I suspect you might be busy resuming your old life. But perhaps I could schedule the occasional fitting?â
Interlude: Worth the Pain
After Morgan and Naomi have heard Anneliseâs story, they bid her farewell and return to his home. Though Morgan has forgiven Annelise now that he understands the reasons behind her actions, he has no intention of letting her hurt him again.
Naomi is of a different mind. She cannot forgive Annelise, for she feels that doing so means condoning her fatherâs actions, and would make her little better than him.
The title comes from âWorth the Painâ by Letters From The Fire, from Worth the Pain.
Morgan 1
It was long past midnight when Annelise had finally finished her tale. The vast majority of the Flaming Telepathâs patrons had gone home, and the tavern had gone nearly silent. Most of the lights were out, and the pianist had long since stopped playing. Instead, she had lowered the pianoâs cover and leaned on it as if enraptured by what she was hearing.
Morgan wished her the joy of it; for him it seemed the confession of somebody who had made their life a crime of passion. Annelise had paused only to sip her coffee, which a server had stood by to keep filled. Morgan had been unable to keep from counting the refills; Annelise had taken a dozen mugs of black coffee to get through her history, and he had never seen her look so thoroughly wired.
She motioned to the server. âWhereâs the ladiesâ room?â
âIâll show you,â said the server, leaving Morgan alone with Naomi.
She had been resting her head on his shoulder, idly playing with a lock of his hair as they listened to Annelise. She had braided a lock of her hair with his, white against black; until she undid it they would have difficulty separating. Her scarlet eyes were heavy-lidded with the need for sleep, her pupils open wide to catch every scrap of the tavernâs dim light as she gazed up at him. âDo you believe her?â
That was the heart of the matter, and she had cut to it with the unerring skill of the Adversary he was sure Naomi had been in another life. âI think her lies were mainly of omission,â said Morgan after he gave the question due consideration. âIâve been reviewing her diary and letters. Everything she told us tonight roughly matches the texts I took off her computer.â
âI donât understand why sheâd tell us the truth tonight.â
âWhy not? Itâs been a year. Sheâs probably been looking over her shoulder the whole time, expecting all the while to find one of us behind her.â
âNot me,â said Naomi, snuggling tighter against Morgan. âOnce we learned she had been working for my father, I was content to assume that she had failed him, that he had murdered her for it, and that avenging her wasnât our problem.â
Enjoying Naomiâs warmth against him, he slid a hand down to her hip and pulled her closer. âAre you disappointed that I couldnât let it go so easily?â
She shook her head. âNo, but I fear for you. I fear that my father has you dancing to his tune.â
âIâve been working on the assumption that Annelise is still working for him,â said Morgan. âRemember Christabelâs funeral? I think he had hoped Iâd challenge him then and there.â
âBut you didnât let him get to you,â said Naomi. âI donât know what I might have done in your position.â
Everything Naomi said when the subject of Isaac Magnin came up hinted at a long and complex history, but Morgan had thus far restrained his curiosity as carefully as he had restrained his anger over his own dealings with the man. He had long suspected that if he knew the truth of what Magnin had done to Naomi, he would not be able to contain his wrath for long. It was the little things that got to him, like people screwing with his friends.
Before he could say anything, Annelise returned to their table and slid back into her seat looking somewhat refreshed. âThanks for not leaving me here to cover the check.â
Naomi could barely manage an exasperated sigh, leaving Morgan to answer. âWe all know thatâs more your style.â
Annelise stared at the table for a long moment, tracing old moisture rings with a perfectly manicured fingertip. âI had that coming.â
âAnd more,â said Naomi.
âI thought I could live with what I had done,â said Annelise, âBut confessing it all, reliving it all⊠I never wanted to hurt either of you.â
âDonât flatter yourself,â said Naomi. âI tried to befriend you for the bandâs sake, and for Morganâs sake. For a while I even thought you were good for him.â
âAnd for a while I thought he was good for me, but I had my orders.â Annelise looked to Morgan, eyes wide with a reasonable facsimile of wounded innocence.
He had to give the woman her due; she was almost as good an actress as she was a violinist. âIf I didnât know you better Iâd think you actually believed your own bullshit,â said Morgan. âBut I donât quite know you well enough to say that you donât. I know you just well enough to know that I donât give a shit any longer.â
âI know I hurt you,â said Annelise, âBut it was part of the job.â
âIâve helped condemn people to fates they believed worse than death because it was part of the job. Iâve helped make people unpersons doomed to die in exile because they stiffed somebody out of five minutes of overtime pay. I knew what I was signing up for, and Isaac Magnin didnât lie to you any more than the Phoenix Societyâs recruiters lied to me. Iâve got to live with what Iâve done, just like you, even though I was following orders too. That excuse didnât fly at Nuremberg and it wonât fly for either of us.â
âI suppose that means you hate me.â
Naomi had undone the braid she had made of her hair and Morganâs, and was now gently clasping his hand as she texted him with her implant. «Come on. We donât need to keep talking with this woman. Itâs obvious that being Christabel wasnât much of a stretch for her. Sheâs still trying to play you.»
He caressed the back of Naomiâs hand with his thumb and buried his face in her hair, breathing deep her scent as he kissed her. «Thereâs something I want to say first.»
«Donât give her the satisfaction of knowing sheâs hurt you.»
âNaomi tells me I shouldnât give you the satisfaction of knowing how I really feel,â said Morgan, locking his eyes on Anneliseâs, âbut you know what? I donât even know how I feel right now. Hell, I donât even know whether to damn you for doing your best to kill my faith or bless you for finally having the sense to walk out.
âI know you started working for Isaac Magnin because he was offering a deal no reasonable person would refuse. I want to believe that in the privacy of your own heart you actually gave a shit about Naomi and me, but youâre the only one who will ever know for sure because I canât trust a word out of your mouth and youâve only yourself to blame for that.â
Annelise looked away. âThen you still hate me.â
âNo,â said Morgan. Reaching behind his neck, he found the clasp of the St. Judas medal he had worn since Saul Rosenbaum had given it to him after he killed a Project Harker survivor too traumatized to surrender without a fight to the death. He disengaged the clasp and lifted the medal out from under his shirt. âHold out your hand.â
«Donât do this,» Naomi texted. «Sheâs not an Adversary. She wonât understand. And she isnât worth it.»
«Itâs mine to give, and this is something I need to do so I can move on.»
«All right.» Turning to Annelise, she echoed Morganâs command. âCome on, Annelise. Hold out your hand.â
âSo you can mark me as a traitor?â
âSo I can initiate you into the Iscariotine Order,â said Morgan. âIt takes one to know one. Iâm giving you this because I think you betrayed yourself, Naomi, and me because you bought Isaac Magninâs story and honestly believed you were serving a greater good. I need to believe this, so that I can put aside the rage and hatred Iâve been carrying ever since you broke my heart. Wear this as a reminder of the moral weight you carry, until you can find a way to set it aside, for I dub thee unforgiven.â
This last was a ritual formula Saul Rosenbaum had said to Morgan all those years ago, when he stared at the first man he had killed, his sword still embedded in his enemyâs chest when he had intended only to wound and subdue him. The other man had thrown himself on Morganâs sword, but that did nothing to diminish his responsibility; those who draw the sword draw to kill, and those who kill by the sword have no right to protest when their turn to die by it eventually comes.
âSo, I did hurt you,â said Annelise, her eyes swimming with unshed tears. Nevertheless, her hands were steady as she worked the clasp of the St. Judas medal behind her neck and let it settle. She tucked the medal into her blouse, safely out of sight so that only she need know of the burden she carried. âIâm sorry. I know it doesnât make a difference, but Iâve wanted to say it for a long time.â
Shaking his head, Morgan rose from his seat. âI didnât tell you how I felt because I wanted an apology. I did it because I was tired of hiding my pain for your sake. You arenât worth it.â
Offering his hand to Naomi, he helped her out of the booth and stole a kiss. Knowing Annelise was watching and wanting to rub her nose in what she had thrown away, he took his time and indulged himself.
Naomi 1
Tonight had not been the Winter Solstice celebration Naomi had hoped to have with Morgan, but the searing kiss he had given herâafter finally reclaiming his balls from Annelise Copelandâs purse and telling the manipulative little slag to sod off after they had spent the evening listening to her crap on about how it was so hard for her to play Mata Hariâhad gone rather far toward redeeming it. It was too bad that angels had found them in the subway on the way back to the Upper West Side, though.
She rolled over, reaching for him only to recall that he had slipped out of bed and promised to come back with a sandwich. He soon returned, holding glasses and a bottle of wine in one hand while holding a pair of plates in the other. A pair of sandwiches lay atop the upper plate.
âSorry I took so long,â said Morgan as he served the sandwiches and poured the wine. âI had to put the baguette in the oven first.â
Though it was a simple Parisian sandwich it proved to be exactly what she needed. She savored each bite, saving the wine until she was done. âI needed that.â
âI bet you did,â said Morgan as he stretched out beside her. He turned over, knowing that she preferred to be the big spoon and evidently not minding a bit. He waited until she had settled in behind him before gently grasping her hand. âThough I suppose that wasnât the first time youâve fought angels.â
It had not been. Nor had the angel that had attacked her in Grand Central Terminal been her first. However, it was not a matter Naomi could easily discuss. Being einherjar, Morgan was built to fight angels and demons. An asura like Naomi needed particular weapons if they had not learned to manifest psychokinetic talents they could use to fight instead. While Naomi had the weapon, she had not yet found a way to explain it or why she possessed it. âItâs complicated.â
His lips brushed her knuckles. âYou might have noticed that Iâve had some experience with complicated.â
Thatâs what I get for understatement, Naomi thought as she cast about for a better phrase. The only one that came readily to mind was one Claire used when a particular seriesâ overarching plot proved unnecessarily convoluted and seemed written that way by authors desperate to display their intellectual prowess to compensate for other shortcomings. âAll right, then. Itâs fucking Byzantine.â
âI think we both had a taste of that tonight, too, thanks to Annelise.â
âCan we not talk about her in bed?â
âSure,â said Morgan. Slipping out of her embrace, he stood beside the bed and offered his hand. âWhy donât we take this downstairs? Iâll get the fireplace going.â
Rather than take his hand, Naomi pulled the bed-covers tighter around her and hugged his pillow. âMust we?â
âI canât force you, but thereâs a lot about you that I donât understand. Thereâs that sword you wielded tonight. Then thereâs your relationship with Isaac Magnin.â Morgan paused a moment, looking down at the criss-cross of small dark lines over his heart. âThereâs a lot I havenât told you, either.â
âLike why you forgave Annelise after all sheâs done?â
Morgan did not answer. She half-suspected that he would not do so as he put his jeans and t-shirt back on. He then handed her the clothes he had torn off her in their haste to get to bed after their struggle in the subway had roused them. Once she was dressed, she found him sitting by the fire. Seeing that he had put out a plate of cheese, meats, and crackers she prepared a snack for herself.
âForgiving Annelise was the only move that made sense to me,â said Morgan, finally answering her question. âAs long as I held onto my hurt and anger over the the way she treated us, it gave her power over me and gave Isaac Magnin leverage. You said it yourself; heâs trying to play me.â
His reasoning made sense, but that was the problem. She too had tried to be reasonable, to not give Isaac Magnin power over her, and no matter what she did he found a way to turn her actions to his advantage. âWhat will you do, then? Spend the rest of your life second-guessing yourself, denying your true feelings and ignoring your needs and desires because it might give him a handle on you?â
âIs that what you did?â
He had been watching the fire as he said it. He had delivered the question as if it were an offhand remark. Nevertheless, it pierced as deeply as if he had stared her down and accused her. It had been what she had done. It was what she continued to do. It was one reason she had yet to admit that her reasons for being near him were little different from Anneliseâs.
The other was that she feared Morganâs reaction should he come to suspect that her regard for him was as illusory as the other womanâs. Could he forgive me, too? Naomi wondered. Not likely. Would his pride allow him to even consider it?
The silence between them stretched as the fire crackled and popped. Mordred had flopped onto the floor in front of them to enjoy the warmth, and all she wanted to do was settle down on the rug beside the cat and rub his belly. Instead, she looked to Morgan. âI canât forgive Annelise for how sheâs treated you, and I feel like I have to hate her for you because you canât seem to bring yourself to do it on your own. I donât understand how you can bear to let go.â
Morganâs lips had curled into a slight, tight-lipped smile. âRemember how I said Annelise was probably still working for Magnin when she told us her sob story?â
She nodded.
âAnnelise said it herself. Assuming she isnât bullshitting us, Isaac Magnin wants me to come after him.â
âAnd so youâll let him make a Grand Guignol of your life?â
âIf thatâs what it takes to ensure that he doesnât see me coming,â said Morgan, âBut enough about me. What about you?â
âWhat about me?â
âI never pressed you for your secrets before because I didnât think I had the right. I still donât think I have the right, but thanks to Annelise I learned the hard way that love isnât enough.â
Despite her proximity to the hearth the room no longer felt warm enough. The firmness in his voice and the set of his jaw were not unfamiliar to her; he had committed to himself to a course he thought necessary despite knowing that he would most likely regret embarking upon it. âI think I understand,â said Naomi. âYou love me, but you loved Christabel, too. She betrayed you even though you loved her, and I too could betray you.â
âHeâs your father, according to you,â said Morgan.
âI donât think thatâs ever bothered you before,â said Naomi.
âI wasnât about to take on a vendetta against him before. I donât want to accuse you of holding divided loyalties, butââ
It only took a heartbeat for her to pull him to his feet and gently silence his objection. âWait there a moment. There is something I need to give you.â
Running up to the guest bedroom where she had stashed her bags before taking Morgan to bed earlier, she opened her bag and retrieved the faded pink cardigan that Morgan had knitted for her as a Winter Solstice present over a decade ago. It still kept her warm despite its age, but despite her care the once scarlet wool had faded to the same pale coral as her lips when she wasnât wearing lipstick. Once she had slipped into it, she opened the case in which she kept the Starbreaker. As soon as she had the sheathed weapon in her hands it was back in her head. «Youâre wearing that ratty old thing again?»
«First, Morgan made this for me. Second, why would I take fashion advice from a demon sword?»
«Where else are you going to get fashion advice? That fake pop tart?»
Naomi let this pass, glad the weapon refrained from using harsher language. «Iâm going to introduce you to Morgan. Do at least try to behave.»
«Hey, at least I didnât eat him the last time you let me out to play.»
«Fine. No more Elric until you learn to behave.» Oddly enough, refusing to read bedtime stories to the weapon seemed enough to make it behave. Itâs like Iâm babysitting this thing, she thought, and not for the first time.
«I liked Morgaine better. Not as emo. She looks a bit like you, too. Iâd let her polish me.»
«Well, none of her either if youâre going to be lewd.»
«Hey, I wasnât always a giant prick.»
«Iâm sure you had other shortcomings. Now, are you going to behave yourself?»
«If you insist.»
Morgan was still on his feet when she returned. âThatâs the weapon you used earlier.â
âIt is,â said Naomi. Cradling it in upturned, open hands, she presented it to him. âYou never asked me why I wear a Saint Judas medal, but you have a right to know. I wear it because Iâve been one of the Phoenix Societyâs Inquisitors ever since you began training to join the Adversary corps. My mission, which came from Isaac Magninâs enemies on the executive council, was to watch over you as Annelise did for Magnin. If I judged it necessary, I was to assassinate you to keep you from becoming Magninâs weapon or the Almightyâs.â
Morgan reached out to accept the weapon, and stopped short. âAnnelise said this weapon could give Isaac Magnin his true death if unbound. You could have ended him yourself.â
Naomi shook her head. âI never learned how to unleash its full power, and even if I knew how I wouldnât dare. I fear that sword as I fear nothing else in the world save the loss of your regard. If you take it, youâll soon understand.â
âIf I take it,â said Morgan, his hand still not quite touching the weaponâs scabbard. âWill you tell me everything?â
As he finally grasped the weapon, she clasped her hands over his. âIâve wanted to tell you everything for years. When my courage permitted it words failed me. When I had the words, valor deserted me. I donât know if I have either tonight, but I canât deal with the doubt I see in your eyes any longer.â
âIâll listen for as long as it takes,â said Morgan as he put aside the sword. âAs long as you tell me why you have that thing.â
âI suppose it said something rude,â said Naomi, glancing at the Starbreaker.
âIt asked me if I wanted help killing your father.â
âIt might offer to help you kill me next,â said Naomi, screwing her courage to the sticking point. âOnce Iâve told you everything.â
Part III: Where Is The Edge
This is Naomi Bradleighâs tale of how she learned that Isaac Magnin is her father, and her subsequent dealings with him.
The title comes from âWhere Is The Edgeâ by Within Temptation, from The Unforgiving.
Like Room Service
Naomi looked up from her third glass of wine for the night, and found Edmund Cohen sitting to her left. When the bartender finally got around to him, he said, âWhiskey on the rocks for me, but not the cheap shit. And no more wine for the lady. Sheâs had enough for now.â
âSeriously, Cohen? I donât work for the Phoenix Society any longer.â It had been a couple of years now. A couple of years of joining promising bands hoping to get in on the ground floor, only to see one band after another implode around her. The keyboardist and composer of one band had wanted to date her, but she had refused only to be fired for it and publicly called out as a selfish prima donna. In another band, the lead guitarists were engaged until one thought the other had a thing for herâand never mind that they had both been gay their entire lives. The latest one had been some shit-for-brains A&R managerâs idea of a good gimmick: an all-woman band called The Naomis because every member was called Naomi. When the exec had announced the idea, Naomi was glad for the first time that she was not in the habit of wearing a sword as a civilian because otherwise she might have yielded to the temptation to tear the guyâs pants off, bend him over, and then paddle his arse with the flat of her blade. As it was, one of the other Naomis had fattened his lip and walked out. âItâs been a rough day. Are you really going to begrudge me a few drinks?â
âYou didnât self-medicate like this after the Clarion job,â said Eddie.
âTell that to Christopher Renfield,â said Naomi, recalling with a bit of guilt how she had used him without any consideration for his own needs or desires when the nightmares had been at their worst. It had been a while since she last dreamed of the white cell, but other dreams took their place. Just last night she had watched as tungsten lances fell screaming from the sky as her last desperate gambit, a distributed denial of service attack, failed to shut down the GUNGNIR platform in time. âI think I wore the poor man out.â
âWeâve been keeping an eye on the Dusk Patrol survivors. Renfieldâs fine, and heâs had worse than a sore willy.â
âHas he been asking after me?â It would not have been the first time, though she could not understand why. It wasnât as if they had been lovers. At most they were acquaintances with benefits.
âThis is all on me,â said Eddie. âIâve tried to be discreet about it for your sake, but Iâve been keeping an eye on you ever since Clarion. I know you turned down Desdinova once, but we could still use your help.â
Naomi stared into her wine, not wanting to answer Eddie one way or the other. It had been Desdinova who had ordered Malkuth to keep her in the dark, offering no intelligence and minimal support when she had stumbled upon the murders in Clarion and their true cause. Eddie himself had admitted that it was a shit job, utterly thankless and likely to end with her and her entire family exiled from Earth to get away from assassins.
Not that the man who had called himself Ian Malkin needed assassins. He had proven himself perfectly capable of doing his own wet work without bloodying his hands when he had appeared in her room at the Lonely Mountain in Clarion. He had offered her a nice, juicy carrot: if she renounced her post as an Adversary and kept quiet about what she had seen in Clarion, sheâd get a shot at a life as a rock musician. Then he showed her the stick: if she persisted in clinging to her ideals, ideals which had led her to learn some disquieting truths about how the Phoenix Society worked behind the scenes, he would simply teleport her into the Oort Cloud to breathe hard vacuum and freeze in the dark like he had done with the man Naomi had identified as the culprit behind the murders in and around Clarion.
Henrik Petersenâcountry doctor, former colonel in the North American Commonwealth Army, and clandestine genetic engineerâhad also proven responsible for Project Harker, Dusk Patrol, and the bombardment from orbit of the original town of Clarion during Nationfall. He had attempted a second bombardment, but Naomi had stopped him with tools left behind by a local sysadmin who had revived a mirror installation of Fort Clarionâs computer systems. Petersen had had him murdered, but it did not save him; when she last saw him during her brief visit to deep space, she had found him frozen in a final scream that would go forever unheard.
âYouâre shivering,â said Eddie as he draped his jacket over her. âAre you all right?â
It smelled of oil, old cannabis, and older sweat but Naomi tried to appreciate the gesture. âThanks. Some bad memories came up, thatâs all.â
âIâm not surprised. Didnât you take on Dusk Patrol with practically no support?â
Naomi had had Christopher Renfield and a witness to some of the murders, Mike Brubaker, on her side but she understood that a single soldier and a young man not quite old enough for militia duty was hardly the old soldierâs idea of support. Eddieâs idea of support was shaped by his pre-Nationfall military training and involved at least two fire teams with artillery and air support a radio call away. âDusk Patrol was bad odds, but they werenât insurmountable, and Dr. Petersen had given me a temporary equalizer.â
âSomething happened afterward, didnât it?â
âQuite a few somethings,â said Naomi. She no longer wanted her wine; the old memories would steal its savor and bring her nightmares tonight. It would not be the first time. After leaving a tip beneath her glass, she shrugged off Eddieâs old bomber jacket and returned it to him. âI suppose youâre a decent enough sort, but Iâve no intention of working for Desdinova no matter how poorly my musical career goes. If it was just a matter of money I could always do sex work instead.â
He caught up with her half a block away from the pub she had left behind. âIt wasnât Desdinova who sent me this time.â
She whirled upon him, reaching for a sword that was not there. âWho is it, then? Ian Malkin? First he claimed to be my father. Then he claimed to be some kind of demon. Then he threatened to murder me. I left my old life as an Adversary behind for a reason.â
âIt hasnât left you,â said Eddie. âYou were ready to draw on me the second I reached out to grab you by the shoulder. If you had been wearing a sword you would have done it.â
âSo what? Iâve heard about all of your amorous misadventures. I daresay I wouldnât be the first woman to draw on you.â
âTrue enough,â said Eddie, âAnd youâd have rather more cause than the others. Then again, the last woman to pull a sword on me did it because she caught me balls deep in her little brother. Canât really blame her for that.â
It was more than Naomi needed to know. âDammit, Cohen.â
âWhat? It was dark, I was drunk, and his arse was just as smooth.â
âGoddammit, thatâs way above my pay grade. I already knew more than I cared to about your sexual life before you opened your mouth, and had no need-to-know for any of it.â Though she immediately regretted it, she could not resist adding. âPlease tell me the brother-buggery was a joke, or at least consensual.â
âActually, I made all that up. But I have the sort of unsavory reputation that makes it easy for you to believe such things of me, donât I?â
Naomi knew better than to answer that, and she suspected she knew why he had taken this tack. âYouâre trying to distract me.â
Cohen shrugged. âYou were looking pretty miserable back there. Like you were dwelling on soul-scars and about to spiral into depression. Iâve seen it happen before.â
âYou need a hand with this bloke?â An unfamiliar voice spoke behind Naomi.
Turning around, she found herself looking down upon a strung-out youth with a carving knife in his fist. âNo, thank you. Not that I believe for a moment that youâre here out of concern for my well-being. This looks more like the prelude to an attempt at robbery.â
âGreat. Saves me the trouble of âsplaining.â The youth made a vaguely threatening gesture with his knife. He did not quite brandish it, but it was close enough for her purposes.
Catching his wrist in mid-flourish, Naomi took the knife from him and tossed it down a storm drain. âSorry, but Iâm not in the mood tonight.â
âStep aside, please,â said Eddie.
Naomi did so, turning halfway. Eddie had a suppressed pistol trained on the youth and his finger on the trigger. âDonât bother. Heâs a waste of ammunition.â
âI only need one bullet. Two if I want to be professional about it.â
Hearing this, Naomi imagined Eddie shooting the would-be robber in the chest, and then putting a second shot through the back of his head. The former military types who made up the Phoenix Societyâs old guard called it a âcontrol shotâ or âconfirming the killâ. âPut it away, Eddie. Iâve already neutralized him.â
The youth did not say anything. He merely put his hands up to show that they were empty. âIâd be happy to just walk away now.â
âYou might as well stick around,â said Naomi, âAnd save the authorities the trouble of hunting you down.â
A silver-haired man wearing a grey trench coat over a charcoal suit stepped forward, spreading his hands. âPlease stand down, Adversary Bradleigh. That young man was working for me.â
âAnd who the hell are you?â
âCall me Desdinova, if you please. I hope youâll pardon my resorting to my brotherâs methods, but I needed to see for myself that you were still an Adversary at heart.â
Before Eddie could stop her, Naomi had closed the distance between her and Desdinova, caught him by the lapels, and driven her knee into his groin. She had hoped to feel his balls compress as he collapsed in her grasp, reduced to a whimpering heap, but she was denied the satisfaction. An unseen force stopped her from following through.
Desdinova favored Naomi with a small, tight smile. âMind letting me go, Adversary? I might not be the magus my brother Imaginos has become, but Iâm not about to let you purĂ©e my testes in a fit of righteous indignation.â
She threw him to the pavement with a shove, taking what satisfaction she could in the ability to knock him on his arse. âI already told Cohen that I wasnât interested in working for you, and these little games you play do bugger-all to persuade me otherwise. So, what do you want?â
âItâs about what you want,â said Desdinova, dusting himself off as he got to his feet. âYou want a mission, and for your sins youâre getting one.â
Everybody Gets Everything They Want
Eddie Cohen and Desdinova had escorted Naomi back to the pub where the former had found her, the Armored Saint, in single file with Desdinova behind her at his own insistence. She supposed they made quite the trio, the grizzled biker, the grey dandy, and her in between, towering over them both in a red turtleneck sweater and a calf-length black skirt over opaque black tights with red-laced black leather combat boots.
None of the other patrons seemed to care as Eddie rented a private room and led them to it, which was why Naomi had taken to drinking at the Armored Saint when she needed a few hours at a pub and she was in the vicinity. People minded their own business here.
The private room was cramped, but once the door was closed the low hum of the other patronsâ conversations were inaudible. Naomi suspected that nobody would hear them, either, unless somebody raised their voice. The only relief from all of the polished wood was the painted white ceiling and the wall-mounted screen. âSo, gentlemen, is this your idea of room service? And what makes you think I wanted a mission in the first place?â
âYou keep going from one band to another, one gig after another,â said Desdinova as a barmaid brought them drinks. He absently thanked her as she placed a White Lady before him. âYouâre looking for a place to belong, something resembling a sense of purpose.â
Naomi shrugged. âWho isnât?â
âYou had both as an Adversary.â
âI thought I did,â said Naomi. âBut out of all the Adversaries I worked with, I only stayed in touch with Jackie, and she quit just like I did. Not that I didnât try.â
âNot quite like you did,â said Eddie. âYouâve got to admit she did a better job of returning to civilian life than you.â
Naomi refrained from using the first retort to spring to mind; though she doubted she was Eddieâs type she suspected he might mistake her words for a serious offer just to mock her. âJackie didnât go to Clarion.â
âYou were rather explicitly told that Clarion wasnât your problem,â said Desdinova.
âAnd yet nobody stopped me,â said Naomi. âYou both know as well as I do that Clarion was an open wound left to fester for decades. Somebody had to do something, but nobody else would.â
The screen on the wall flickered to life, and displayed a still image of a young man in a recruitâs uniform with unruly shoulder-length black hair and slit-pupiled green eyes. The still became video as a voice off-screen spoke. âMr. Cooper, we have concerns about your tendency toward recklessness. For example, you rushed into a fire without training or protective equipment to rescue a family on the top floor that professional firefighters had written off as impossible to save. Can you explain why, in your own words?â
âThis again?â Cooperâs tone was that of a man tired of explaining himself to people who refused to understand. âI did it because I could. I did it because somebody should have and nobody else would.â
Desdinova stopped the video. âDo you recognize any of the voices in this video?â
âThat was Saul Rosenbaum,â said Naomi, not wanting to admit her recognition of the younger man. If she was right, she had been that boyâs first kiss before telling him that he should go live a life, make something of himself, and love somebody closer to his own age. If she was right, it was partially her fault that he was well on his way to becoming an Adversary.
âYour reasons for intervening in Clarion were the same reason Morgan Cooper gave for rushing into a fire experienced professionals were content to contain,â said Eddie as he sipped his whiskey on the rocks. âAnd frankly, you look like you know the kid.â
âWeâve met,â said Naomi, reluctant to admit more until Eddie and Desdinova got to something that at least resembled a point. âWere you planning to tell me what this is all about before the pub closes and I am forced to finish my drinking at home?â
The men shared a glance. âMorgan Cooper recently faced the Milgram Battery,â said Desdinova. âI trust you remember what that entails.â
Naomi shuddered as she recalled her own trial by nightmare. âYou mined his dreams and turned them against him, just like you used mine against me.â
âIndeed,â said Desdinova. âWhat Iâm about to tell you must remain confidentialââ
âMorgan still dreams of you,â said Eddie. âEvery once in a while.â
âThat seems romantic.â
âRomance is as good a euphemism as any,â said Eddie with a sneer. âThough I suspect you know I ainât talking about love.â
âI figured you for one of those misogynistic types for whom âloveâ is just another four letter word.â
âI think of it as a plot device, but youâre close enough to the mark.â
Desdinova slowly shook his head. âCan we please get on with this?â Locking his gaze on Naomi, he added. âMs. Bradleigh, I suspect you know more about why Morgan Cooper holds you in particular regard than youâve thus far seen fit to divulge. I should caution you that the Society gets Witness Protocol telemetry from all einherjar, but I would rather you admittedââ
âAdmitted what,â said Naomi. âThat I was his first kiss? I barely brushed his lips with mine because I didnât want him looking back later on and thinking that I took advantage of him, but I had caught him leaving roses in my dressing room.â
âRoses, huh?â Eddie shook his head. âWell, now we know the kidâs got a type.â
âPlease tell me he didnât latch onto another tall, snow-blonde asura.â
A photograph of a human woman appeared on the screen. She was pale and fashionably dressed, with wavy chestnut hair cut in a bob that barely brushed her shoulders. One of her grey eyes had an orange streak that reminded Naomi of a stray spark from a bonfire on a clear winter day. She carried a violin case in her right hand, but wore no weapon. âThis is Christabel Crowley,â said Desdinova.
âAt least, thatâs what she calls herself,â said Eddie. âPrior to her makeover her name was Annelise Copeland, and she was a theater student working a shit job to make ends meet.â
âIsaac Magnin recruited her and gave her the means to reinvent herself. As Christabel, sheâs become a minor sensation in the classical/rock crossover scene. Sheâs got an album called Shattered Harmonies.â
âThat sounds familiar.â Naomi searched her memories, trying to place it. Had one of the musicians she had worked with recently played it, or mentioned it? âI donât have a copy, though. I suppose I should listen for myself to find out of itâs any good.â
âThat would be a good idea, given what we mean to ask of you.â
âYeah,â said Eddie. âThis is a real choice mission.â
âQuiet,â said Desdinova, before turning back to Naomi. âIsaac Magnin has placed Christabel Crowley in Morgan Cooperâs orbit, most likely as a means of exerting emotional control over him and possibly influencing him toward Magninâs ends.â
âDoesnât he have friends who see this woman for the tragedy waiting for happen that she seems to be?â Naomi certainly hoped that Morgan had sensible friends, and that he was sensible enough to listen to them.
Eddie shook his head. âTheyâre not involved yet. I canât warn him against her without revealing what I know and explaining how I got my intel. Furthermore, he doesnât have that many friends his own age; the two he has would advise him to use her for his own pleasure and then leave her behind once he gets bored with her.â
âThat seems rather sensible to me,â said Naomi, since it was how she had treated her own partners.
âHeâs sensitive, not sensible,â said Eddie. âHe met you at precisely the wrong moment. He had just discovered girls, and discoveredâthanks to youâthat he likes âem tall, pale, and gothalicious. Add that voice of yours to the mix and youâve got a recipe for obsession. You did a credible job of heading that off, giving him a taste and then telling him to fall in love with somebody his own age was smart. The problem is that heâs likely to take your advice.â
âWith somebody you think is wrong with him.â
âOh, sheâd be perfect for him. Two young musicians from working-class backgrounds, both desperate to make something of themselves and make better lives?â Desdinovaâs smile turned cynical and jagged. âItâs a classic setup, pure Hollywood.â
âThatâs the problem,â said Eddie. âChristabel would be perfect for Morgan, but she doesnât have his well-being in mind. Getting close to him, getting into his head and his heart, is just a job for her. Sheâs going to break his heart.â
âMost men survive getting their hearts broken,â said Naomi. âI would know, since Iâve broken a few myself. Whatâs the worst that could happen? Will he play emo Achilles, hiding in his room crying himself to sleep while drinking to excess and cycling through a playlist of vaguely misogynistic power ballads when you need him to do your dirty work?â
As bitchy as the remark was, especially since she recalled Morgan being polite, earnest, and often sweet during the brief interlude in which they both worked at the same Manhattan dive bar, Naomi could not quite bring herself to regret it. She had had an utterly crap day, and all she had wanted was a few quiet drinks before going home, taking a bath, and finally crawling into bed so she could get a few hours of most likely restless sleep before picking herself up and jumping back on the horse the next day.
âThat would be a best-case scenario,â said Eddie, all jocularity gone. âThe thing is, Morgan Cooper is one of the einherjar. We have no idea how heâd take having his heart broken by some actress playing Mata Hari, and Desdinova here is scared shitless that heâd run amok and kill a metric fuckton of innocent people.â
âYouâre the reason anybody knows anything about the einherjar,â said Desdinova. âYour adventures in Clarion had the side effect of burning my brotherâs identity at the time. You exposed Ian Malkin as the civilian consultant behind Project Harker. He couldnât take responsibility for that without also admitting the involvement of the AsgarTech Corporation and exposing the existence of Project Einherjar.â
Naomi sighed, accepting that this was most likely to prove a long, sleepless night. âFine. What the bloody hell is Project Einherjar. Did AsgarTech find a way to resurrect dead soldiers to serve as Adversaries or something?â
âIn this case,â said Desdinova, âEinherjar means âarmy of oneâ or âone who fights aloneâ. Project Harker was ostensibly about using asuras to create artificial vampires, but its true aim was to forcibly awaken latent physical and psychokinetic abilities within asuras. Project Einherjar was about creating artificial asuras and making them stronger, faster, and tougher.â
âThere was a prototype that fortunately doesnât matter right now because the team found out the hard way that they couldnât control a newborn einherjar in a fully-grown body. The production models, the 100 series, were distributed to couples seeking to adopt babies under a strict NDA.â
âHow strict?â
âSleeping with the fishes strict,â said Eddie.
âSo the einjerhar were already teenagers when you exposed their existence,â said Desdinova. âThis allowed us to identify them, track them, and pay particular attention to those who had either already expressed their capabilities or appeared to be well on their way to doing so.â
âMost of the einherjar turned out to be wastes of space,â said Eddie. âMaybe if life kicked âem in the bollocks a few times theyâd wake up and make something of themselves, but donât count on it. Of the minority that turned out to be worth a damn, most are mercs or gangsters. Then again, Morgan and Tetsuo are gangsters, too. They just work for biggest syndicate on the bloody planet.â
A sigh escaped Desdinova, and he sipped his cocktail. âEdmund, have I not asked you to refrain from comparing the Phoenix Society with organized crime? Manufacturing consent without resorting to blatant propaganda is hard enough without you being as free with your cynicism as you are with your libido.â
A wicked notion occurred to Naomi. âDo you two have something personal going? You certainly bicker like an old couple.â
As Desdinova reddened and almost choked on his drink, Eddie took advantage of his incapacity. âI wouldnât fuck him with Zeusâ dick.â
âCan we please get back to business?â
âMust we? Iâd rather just go home. I already told you once I wasnât interested in working for you.â
âYou wouldnât just be working for Desdinova or even for me,â said Eddie. âLetâs just say that the entire executive council has concerns about Isaac Magnin and his methods. We know heâs trying to guide Morgan Cooper. We want to surround Morgan with people he can trust, people who will inspire him to be a better man than he might otherwise be. I think you can be one of those people.â
âSo, you want me to be his friend?â
âThereâs more,â said Desdinova. He placed a familiar-looking sword on the table and slid it across to Naomi. âTake this. You may need it.â
Naomi refused to lift so much as a finger toward the weapon. âI sold that demon-ridden thing twice to be rid of it. First Imaginos gave it to me as some kind of gift when I thought he was just my fencing maestro. After I sold it, it came back to me. I had to sell it to somebody on bloody Mars to be rid of it.â
âI was rather put out by the necessity of having to fly all the way out to Barsoom City to retrieve this,â said Desdinova. âIt was not the sort of thing I could delegate, given the weaponâs nature. Now, please take the damned thing.â
There was something in Desdinovaâs voice that pierced her resistance and compelled her. As soon as her fingertips brushed the hilt, the sword was in her head again. «Hello again. I missed you.»
âWhy do I need this?â
Only Eddie had the nerve to look her in the eye. âWe need you to get close to Morgan and befriend him. If he proves a danger to himself and others, we need you to use that sword to shut him down.â
âShut him down? Like heâs a machine?â
âShut him down with extreme prejudice,â said Desdinova. âIâve retrieved the Starbreaker for you because it is the one weapon against which he has no defense. As long as you can land a blow, it will prove his bane.â
She wanted to refuse, to thrust the demon sword back across the table and tell both men that this was not her problem, that she had done enough, had suffered enough, and that if this was their idea of a choice mission they could shove it up their arses. A single cold certainty stopped her. âIf I refuse, youâll find somebody else to do it. Somebody who doesnât see Morgan as a human being and wonât hesitate to murder him out of hand.â
Desdinova nodded, and evidently had the decency to say nothing.
They were going to use him, Naomi realized. They would use him until he had nothing left to give, until he was too broken to be of any further use, and then they would throw him under a maglev. Just like they tried to do to her for no better reason than that she had tried to live up to her ideals and uphold her oath. âIâll take the mission on one condition. Nobody tries to overrule my judgment. I wonât draw this blade until Iâm convinced thereâs no other way.â
âYouâll be the Inquisitor in the field,â said Desdinova. âIt would be sheer idiocy to try to overrule you.â
Naomi stared at him. âInquisitor?â
Eddie nodded. âWeâll transfer you to the Accountability Division, effective immediately. It will allow you to operate without the interference you might face if you remained part of Human Rights.â
âInquisitors are not bound by due process restrictions,â added Desdinova. âIf you find yourself without any option but summary execution, you need not fear reprisal.â
âFine,â said Naomi. âIt wonât be for your sake that I do this. Iâll do it because he deserves better than what the Phoenix Society will do to him.â
Gonna Get Close To You
Naomiâs opportunity was longer in coming than she would otherwise have preferred. Though Christabel had not yet made her first direct move on Morgan when Eddie Cohen and Desdinova had approached her, that did not mean that Naomi could approach Morgan in her absence. Doing so would have warned Isaac Magnin of movement on the part of his opposition. It was matter of informational warfare. One had to know what the enemy was doing without revealing oneâs knowledge to the enemy.
She perforce contented herself with session work, racking up featuring credits on tracks with any band that wanted a soprano vocalist or a keyboard player for one or two songs. It paid more reliably than trying to latch onto a single band, something she had not managed since her two-year stint with Sleeping Sun.
In the meantime, she had gotten her hands on a copy of Christabelâs Shattered Harmonies album. To her chagrin, the violinist had made a point of thanking her in the liner notes for âbon mots and dollops of insider wisdom dispensed between recordings of B-sides and bonus tracksâ. To her further chagrin, the album was better than she had expected. She had figured that Christabel herself would have nothing to do with the albumâs production, that it had all been done by session musicians and that when called upon to perform live she would only have had to bow in time to the recorded violin parts, an undertaking rather more complicated than mere lip syncing, but not impossible for a sufficiently dedicated actor.
However, Christabelâs dedication to her acting craft had driven her to do a credible job of learning the violin and picking up enough music theory to participate in the composition and arrangement of the pieces she recorded for her debut album. Though she probably let the other composers and arrangers do most of the workâNaomi had racked up a good many songwriting credits herself merely by suggesting a riff or motif that others then built uponâshe had done enough to merit an arranger credit on every piece drawn from the Western canon and composition credits on every original piece.
To her mortification, she had not been paying attention when Christabel finally got her hooks into Morgan. It had been Claire Ashecroft, who had adopted her as an honorary aunt by virtue of her friendship with Claireâs aunt Jacqueline Russo, that had alerted her. She had stood waiting in the back garden as Naomi fenced with shadows to stay in fighting trim, and waited until she had noticed the younger woman and sheathed her blade. âOi, Nims. Did you know that that Crowley birdâs just dropped another album?â
âIâve been on holiday this week and not paying attention,â said Naomi. It was the truth; she had made the point of taking a week off just to be alone and read something that had nothing whatsoever to do with music theory or the music industry. In fact, she had filched one of Jackieâs trashy romance novels. âI suppose Iâd better go get a copy.â
âYou could borrow mine,â said Claire. âThe first one was good study music and I figured this would be more of the same, but itâs actually a little too proggy. Sheâs also got this new sideman who plays both guitar and bass at the same time, and he looks absolutely scrumptious. The liner notes are actually kinda distracting because of the photos.â
Claire had given Naomi a salacious wink as she said this, as if to imply that Naomi understood what sort of distraction she was talking about. âAll right. Letâs have a look.â
Claire had the record playing on the stereo in the living room by the time Naomi had finished washing up. She handed over the sleeve as Naomi joined her. Though Christabel Crowleyâs name was most prominent on the cover of Shattered Harmonies II, the back cover listed her sidemen. Not that Naomi needed to turn over the sleeve to recognize Morgan Cooper. He was standing back to back with Christabel, both facing the camera with teased hair, makeup, and icy stares.
Opening the gatefold, Naomi saw that whoever had done the photography had taken an equal-opportunity approach to objectifying their subjects. Men, women, and those who knew betterâeach was subject to a gaze intended to make them as stimulating to the viewerâs libido as possible.
Claire stopped Naomi at a photo of Morgan gazing upward beneath half-lidded eyes. âThat oneâs my favorite. Tall, dark, brooding, with smoldering green kitty eyes. You know itâs only the white-haired pretty-boys that turn out to be villainous, right? Pale, dark-haired bishounen always turn out to be quiet, noble types. They might not get the princess, but they always thaw the icy witchy types, especially if theyâre the villainâs daughter and thus canât believe theyâre capable of true love.â
âIâve no notion of what youâre on about,â said Naomi. This was a lie; she had at least flipped through enough of Claireâs manga, which the girl bought secondhand and in bulk because the retail prices for individual volumes varied in her estimation between extortion and non-consensual buggery.
âThen you wonât mind explaining why I keep finding volumes of Divine Wings of Tragedy on your nightstand?â
Naomi shook her head. âYou keep leaving them there, presumably when itâs your turn to vacuum.â
âFair enough.â Claire turned her attention back to the photo of Morgan Cooper. âI bet we could get him to vacuum for us. Maybe in a little Parisian maidâs outfit with kitten heels.â
âDoes Aunt Jackie know what sort of kinky network sites you visit when you should be sleeping?â
âShe should; I keep finding new ones in her browsing history.â
âDammit, Claire. I did not need to know that.â
âOh, please. Youâre not nearly as prudish as you pretend to be with me.â
âYouâre fifteen. What are you going to be like when youâre old enough to act on your fantasies?â
Claireâs smile broadened to Cheshire cat proportions. âInsatiable.â She tapped the photo of Morgan that had inspired her fancies. âSo if you want this cutie youâd better get your claws in him before I do.â
âI was his first kiss, so if real life is anything like the manga you read when you should be studying I donât think youâve got a chance.â
âProbably not,â said Claire. âBut why is he with Christabel Crowley? Not that she isnât kinda hot herself, but sheâs nowhere near your level.â
That last remark raised questions about Claireâs fantasy life that Naomi thought best left unanswered. âSimple truth? He was fifteen at most at the time. I didnât want to take advantage of somebody that young, so I only gave him a chaste little kiss, and then told him I was too old for him and that he should go live a life and love somebody closer to his own age.â
âHeâs twenty now, and youâre twenty-seven. That age gap isnât as problematic now as it was five years ago. You ought to show him why First Girl Wins is a legitimate trope.â
Donât tempt me.
Naomi was sure that had been a private thought until Claire eyes lit up. âWell, letâs make it happen.â
âI canât just go up to them and tell Christabel Iâve got prior claim.â
âNo, but you picked the wrong time to go on holiday and ignore the world,â said Claire. âApparently the new albumâs selling enough that Christabel is auditioning for a vocalist. Preferably one who can play the keyboards, too.â
The Melody Maker ad hit Naomiâs implant before Claire had finished, and it backed up her claims. âVocalist and keyboardist wanted for new neo-Romantic heavy metal project, Crowleyâs Thoth. Blind audition. HmmmâŠâ
Claire had disappeared, only to return a few minutes later toting a headset and an old laptop whose lid was covered in decals featuring rather aggressive-looking cartoon puffer-fish. One of them seemed to be brandishing a revolver in each fin. âWell, what the âell are you waiting for? You gonna call the bloody label and request an audition?â
âI donât need a laptop and headset for that.â
âThis is for me to use once youâve put yourself into contention,â said Claire, flashing a rather piratical grin. âOnce youâve done, Iâm going to spoof the record labelâs contact and redirect everybody elseâs audition requests to the null device. Because we didnât pounce on this advert right away, itâs likely that a few have already gotten through and put themselves on the list. This is fine; if Christabel has half a brain and if youâre the only one to show up sheâd probably smell a rat.â
âI think you, Jackie, and I ought to have a little talk about your ethics,â said Naomi. It troubled her that Claire thought she needed to cheat, and that she was willing to help Naomi rig the audition by limiting the talent pool.
âOh, bugger the ethics,â said Claire. âI overheard you and Jackie. Youâve got some kind of important mission from the Phoenix Society, right? You need to get close to Morgan and protect him. Helping you do that is more important than letting a bunch of randos have a shot at joining Crowleyâs Thoth, especially if Christabel Crowley is working for that white-haired pretty-boy running AsgarTech.â
âBesides,â Claire added, lowering her voice. âIâve seen you wearing a St. Judas medal. I might be edging toward black hat territory, but youâre already there.â
Naomi lifted the medal from under her blouse for Claire to see. âI wear this because I might have to kill Morgan.â
âHoly shit.â Claireâs whispered blasphemy sounded almost reverent in its hushed intensity. âHe might still love you, and you might have to kill him because heâs einherjar and might run amok? This ought to be a shĆjo manga. I am so not missing out on this. Hurry your arse up, Nims; the auditionâs tomorrow and theyâre only taking applications until midnight.â
Once Naomi made the call, Claire got to work. She worked long into the night, fielding call after call without breaking character, extemporizing as needed to convince every hopeful caller that she actually worked for Dark Eternal Records and that she was adding them to the list for Christabelâs consideration. She directed each mark to a different location several kilometers away from where the audition was actually happening so that they were less likely to meet, compare notes, and figure out that they had been conned.
Once midnight had passed, Claire closed her connections, concealed her electronic trail, and shut down her computer. Slipping off the headset, she stretched and loosed a jaw-breaking yawn. âI donât think any of them suspected a thing. Damn, Iâm good.â
âYou realize what youâve done, right?â
âYep. Social engineering. If I wasnât using a computer you could call me a confidence woman.â
Naomi shook her head. âYou mean a con artist? Thatâs not exactly an honest trade.â
Claire shrugged. âDepends on who Iâm conning and why, doesnât it? If itâs for a greater good, doesnât that justify what Iâm doing?â
âNo, it doesnât,â said Naomi. âThatâs the whole point of wearing a Saint Judas medal. Necessary evils are still evil. Worse, they might not even be necessary in the first place. But weâve still got to live with them.â
Another shrug from Claire. âThis shitâs getting a bit too recondite for my taste. You needed help, and I was able to help you. Thatâs all that matters to me.â
Naomi tacitly conceded the point after considering Claireâs age. At her developmental stage, she still lacked the ability to do the moral reasoning necessary to fully grasp the problematic nature of the help she had provided, and expecting her to do it anyway was itself unfair. âWill you do me a favor? Next time youâre thinking of doing something like this, please ask me first. I know you donât think itâs wrong, but if you run a con like this on the wrong people and it goes sideways, you could find yourself in dire trouble.â
Once Claire had promised she would and scampered off to bed, Naomi stared at Morganâs photo. The lyrics of a stalkerâs anthem that had entered the public domain decades ago sprang unbidden to her lips. Maybe Iâll see you tomorrow, she thought before putting the record away.
Email between Claire and Naomi concerning network site updates
to: Naomi Bradleigh
date: 2101-03-13 23:58
subject: Network Site Updates
Nims:
Iâve given some thought to how you can discreetly report to your
handlers now that theyâve disabled your implantâs Witness Protocol
daemon. As we discussed, keeping a plain text journal has always been
an option. The hard part is ensuring that your handlers get an updated
copy every so often.
I think Iâve hit upon a solution, but first Iâm going to remind you of
how your network site currently works for context, in case youâve
forgotten because you had more pressing concerns.
Your site runs on a virtual Unix host, which we both access over SSH.
Iâve already hardened the host so that root has no remote login, and
so that neither of us can login without a public key authorized by the
host. Furthermore, anybody who attempts to access port 22 (SSH) from
an unauthorized IP address gets redirected to port 443 (HTTPS).
My suggestion is that we create accounts for your handlers and lock
them so that all they can do is download a copy of your journal via
sftp. Once thatâs done, you can periodically upload your surveillance
journal when updating your site. Just include an encrypted tarball
containing the latest version when updating your public journal, and
put it in home/nbradleigh/web. Iâll update the cron job that builds
your site so that it first copies the tarball to your handlersâ home
directories. Iâll then update your siteâs makefile to exclude the
tarball.
Since your site is actually served from var/www/htdocs the general
public wonât be able to read your private journal unless the site is
compromised. I can do the setup as soon as I have your handlersâ IP
addresses and SSH pubkeys.
â
Claire Ashecroft
âPeople who think sex is a pain in the arse need more lube.â
to: Claire Ashecroft
date: 2101-03-14 08:02
subject: Re: Network Site Updates
Thanks, Claire. You should find attached a tarball containing IP
addresses and SSH public keys for my handlers. Please make the
necessary arrangements to ensure that they can download copies of my
surveillance journal at their convenience.
â
Naomi Bradleigh
I donât know anything about music. In my line you donât have to.
                â Elvis Presley
PS: Are you using a shell script to generate your email signature
again? I hope for your sake that this is the case, and that you are
not sharing hard-won experiential wisdom.
Naomi Bradleighâs Journal, 31 March 2101 (The Dark Sword Likes Cuddles)
There was a reason I tried twice to get rid of the sword Ian Malkin gave me. Iâve never wielded it. I try not to even grasp its scabbard, let alone lay a hand on its hilt.
The sword speaks to me.
This isnât a metaphor. Nor is it a joke. It is literal and deadly serious. The sword that Desdinova retrieved and insisted I carry because it is supposedly the only weapon capable of killing Morgan with a single blow is something out of one of those sword and sorcery novels I used to get as birthday presents from my faerie godfather as a little girl.
It figures that my faerie godfather would turn out to be my fencing maestro, who turned out to be the arsehole who founded the original AsgarTech Corporation, Ian Malkin, and helped with Project Harker. And, naturally, he was the keeper of a sentient runeblade that seems to take perverse delight in creeping me out.
I had hoped to be rid of all of that, but heâs back as Isaac Magnin.
The dark sword is back in my hands, too, and back in my head.
I donât think the connection is mystical or psychic. Instead, I think the damned thing has somehow reverse engineered my implantâs wireless networking protocols and has taken to texting me.
It could only reach me when I was touching it at first. But it seems to have gotten stronger, and can now clamor for attention whenever Iâm close.
It insists I stop calling the damned thing âitâ or âthe swordâ or âthe damned thingâ. It tells me it has a name. Of course, it wonât reveal it; apparently Iâm supposed to figure it out on my own.
As if I had nothing better to do.
The upside is that the damn thing doesnât have to be a sword. It can change its form to suit its wielder. Iâve changed it into a dagger, a spear, a knuckle duster, a staff, and a tonfa. The only limitation is that it wonât take a form that requires ammunition.
Iâve decided to call the sword âAhrimanâ. Itâs always whispering to me, trying to tempt me. Again, Iâm not joking or being metaphorical here. This sword is sentient, and is evidently desperate to communicate.
As one might expect, Ahriman tends to be rather bloodthirsty. I dare not take it out in public; even sheathed it points to this person or that person and attempts to persuade me that I am within my rights to murder them. Reminding it that the death penalty has been abolished for all crimes save for tyranny and corruption on the part of Phoenix Society personnel avails me nothing; it has somehow decided that the social death of being made an unperson before being permanently exiled from Earth is a crueler penalty and that weâd be bringers of mercy rather than murderers. Never mind that with one exceptionâand I fervently and regularly pray to any god willing to listen that it will never prove necessaryâI am not in the euthanasia business.
When not inciting me to murder or doing its best to creep me out (something at which it succeeds more often than Iâd prefer), Ahriman seems almost lonely. It is almost as if it were once a man and still craves company. It tends to become quiet with I let my hand rest on its hilt, as if my touch comforts it. Likewise if I sing in its presence. And though its personality is decidedly that of a mature and commanding man, there are moments when it seems younger and vulnerable, more a lonely boy instead.
For example, Ahriman enjoys being read to before I go to bed, though its tastes are definitely that of a boy. It cares little for introspective, literary novels. No, the sword craves more adventuresome fare. Iâve found myself rereading many of the novels I read as a little girl, tales of wizardry and wild romance.
Thrice a year, on my birthday and on the summer and winter solstices, a package addressed to me would show up. In it I would find public-domain media chosen for me by somebody who knew my temperament and tastes better than my parents. Somebody knew that I craved adventure, that I did not dream of being rescued by a handsome and daring prince.
Instead, I saw myself as a witch and warriorâand if some handsome and daring prince got in over his head and needed me to rescue him, that suited me just fine.
There was one saga I loved best, that of Morgaine. The last of a team of soldier-scientists on a suicide mission to close ancient spacetime gates before they were misused to cause yet another reality dysfunction, she found herself trapped in a gate until a desperate warrior named Vanye freed her, and then sought shelter by her fire. She claimed his service for a year in exchange as was the custom of his people, and they shared many perils together. She saved Vanye many times, but he saved her rather often himself.
Of course, Ahriman likes the Morgaine stories because of her sword Changeling. Itâs a demon-sword as well, though not particularly talkative. Hell, Ahriman is mad for any story involving such accursed weapons whether the sword is called Caine, Stormbringer, Gram, or Dragnipur.
Fortunately, the swordâs taste for adventuresome bedtime stories and heavy metal songs about war and ass-kicking give me a bit of leverage. If it gets too obnoxious, I can always threaten deprivation. It seems rather cruel, though.
Memo to self: Claire once mentioned a manga featuring a mercenary warrior in a medieval setting that she had characterized as a âsize queenâ. He must have been packing a really big sword. Was it called Bleach or Berserk? Ahriman might enjoy it, as long as the fights donât drag on too long.
Naomi Bradleighâs Journal, 14 February 2111 (Love Grows)
Iâve never experienced the freefall infatuation that society and centuries of culture had led me to expect of falling in love. The development of my regard was perceptible only in hindsight. Rather than having my defenses shattered with a single kiss the slow accretion of fleeting moments, trivial courtesies, little kindnesses, and tentative, accidental touches gently eroded the studied indifference with which I approached my subject out of necessity, for how could I justify loving a man when duty might demand his death by my hand? Itâs hard not to feel cheated; it seems Morgan got to fall in love with me twice as a boy and then a man, but did I ever get to fall in love with him? I think not. In me love grew, but what if I only think he fell twice for me because I could not see how his love for me grew in him? I only know what he tells me, and weâve dared tell each other so little.
It figures that I might finally realize all of this while in bed with Christopher Renfield. He slept on his side, content to let me be the big spoon and mold myself to him. It had been something I had enjoyed often in the decade or so since we met in Clarion as amiable enemies. He had been a holdout from Nationfall with the rest of his special forces squad, reluctant guardians of Project Harker, a program of military scientific experiments that had made artificial vampires of them. He was still beautiful; a little shorter than me, but with a slim, muscular physique, oceanic eyes, and honey-gold hair that became an unruly mop once he abandoned his crew cut and fatigues for civilian fashion.
We did not meet often, only a few times a year, but whenever our paths crossed he made a point of inviting me to dinner or out for drinks. It was pleasant to talk with a friend who wasnât part of the Phoenix Society, but still understood what I did when not performing. And if neither of us was involved with somebody else, we ended up in bed together more often than not. It was mostly just friendly, casual bed playânot quite lovemaking, but not devoid of affection either.
We had been good for each other tonight, but while he had eventually drifted off to sleep as I held him, I was not so fortunate.
Though I had been content with our arrangement, I found myself wanting more than a friendship with benefits, and it was not with Christopher that I craved this more intimate arrangement. It was probably best to break the news to him now.
âChris?â He stirred a little as my lips brushed his ear, and it was impossible to resist taking a little nip of his earlobe before whispering the four words no man wanted to hear, especially at zero dark thirty. âWe need to talk.â
He turned over and opened his eyes, slitting them against the light I had turned on. âWhat is it?â
âWe probably shouldnât do this again.â
âIs it the kid?â
âHeâs still letting Christabel abuse him because he thinks keeping the band together will help me, but I donât need Crowleyâs Thoth any more than he does, Iâm tired of waiting for him to figure that out, and what weâve shared canât be all that fulfilling for you, either.â
Renfield finally sat up, allowing the covers to pool about his waist. He certainly was a gorgeous specimen; one could do far worse for a part-time lover.
âItâs about fuckinâ time, Nims.â Catching my chin, he caressed my jawline with a thumb before leaning in to steal a kiss. âWere you afraid Iâd take it poorly?â
âNo. It was just that I was tired of bands breaking up because somebody thought they were in love with me. When I found myself wanting Morgan as more than a friend or a band-mate, I fought it. I thought I was being reasonable.â
âSounds like you got tired of being reasonable.â
More like I had come to my senses and realized that life was too short to waste abstaining from oneâs desires for fear of the consequences. âI think I figured out that itâs perfectly reasonable for me to go after what I want from life, instead of worrying that Morgan might not be ready to take a chance.â
âHeâs a grown-ass man. If he isnât ready for you, he can use his words and say so. But Iâve seen you too together, and I donât think he will. I think heâs been waiting for you.â
âThat was hardly necessary.â
Christopher shrugged. âWerenât you this guyâs first kiss or something?â
It had barely qualified; all I had done was brush my lips against his. Then I had pushed him away told him to go live a life of his own and meet somebody his own age. I explained as much and added, âIâm worried he made more of it than it really was.â
âIt sounds like he took your advice,â said Christopher. âHeâs lived his own life, and he met somebody his own age. Unfortunately, sheâs no good for him.â
âHeâs seven years my junior.â I knew it was a lousy excuse, but it was the last one I had. I didnât want to take advantage of somebody that much younger than me.
âThat might have mattered at the time, but he was still mostly a boy then. Now heâs almost thirty, right?â
âYouâre saying the gap doesnât matter now?â
âIâm old enough to be your grandfather,â said Christopher, laying back without bothering to pull up the covers. He seemed happy to be on display. âYou didnât let that stop you ten years ago. You were, what, eighteen?â
âTwenty-one, if you insist on knowing.â I donât think it was unreasonable of me to throw a pillow at him before I ducked into the shower. However, it was not until I was dressed that it occurred to me that since it was Loversâ Night Morgan might be with Christabel. Showing up at his door was out of the question when he might be in bed with her, all closed eyes and thoughts of England. Calling was no better, but a text? If he was indeed busy heâd probably have gone dark and would not see my message until later. Likewise if he were asleep. If he did not see it until the morning I could pass it off as a drunk text. «Are you still up?»
«Iâm at the hotel bar. Are you all right?»
«Iâm fine.»
«Did things not go well with Renfield?»
Oh, damn. How could I have forgotten that he knew I was with Renfield tonight? Looking over at him, I found that he too had gotten dressed. âTell the kid something came up, I had to leave early, and youâve been by yourself. Youâre freshly showered because you just got back from the gym.â
«Things went fine with Renfield. Heâs getting dressed and encouraging me to lie to you. Can we talk in person?»
«Sure, if you donât mind coming down to rescue me. Thereâs this woman trying to seduce me, but I donât think she wants me for herself. She keeps looking at some guy, and they wear matching wedding bands.»
Oh, dear. That was just what Morgan needed tonight: a couple looking to spice up their marriage by involving a third party. Having been in his position myself it was easy to sympathize. «Iâll be there as soon as I can get a lift to my floor.»
Grabbing my coat and sword, I spared Renfield a glance. âSorry. Morganâs fending off a wife with a bi husband whoâs trying to set up a threesome.â
He followed me out into the hall, slipping into his own coat. âNeed a hand?â
Generous of him to offer, considering that I meant to claim another bloke as my own. âI have a plan.â
âIâll take the next lift, then. That should let me get there in time to enjoy the fireworks.â
Or lend a hand if things went pear-shaped, I suppose. Hopefully I would turn out to be right about not needing his help. âThanks.â
When I reached the hotel bar I found Morgan at the far end, with a redhead whose gown was only barely adequate to the engineering challenged presented by her surgically enhanced figure. Most of the people seated at tables were interested in each other, or in the willowy brunette singing torch songs slightly out of time with the pianist accompanying her. I felt sorry for the poor bastard and left a tip in his glass before finding the one patron looking to the bar. The reason for his interest was obvious; he was a tattooed millionaire in a bad suit hoping wifey would being back a toyboy for them to share. Either that, or wifey was the one who ran the marriage and wanted hubby to give her a show.
Not that I begrudged them either way, but they could have their fun with somebody else. Looking down at hubby, I pulled out the chair opposite him. âExcuse me. Do you mind if I join you?â
âSorry, but we werenât looking for a woman tonight.â
âFair enough; I wasnât interested in joining a couple. I had hoped you might call off your wife. My boyfriend asked me to rescue him, and heâs more reluctant than I am to make a scene.â
As I finished this little speech I laid my sword on the table. I wanted hubby to understand just what sort of scene I was willing to make.
He stared at the sword, then stared at me. âIâd love to help, but Janice doesnât listen to me once she gets an idea into her head. I had told her to leave that guy alone, that he didnât look like he was looking for company, but she has her heart set on having him join us.â
Well, hubby certainly wasnât the driving force in that relationship. I would have to deal with Janice myself. Morganâs big green kitty eyes got even bigger as I approached and tapped her shoulder. I stepped back as she turned to get a look at me with a hand resting on the hilt of my sword. âExcuse me.â
âWho the hell are you?â
âThatâs my man youâre pestering, and I must insist upon you leaving him alone.â
«Just kill this asshole.» I knew that voice, and glanced down at my sword. The damned thing had disguised itself as the Nakajima blade I ordinarily wore in public, the little shit. «Cut her down, and then lick her blood off his lips before you kiss him.»
«No, Ahriman. Bad.» First Renfield, and now the dark sword? Why do all the men (or masculine personalities) around me insist on giving me advice on how to seduce Morgan? «I donât think heâs into that.»
«Youâre into it. I can tell by your heartbeat.»
Christ, he was worse than Claire. «Look, I know you mean well, but Iâve got this.»
Before the sword could reply, Janice did. âI donât see him wearing your ring.â
âHe wears my collar.â Ignoring Morganâs embarrassmentâand how did he blush so prettily when heâs the sort of man who thinks nothing of bring a sword to a gunfightâI pressed on. âDiscreetly, of course. He is a gentleman, after all.â
She backed out from between us and gave him a contemptuous once-over. âHeâs probably too gentle for what I had in mind anyway. Youâre welcome to keep him.â
With that, she walked away and Morgan let go of the breath I had not realized he was holding. Before I could check on him, the bartender finally showed up. âSorry to keep you waiting,â she said. âWe know that woman and refuse to serve her, but we canât just toss her out because her husband is a part-owner. But if she had gone too far I would have called security.â
I leaned over the bar, invading her space. âHe asked me to come down here and rescue him. I think that woman had already gone too far, but you didnât realize it because my friend was reluctant to make a scene.â
âIâm sorry. Iâll tell the rest of the staff and weâll try to do better so something like this doesnât happen again.â
âFair enough,â It would have to be; sheâs a bartender, not an Adversary, and stepping in when a patron took their flirtation entirely too far was just a bit above her pay grade. âA glass of the house red for me, please, and a ${FRUITYCOCKTAIL} for him.â
Though the bartender raised an eyebrow at my choice, she made no remark. Sensible of her.
âThanks,â said Morgan as I settled onto the stool beside him.
âYou didnât mind me ordering something sweet for you, right?â
âNo. Itâs not like I get the buzz so I might as well drink for taste.â He gave a grim smile, âAnd if some macho fool wants to pick a fight because he thinks my drink is girly, we can step outside and dance.â
âWhere was that spirit when Janice wouldnât take no for an answer?â
Morgan looked down at the bar. âWhat she did wasnât enough to justify violence.â
âIf a man treated me like that, heâd have my steel at his throat.â
âThatâs your choice to make. But it would look different if I drew my sword on her.â
Damn it, he was right. If somebody mistreated me, I could kick their arse and nobody would convict me in court or damn me in the press. Morgan still had to sit there and take it like a man. âIâm sorry you had to go through that.â
âThanks,â said Morgan. âCould you keep an eye on my drink? Iâd like to duck into the menâs room for a moment.â
âOf course.â
To my dismay, Janiceâs husband went in soon afterward. Fortunately, he came out less than a minute later hunched over and clutching his belly. When Morgan returned, all I asked was, âFeel better?â
âConsiderably. Bastard tried to start a beef because I apparently thought his wife wasnât good enough. He couldnât accept that I had a girlfriend.â
âIâd hardly call Christabel that.â
Morgan shrugged. âSheâs what Iâve got, and Iâve got nobody to blame for that but myself. I could have let her go. I could have left the band go, but when where would you be?â
Oh, God, I have had enough of this bullshit. âIâd be with you, in our own band. You think I actually give a shit about Crowleyâs Thoth?â
âI thought you were happy.â
âI was making do, just like you.â How I wished I could tell him why I was really there. The reasons that brought me here werenât the ones that kept me here, but would he understand? âWhere is Christabel?â
Another shrug. âWith Isaac Magnin. When I got back to our room after the meet & greet I found a note saying sheâd be meet us in time for the next show and that I was welcome to amuse myself in any way I pleased.â
Oh, that opened so many possibilities. âWould it please you to amuse yourself with me?â
Our drinks arrived before he could say anything. Rather than taste my wine, I took a sip from Morganâs drink and marked the rim of the glass with my lipstick before passing it to him. Claire would have called it an âindirect kissâ, and surely Morgan had spent enough time around my honorary niece to know it. âThink about it for now. Weâll talk more after weâve had our drinks.â
Naomi Bradleighâs Journal, 15 February 2111 (His Damnable Integrity)
I had hoped from the way his eyes smoldered as he sipped the drink I had tasted that he might pounce on me once we were alone in the elevator. To my disappointment, he behaved himself, though this might have been for the best since the lift kept stopping to take on more passengers. By the time we had reached his floor, we had to gently shoulder our way out from the back of the lift. It was fortunate Christabel was not with us; we were in Paris and she refused to speak a word of any language but English even when our tours brought us to cities where only hotel staff spoke it as a courtesy to guests whose command of that language exceeded that of the local tongue.
I hope my father found Christabelâs obstinacy in linguistic matters charming, for it annoyed me to have to speak for her and I rather suspected it irked Morgan as wellâthough in fairness we often spoke for one another if one of us was better with a particular language than the other.
Still, if Morgan had not pressed me against the wall and kissed me breathless in the lift, I had retained some hope he might do it in the hallway, or even press me against the door to his hotel room before opening it and carrying me over the threshold so that he might throw me onto the bed.
Perhaps I had not been sufficiently direct, but I found myself reluctant to force the issue; he had surely had enough of that for one night at the hotel bar. Nonetheless, it seemed somebody had to say something, and I was unlikely to get what I wanted if I kept quiet. âNow that weâre alone, letâs speak plainly.â
âShould I get you a drink, first?â
Clever man, trying to delay me. But I had wasted enough time. âIâve had my drink for the night. There was a reason I texted you earlier. Shall I tell you what it was?â
Morgan indicated one of the armchairs, and took the other. âIâm listening.â
âI was in bed with Renfield. We haveâor hadâan informal arrangement. If we were in the same city weâd meet for dinner or a drink. And if neither of us was otherwise engaged, weâd sleep together.â
âThat seems reasonable,â said Morgan. âBut where do I enter into this?â
âYou never stopped being in love with me, did you?â
He had gone crimson all over. This was no mere blush, and it occurred to me that for somebody who so obviously prided themselves on their restraint, to stand accused of still being infatuated with their first youthful crush might be just a little humiliating.
âWas I that obvious?â His question came out in a barely audible whisper. One suspects he did not realize he had even spoken.
âNot at first. After a while I began to notice little things. In fairness, it seems to me that you had gotten over me, and when we got to know each other as part of Crowleyâs Thoth you started to fall for me again.â
His color had settled a bit; surely that was a good sign. âYouâre right. I had, but I tried to be discreet about it. After all, Iâm with Christabel, and youâve how many bands break up around you because one of the other members decided they just had to have you, or because their partners got jealous of you?â
âEntirely too many, and I did appreciate your restraint as well as your respect for your relationship with Christabel.â
âItâs too bad Christabel herself doesnât respect it,â said Morgan, letting the bitterness show. âBesides, arenât you still with Renfield?â
One supposes he had not noticed my use of the past tense when explaining my old arrangement. âThatâs over. I ended it tonight.â
âWhy would you do that? Was it not a situation that suited you?â
âIt did until it didnât,â Perhaps it might seem strange that he had a better understanding of his feelings than I had of mine since emotion remains the province of women in the minds of too many who should bloody well know better. However, it did not surprise me. As an einherjar determined to pass for human, Morgan seemed to monitor and analyze his emotional state as if his survival depended on it. It might even have done so if too many people remembered that he was not human and took exception.
But what excuse did I have? Inexperience, I suppose, which at my age seems flimsy even to me. âWould you be shocked if I told you that I had never been in love, and that I did not understand how I felt until tonight?â
His eyes were so grave as he studied me. âAre you saying that you were in bed with Renfield after having sex with the man and realized he wasnât the one you wanted?â
âExactly. Yes, Iâve told him. He actually encouraged me to lie to you and tell you I was freshly showered because I had just finished at the gym.â
âWeâre both adults here, Nims. Of course you were going to have relationships. Itâs just that we both have lousy timing.â
Thatâs certainly the Devilâs own truth. âLook. Maybe I shouldnât have flirted with you in the bar, and maybe I shouldnât even be here, but I wanted to tell you that I donât want you to stay in a shitty relationship for my sake. I donât need Crowleyâs Thoth any more than you do. You know weâre good together on stage. Weâve got chemistry that Christabel canât touch, and she knows it too. Thatâs one reason she keeps hurting you. If you quit the band, Iâll follow, because when I claimed you as my own to get that slag Janice away from you I meant it.â
It was the barest brush of his lips against mine, a kiss so chaste it barely qualified as one. It tasted like revenge for the way I had first kissed him so long ago. âI want to be yours, but I canât let myself be the one to end it. Thatâs not the kind of man I want to be.â
Damn it. I was afraid heâd say that. It hurt worse than an outright rejection. âI donât want to sleep alone tonight.â
âNeither do I.â Morgan looked at the two queen-sized beds. âWhich would you prefer?â
Naomi Bradleighâs Journal, 1 February 2112 (After the Fight in Boston)
We took down Alexander Liebenthal today. We won, didnât we? It hardly feels like victory. Sarahâs lost a leg below the knee, and isnât taking it well. Iâve got a broken rib, and it would have been worse if that experimental armor Nakajima made for Morgan and me had failed. The armor didnât help Morgan at all, but I suppose thatâs asking a bit much considering that he used his body to break Liebenthalâs fall from the top floor of City Hall.
He broke roughly half the bones in his body. Half of them healed crooked for lack of medical attention.
I should be writing this from Morganâs hospital room. Instead, Iâm sitting in the hospitalâs cafeteria, drinking tea and waiting. I know heâs going to be all right. Desdinova himself did the surgery, working almost twelve hours to re-break and set the bones that healed crooked after Morgan had broken them the first time around.
But I canât bear to look at Morgan right now. Every time he puts himself in harmâs way to spare me or one of our friends or a civilian I find myself seething. I want to grab Morgan and shake him until he understands that his life matters as much as anybody elseâs, but I know it wonât help. This is how he was made.
I want to go after the bastard who made him. I would love to grab Isaac Magnin and shake him too, and then drop him off the parapet of the AsgarTech Building once I get tired. But is it his fault, either? He designed Morgan, edited his genome, supervised his gestation, selected his parents, and did everything he could to make Morganâs life a prison of his own design, but the sense of justice Iâve seen in Morgan was beyond Isaacâs power to bestow.
Isaac made hundreds of einherjar. Most, to my knowledge, never came to understand or use their talents. Others realized their abilities set them apart from others and sought to rule. Precious few chose to put their gifts into service to anything resembling a greater good or a higher ideal.
Morgan had always tried to be discreet in the use of his abilities, but when Isaac Magnin himself showed up with a militia brigade armed with the electrolaser weapons Liebenthal had been selling I thought our end had come. There was no shelter, no cover, no way out of the line of fire. I thought Morgan had gone mad, to put himself between me and the guns aimed at us. I had seen him shot with one of those weapons; he had placed himself between a Fireclown and Sarah and taken the shot for her. It would have killed her outright and should have bloody well killed him; as it is he was badly injured and took a couple of days to recover.
There was no way he could have survived a volley of fire from hundreds of such weapons, yet once again he stood against odds he might not survive because he knew nobody else could defy them.
I should have watched. I should have borne witness. But I could not bear to. I closed my eyes so that I wouldnât see him torn apart in front of me, and the world went white as Isaac gave the order to fire. The storm came, and when the guns ran out of power Morgan was still there. Though barely able to stand, he stood swaying on his feet. The air shimmered around us the way I had seen it shimmer around Morgan when he shielded himself against his enemies instead of simply taking a bullet, and thatâs when I realized that he had figured out how to extend the barrier he could project. He was protecting Liebenthal because duty demanded it.
But the barrier was fading, and the guns charging up. I was sure Morgan would not be able to withstand another assault, but I was bereft of ideas. I wanted to grab Morgan and drag him away to cover, Liebenthal be damned, but I didnât.
Instead all I could do was go to him, and put my arms around him. He had his sword held before him, as if it were a focus for his defiance, and I rested my hands on his. They were so cold beneath my fingers, the knuckles white. His breath came in shallow pants, and I thought I could hear a lyric repeated as a mantra, but he seemed to settle as I buried my face in his hair.
I donât remember what I whispered in his ear. Did I tell him that I loved him? Did I say that I would be there for him even if our bitter end had found us together? I donât know. All I remember was that the curtain of light before us had ceased to waver. Rather than threatening to flicker out of existence it seemed to solidify.
The storm surged again, and I rode it with him. He took everything they had to give, and I could feel the power beneath his skin threatening to consume him. His sword had shattered; he was left holding nothing but the hilt, but from the remaining jagged stump a new blade of deep purple flame extended.
âLet go of me now,â he said, his voice gentle even though it came through gritted teeth. âTake Liebenthal. I will deal with these.â
I did not take Liebenthal. I stayed and watched as Morgan disappeared before me. Lightning arced as militiamen dropped their weapons, and though I could not see what Morgan did the result was obvious; armored in ire and wielding the sword of his hatred he was destroying their weapons as an alternative to killing them. It wasnât until they had all fled that Morgan dropped back into sight. He had turned his fury on Isaac Magnin himself.
Isaac, unarmed, should have been defenseless. Yet he stood firm and when the unforgiving blade came down he caught it between the palms of his hands. It winked out of existence, and before Morgan could react he was suspended, helpless as he struggled against the white hand that grasped him by the throat. Morgan clawed at Isaac, chopped at his wrist, and even tried to gouge out those hateful blue eyes, but it was futile. There was nothing Morgan could do to stop Isaac Magnin the fiend who pretended to be an effete tech magnate, from hurling suspending him in midair like a recalcitrant kitten who insisted on clawing at the couch instead of using the scratching post.
Then Isaac turned to me. He said, âWill you defy me for his sake?â Before I could reply, he hurled Morgan at me with a thrust of his outstretched arm. I should have gone after Isaac then, but Morgan was sprawled insensate at my feet, barely breathing.
Desdinova tells me heâs patched up and recovering. I should be there with him. But Iâm afraid to. Iâm afraid that if I see him in that bed, sedated under a dosage sufficient to kill a dozen ordinary men, I wonât be able to believe heâs still alive.
He should be dead. I want to refuse this reality, but neither can I accept his survival. Iâm afraid for him, yet simultaneously afraid of him too. My father is a demon, the man Iâve come to love is a titan, and am I to side with the latter against the former? Who am I to do such a thing.
Itâs been twelve hours since I stopped writhing this entry. I should start a new one, but I canât be bothered because Iâm still I am afraid.
And I have come to hate the man who has frightened me thus.
If Isaac Magnin is the devil, then am I not the devilâs daughter? Does that not count for something? We will see, because Iâve finally forced myself to look at Morgan, and see the consequences of my cowardice.
Here in the intimacy of this eyes-only journal I can admit the truth. I could have saved Morgan. I could have armored him with the truth, or at least as much of it as I understood. I could have warned him against letting himself get caught up in Isaac Magninâs machinations years ago. I could have showed him the Starbreaker. Armed with that hellsword we might have defied my father together.
When the moment permits I will tell him everything, and then we will decide what to do. Our lives have been a prison of my fatherâs design for too long. If we cannot break entirely free, letâs at least have a riot in the dungeons.
Interlude: I Just Want You
Having listened to Naomiâs story, Morgan finds himself struck by the courage and resolve with which she carried her burdens all these years, keeping them locked away. He admits to being worried that she might someday tire of him, but says that he canât have forever with her then heâll find a way to be content with the time they get together. Meanwhile, Annelise finds that she canât understand why Morgan would forgive her, and returns to his brownstone the next day to ask him to tell his story.
The title comes from âI Just Want Youâ by Ozzy Osbourne, from Ozzmosis.
An Email Chain Supporting Naomiâs Story
From: Iris Deschat To: Edmund Cohen CC: Saul Rosenbaum Date: 12099-01-04 10:37-0500 Subject: AC>CR transfer for Morgan Cooper
Eddie:
I know this isnât your idea. We all know that the Civil Rights division suffers no lack of volunteers; thanks to the free propaganda we get from Hollywood everybody and their cat wants to be an Adversary. Finding suitable recruits for Arms Control is much more difficult, and equally important. Iâd like to think that the rest of the executive council has no need for me to belabor the importance of ensuring global demilitarization but their insistence on assigning Morgan Cooper to the Civil Rights division despite his repeatedly stated preference for Arms Control raises doubts.
You understand how rare it is for a recruit to choose Arms Control; the injury and fatality rates for Peacemakers consistently exceed those of Adversaries, and Peacemakers do not receive the hero-worship Adversaries get.
As senior director for the Arms Control division, I must insist on an explanation.
â Iris Deschat Senior Director Phoenix Society Arms Control Division
From: Saul Rosenbaum From: Edmund Cohen To: Zachary Aster Date: 12099-01-04 10:45-0500 Subject: AC>CR transfer for Morgan Cooper
Boss, Iâm attaching this email I got from Iris. Sticking Cooper in the Adversaries was your brotherâs idea and since you donât want me to be honest with her Iâll let you figure out what I should tell the lady.
Frankly, I donât get it myself. If your brother wants to test Morganâs capabilities as an einherjar, wonât there be plenty of opportunity in Arms Control? Black market ordnance dealers donât take kindly to Peacemakers cramping their style, and theyâre hardly reluctant to express their displeasure.
So, what gives? Sure, the kid would make a good Adversary, too, but the Civil Rights division gets so many starry-eyed idealists that we manage to get a few good Adversaries out of each batch of recruits, but people willing to follow the money and beard arms dealers in their own dens are a bit rarer. We should be taking advantage of the kidâs willingness to take on the shit detail.
â Edmund Cohen Phoenix Society Internal Affairs Division
From: Saul Rosenbaum To: Edmund Cohen CC: Iris Deschat Date: 12099-01-04 10:46-0500 Subject: AC>CR transfer for Morgan Cooper
Look, Cohen, I might have been the one to scout out Cooper and persuade him to join up, but Iâve got plenty of Adversaries an plenty of recruits happy to swell the ranks further. I donât know what kind of game Isaac Magnin is playing, but Cooper wants to be a Peacemaker and Iris wants him for Arms Control. Thatâs where he ought to be. Itâs not like they canât use a guy who thinks nothing of walking empty-handed into a gunfight because he knows heâll walk out without a scratch.
Iâm dead serious when I say that the Adversaries donât need this kid as badly as the Peacemakers do. Pass that up the chain, OK?
â Saul Rosenbaum Senior Director Phoenix Society Civil Rights Division
From: Malkuth To: Edmund Cohen CC: Iris Deschat CC: Saul Rosenbaum Date: 12099-01-04 13:37-0500 Subject: AC>CR transfer for Morgan Cooper
The executive council has determined that the Phoenix Societyâs aims are best served with Morgan Cooper serving as an Adversary rather than a Peacemaker. However, the Arms Control division may âborrowâ Cooper for cases where his capabilities may prove particularly useful.
Magnin has a specific role in mind for Cooper. His musical aspirations are of particular interest to him, and it is the majority opinion of the executive council that a touring rock musician moonlighting as an Adversary may prove especially useful to our cause. Our talent distribution is uneven due to our current assignment policy. Though Cooper might be based in New York, we can assign him missions in any city he visits while touring as long as thereâs sufficient slack in his touring schedule. We anticipate the following benefits:
- The threat of an einherjar showing up in arbitrary locations around the world may deter some abuses of power.
- The globe-trotting lifestyle of a high-profile rock musician makes Cooper useful in the event of an angel sighting, as he can be deployed where needed by suborbital without having to put much effort into justifying his presence outside NYC.
- The stimulation of travel may stave off burnout, allowing us to get more use out of Cooper than we normally get from Adversaries.
The XCâs further opinion is that Cooper should not be burdened with routine investigative duties, but made available to assist in cases where a suspect is likely to resist arrest or has already done so. This should also prevent unnecessary casualties.
Bear in mind the Phoenix Societyâs primary mission, but do not reveal to Cooper under any circumstance that he is being tested to determine whether he is capable of taking on the extraterrestrial entity code-named SABAOTH. Knowing that he has been tapped for Operation Deggial will alter his performance and distort our test results.
Please come directly to me with any questions or concerns.
â Malkuth Phoenix Society Central Admin
From: Edmund Cohen To: Iris Deschat, Saul Rosenbaum Date: 12099-01-04 17:30-0500 Subject: The Taming of Enkidu
I know youâre both worried about the prospect of Morgan being involved in Operation Deggial without informed consent. I donât think thereâs anything we can do to directly oppose the XC in this, but I have an idea.
Have either of you read the Epic of Gilgamesh? In the epic, Gilgamesh tamed the wild man Enkidu by sending a priestess to seduce him and teach him civilized ways.
Maybe we can do something similar. Can either of you recommend somebody Cooperâs age to whom we can give the long-term mission of befriending him and helping him be more man than weapon?
â Edmund Cohen Phoenix Society Internal Affairs
From: Iris Deschat To: Edmund Cohen CC: Saul Rosenbaum Date: 12099-01-04 18:12-0500 Subject: Operation Enkidu
If you just want somebody to befriend Cooper, you might want to consider those already close to him. He seems to get on well with Sydney Reeves, and I suspect that if the XC hadnât insist on having Cooper for the Adversaries he and Reeves would have made an effective partnership.
â Iris Deschat Senior Director Phoenix Society Arms Control Division
From: Saul Rosenbaum To: Edmund Cohen CC: Iris Deschat Date: 12099-01-04 18:12-0500 Subject: Operation Enkidu
Itâs too bad Naomi Bradleigh retired after that clusterfuck in Clarion. The influence she had on Mike Brubaker made him an asset.
I doubt Bradleigh would put on an Adversaryâs pins again, though. Cohen, do you think you can persuade her to come back as an Inquisitor working directly under you? That way she can tell that martinet Del Rio to ESBAM if she decided to live up to her name and go full Karen.
Iâll keep an eye on Cooper myself, and try to be his rabbi.
â Saul Rosenbaum Senior Director Phoenix Society Civil Rights Division
From: Edmund Cohen To: Iris Deschat, Saul Rosenbaum Date: 12099-01-04 19:29-0500 Subject: Operation Enkidu
Iris, please sound out Reeves if you think sheâll be suitable. Iâll be in London this weekend, so I should be able to talk to Bradleigh in person. Oddly enough, she had met Cooper when he was younger. Seems they worked the same dive and it was kitten love as soon as the kid first heard Nims singing torch songs for tips.
Incidentally, I have orders from the members of the XC who werenât in on the majority consensus. Iâll be taking a personal interest in Morgan Cooper. Saulâs notion of mentoring the kid is a good idea, but his mentor shouldnât be the one giving him his orders.
â Edmund Cohen Phoenix Society Internal Affairs
Part IV: Small Dark Lines
This is Morgan Cooperâs tale of how he first met Isaac Magnin, and his subsequent dealings with him.
The title comes from âSmall Dark Linesâ by Threshold, from Legends of the Shires.
In the Army Now
âWhy recruit me?â said Morgan. âItâs not like other recruits got the hard sell. They came here on their own, but Iâve got a director bringing me to see somebody from the executive council? That doesnât make sense.â
Cohen shrugged. âYou brought this on yourself, kid.â
A video began to play on the wallscreen, a scene from a memory. An apartment ablaze, two women huddled together with their children, and a shape that did not belong looming over them. Cohen paused the video. âThis ring any bells?â
âYeah, but whatâs that got to do with anything?â
âYou asked âwhy meâ. The answer is because you were there. It had to happen to somebody, and you didnât have the sense to get out of the way. It would have been easy. All you had to do was avert your eyes and tell yourself it wasnât your problem. Nobody would have blamed you; there were actual firefighters and paramedics on the scene. But you couldnât bear to be a bystander. You had to step up. You rushed into that burning building, killed a demon, and saved four lives. Congratulations, asshole, youâre a hero.â
âI was just trying to do the right thing. Somebody had to try to rescue those people, and nobody else would.â
âThe actual professionals, the people who knew what they were doing, crunched the numbers and decided the odds of getting any of them out alive without losing firefighters and paramedics werenât favorable enough to justify the attempt,â said Cohen. âAnd they were right. They were only human.â
âSo am I.â
âDonât bullshit me, kid. I know what you really are. Youâre a 100-series einherjar. The very last out of six hundred and sixty-six. You could have figured the odds as easily as those firefighters. You knew it was a bad idea to cross that threshold, but you said âfuck itâ and did it anyway.â
âSomebody had to.â
âThatâs what you said then, too. Somebody had should have, but nobody else would. Well, somebody ought to stand up to tyranny and most people wonât. Most people canât. They donât have the heart. Adversaries do, and so do you.â
âBut Arms Control needs men, too. I could be an asset there as a Peacemaker without having to hurt anybody.â
âYouâre right,â said Cohen. âYou could, but thatâs not you. You were made, not born. You were designed to stand against odds that would break armies. Youâre einherjar, an army of one. But thereâs something in your psyche that isnât part of the design, an X factor that the people working on Project Einherjar hoped would arise as you kids grew up. Do you know what it is?â
âCourage?â
Cohen shook his head. âCourageous people are afraid, but face their fear and act despite it. Adversaries need something more, because theyâre knights in Satanâs service doing a thankless job that nonetheless needs doing, and youâve got it. You are defiant. You look at tyranny, corruption, and senseless death and you arenât content to politely say ânoâ. You say, âHell no!â.â Warming to his theme, Cohen shook his fist in their air. âYouâre the kind of guy who, if you were struck by lightning, would flip off the heavens and yell, âIs that the best youâve got? Try again, motherfucker!ââ
âYou think so?â said Morgan. âThat sounds more like foolhardiness to me.â
âYeah? Letâs talk about that.â The screen changed to show a group of men in suits playing poker. âRemember these assholes?â
âYeah. They were hitting people in my neighborhood up, saying they needed to pay extra for insurance. Police wouldnât do anything, because the racketeers were giving them a cut.â Morgan indicated one of the men. âThat scumbag ran the local police precinct.â
âYou could have reported this to the Phoenix Society.â
âYou would have spent months investigating, building a case. There are people in my neighborhood who couldnât afford to pay these assholes while you did that.â
âThey would have gotten restitution.â
âOh, sure,â said Morgan. âI canât pay rent this month because I had to pay off gangsters, but Iâll pay you when the Phoenix Society pays restitution. You really think thatâs gonna fly? Something had to be done then and there, not once you people were ready to give these pusbags due process.â
âRight, so you walk in and give these assholes a fucking civics lesson.â Lifting the remote, Cohen started the video.
âHey, kid,â said the man with the fanciest suit. âYou here by mistake or something?â
âI think the mistake is on your part,â said Morgan on video. âNobody elected you. No constitution enumerates your powers or provides any decent restraint. You have no authority to collect taxes or to force my neighbors to pay for âinsuranceâ, and if you do not immediately cease and desist I will remand you to the Phoenix Societyâs custody.â
âYou and what army?â
âThere are only ten of you. Every exit is sealed. The only way out is through me, and you canât all come at me at once. You dare not use your guns lest a ricochet injure or kill you or one of your associates.â
âThereâs a hole in your reasoning. Ever hear of frangible ammunition?â The leader reached into his jacket, pulled a semiautomatic, and fired. Morganâs visual field shimmered for a moment as he shielded himself, and birdshot clattered against the floor. âSo, youâre one of those einherjar. Nice shield, kid. Do you really think itâs gonna hold against all of us?â
On cue, the other men pulled their weapons and opened fire. Morgan rode out the firestorm, not letting his shield fade until every slide locked on an empty chamber. Then, as the men made to reload, he sprang into action. Holding his place in time, he leaped onto the table, disarming one man at a time and disassembling their pistols in rapid succession before returning to his original position in the doorway. Once Morgan let go of his place in time, the men stared at their empty hands before staring at him. âWho the hell are you?â
Cohen froze the video again. âYou see this shit? This is why we want you. You can face down assholes like these unarmed and come away unscathed. Also, you did everything short of dressing up as a goddamn bat. We canât tolerate vigilantes, especially if theyâre bloody einherjar, but if we canât stop you then we might as well put you on the fucking payroll.â
âAnd if I refuse?â Not that Morgan had any intention of refusing. Getting paid to go after people who abused their power and made life suck for everybody else sounded like the best deal he was likely to get. In between cases he could practice his guitar and study music theory.
âIf you refuse, weâll run you through a fuckinâ meat grinder and use you for chum. We canât have you operating without decent restraint. Your methods are unsound because youâre untrained, you know bugger-all about the law, and you the only evidence you had was jack and shitâand Jack just fucked off to Ibiza for some R&R.â
âDo you enjoy sounding like a stock character in a war movie?â
âDo you enjoy having a boot up your arse?â Cohen leaned forward, staring Morgan down. ââCause einherjar or not Iâm gonna plant mine so far up yours youâll be able to lick it clean. You might think youâre a badass, but all youâve got going for you right now is brute force and ignorance. Youâre like that cat who walks through walls because nobody got around to telling the little furball heâs not supposed to be able to do that.â
Covering his mouth, Morgan stifled a yawn. Though it had not been intentional, he understood the message it would send. It made plain the fact that the old soldierâs posturing did little to impress him. There was nothing for it but to lean in. âAre you done trying to convince me that youâve got the biggest dick?â
âIâve already convinced your mother, kid.â
âBetter you than me.â Cracking a joke about screwing her mother might have upset other young men, but Morgan had already cut his ties and dynamited the bridge behind him. âSomebody ought to, but Iâm not about to step up and take on that burden.â
âGood. Youâve got some emotional control. We might be able to make an Adversary out of you yet.â
âOh?â
âYou heard me,â said Cohen. He leaned back in his chair. âYouâll get instructions on where to show up by text message tomorrow, along with what possessions you can bring with you. In the meantime, go get laid or something. You wonât have time for any of that until youâre sworn in.â
âYes, sir.â
An approving nod from Cohen. âThatâs fine for now, but some of your instructors will be North American Commonwealth Marines before Nationfall. Theyâll expect every sentence out of your mouth to begin and end with âsirâ. Youâll come to hate themâeverybody doesâbut thatâll be fine as long as you say âSir. Go fuck yourself, sir.ââ
No time like the present to get used to it, though he hoped it was only part of the discipline imposed on recruits and not a ritual formula that would haunt him throughout his service as an Adversary. âSir. Yes, sir.â
Part V: Screaming for Vengeance
After Annelise, Naomi, and Morgan have told their stories, the three must decide what theyâll do with their newfound knowledge of Isaac Magninâs nature. Though theyâre not ready to show it, deep inside their hearts theyâre screaming for vengeance.
The title comes from âScreaming for Vengeanceâ by Judas Priest, the title track of their 1982 album.
Footnotes
Outtakes
11/1 version of Morganâs scene in chapter 2
You had no use for me then. I have no use for you now. The lyric from the B-side of a Crowleyâs Thoth single occurred to Morgan as Christabel Crowley sat across from him, sipping from a glass of white wine that she was most likely too drunk to appreciate. Had it been a breakup song by Keep Firing, Assholes? Or was Riot! in the Dungeons to blame? Morgan could not recall, and was confident it did not particularly matter. What mattered was that he had come to regret reaching out to his ex-girlfriend and former band-mate earlier this afternoon, and now that she wanted to talk he found himself hard-pressed to be civil with her. His efforts to place a lyric from a cover version were but a delaying tactic. âI wasnât expecting to see you here,â said Morgan, mainly to break the silence before it got any more awkward. âDo you still go by Christabel?â
âNo. Call me Annelise. Itâs the name I put aside before we met, and I took it back again afterward.â
âThank you,â said Morgan. He had learned a great many things over the course of his investigation into Christabel Crowleyâs apparent murder. It had been a meticulously planned bit of theater, every element chosen with care to create the illusion of a perfect crime. He was sure that even if it had been Anneliseâs idea she was in capable of its construction on her own. However, he could not see her as a victim. It was hard to see anybody as a victim when Isaac Magnin had them on strings, for Morgan was long familiar with his own set of strings and how it felt to be jerked around by them as Magnin called the tune. âI knew that you had taken up the name Annelise Copeland afterâafter you left. However, calling you by that name without your permission felt too much like an accusation I might hurl at an enemy.â
âArenât we enemies? I all but told you to fuck off and die.â
âI might have had that coming,â said Morgan. He knew too much to hate her, but not quite enough to understand and forgive her. âI never wanted to be your enemy.â
Annelise sipped her wine in silence, almost hiding behind the glass. Once it was empty and could no longer protect her, she set it aside. âI never wanted to see you again. I had seen you a few times, stopping outside the door to my shop as if you wanted to come in, but didnât dare. I was tempted to report you as a stalker, and I was within a hair of calling the police when I came in.â
âYou would have been within your rights.â That much Morgan would readily acknowledge; it had been one of the reasons he had refrained from confronting her until now. âWhat stopped you?â
Annelise shook her head. Her voice took on a familiar, hectoring edge as she replied. âThatâs the sort of question you could answer for yourself. Just duck into the menâs room and look at a mirror.â
âIs it because Iâm an Adversary? Orââ
âIf I had called the police, and they had ordered you to back off, would you have complied? Or would you have defied them?â As Annelise went on, the Received Pronunciation9 crept back into her voice as if she were slipping back into character and reprising Christabel Crowley. âI think the latter more likely; youâre not human, human morality never applied to you, and youâre perfectly capable of simply doing as you please with nobody to stop you.â
âThen itâs because Iâm einherjar.â It was the old argument revived. Once his differences from the common run of men became apparent, Annelise began to blame all of his shortcomings and failures as a partner on his einherjar nature and his effortsâwhich were doomed to inevitable failure in her mindâto be a creative, loving man rather than a war machine built to serve a cause he neither understood nor wanted any part of.
âI knew what you were from the start,â said Christabel. âIsaac Magnin told me everything. He said I had a right to know what I was getting myself into. I know why he made you and the others. And yetââ
If the server hadnât arrived, bearing the steak dinner Morgan had ordered earlier, to interrupt Annelise then he might have done so himself. Instead, he held his silence as the server spread his dinner before him. Annelise gazed at the thick medium rare steak, the side dishes of roasted potatoes and mixed vegetables, and the steaming hot rolls with a tub of fresh butter with an expression Morgan mistook for envy. Realizing it was hunger he saw in her eyes, Morgan waved the server back over.
âIs something wrong?â
âIâm sure everything is fine,â said Morgan. âBut this lady is a guest. Please take her order and add it to my bill.â
âOf course,â said the server. She turned to Annelise. âWould you like a menu?â
âI saw the specials on the way in. Could I get a bowl of the clam chowder?â
âComing right up,â said the server, bustling out without bothering to jot down the order. She returned mere minutes later bearing a steaming bowl and more fresh crusty rolls with butter and placed them before Annelise. She then gave Annelise a fresh mug. âI just got word from the boss. Weâre not to serve you any more wine. We hadnât realized you were already drunk earlier. Youâre welcome to the coffee, though.â
âThanks,â said Annelise after she tasted her soup. âGod, this is perfect.â
With Annelise digging into her dinner, Morgan decided it was permissible for him to enjoy his own meal. He ate methodically, savoring each morsel, determined to get his moneyâs worth out of the meal. When he had finished, he waited for Annelise to set aside her spoon before picking up the thread of their interrupted conversation. âYou had said that Isaac Magnin told you what he thinks I really am.â
âHe said that you had rebelled against your nature, that your rebellion would inevitably fail, and that you would make everybody around you suffer for it.â Breaking one of her rolls, Annelise used a bit of bread to mop up the remnants of her clam chowder. âI kept thinking today would be the day you finally ran amok. I kept needling you, as if I was trying to make his prediction a reality, and I still donât understand why. But when I was cruel to you and you left as I demanded, without even a word of protest, it occurred to me that I might have been wrong about you.â
Morgan paused, holding his buttery knife against a roll. âYou decided you wanted my money after all?â
âI suppose it was foolish of me to refuse your business, but thatâs not what I meant and you damn well know it.â
âI know nothing of the kind,â said Morgan. âSo use your words and tell me.â
Annelise blinked, as if she had forgotten what it was like to be called on her bullshit. âSo, you have changed. You never used to push back like that.â
âIt is only a grudging welcome I have given you,â said Morgan. âI did not want you here, but you were plainly inebriated and it was not my place to turn you away and send you back out into the cold because this is not my pub.â
âAt least youâre not still in love with me.â
It was the tone of relief in Anneliseâs voice that stung Morgan, rather than the words. âI have not been in love with you for at least a decade, but I wanted to rock the world, and if having to fail nightly at rocking your world was what it took then I was willing to swallow my pride.â
Annelise stole a spear of cold asparagus from Morganâs plate and began to nibble on it. âDoes Naomi find this martyr act attractive? Because itâs doing fuck-all for me.â
âThis is how we used to fight: circling around the points we wanted to make, sniping at one another. I came to you because I wanted to know that you were still alive and that you were happy.â
She laughed then, eyes wide in disbelief. âYou actually care if Iâm happy? When did that start?â
âIt started when we did. What ended was my willingness to sacrifice my own happiness for yours,â said Morgan. âAnd I regret that I never had the nerve to break up with you when I realized that we didnât work. I should have done it years ago.â
âSo why didnât you?â Annelise stole another spear of asparagus and brandished it, sprinkling Morganâs shirt with cold olive oil. âDonât tell me it was for my sake.â
Morgan shook his head while thinking, Donât flatter yourself. You arenât worth the effort of a lie. Rather than say this, he stuck to the truth. âI thought leaving you meant leaving the band. We had a good sound, we were starting to get some buzz, and breaking up the band would have made life difficult for Naomi, too.â
âIt always comes back to her, doesnât it. How many times have you two gotten together and laughed at me behind my back?â
âNot nearly as often as you and Isaac Magnin got together and laughed behind mine,â Morgan countered, confident that Annelise was projecting guilt about her own infidelity onto him. âStop wasting my time. Why did you come here?â
Annelise slumped in her seat, as if deflated by Morganâs refusal to play her game any longer. âI didnât understand why you cared enough to come and find me. I wanted to know why. I was sure youâd lie to me, but I figured that if I listened between the lies Iâd hear the truth.â
This Morgan remembered as being typical of Christabel. Speaking with her was like talking to the police without an attorney present. The more he told her, the more sheâd find to hold against him. Nevertheless, Morgan found himself unable to hide the truth from her. He had, after all, brought this on himself by weakening and stepping into the Fifth Avenue boutique he had successfully passed a dozen times before. âI wanted to ask the same question youâre asking. Why? Why couldnât you have told me you were unhappy?â
11/7 Soft Doctrines
Notes from the shrink (148 words)
She read through notes compiled by various child psychologists to which Morgan Cooperâs parents had brought him out of concern that his willful nature would make it impossible for him to function in society if it were not curbed. Each psychologist had their own diagnosisâpervasive developmental disorder, conduct disorder, and autistic spectrum disorder predominatedâbut the last one would have had her choking on her cassoulet from laughter if she had not just finished.
This looks like Munchausenâs by proxy. The parents are sure the kid is fucked in the head, but there seems to be nothing actually wrong with him. It seems to be that heâs got an adultâs intellectual maturity and an adolescentâs emotional development, albeit one uncomplicated by puberty, but heâs still physically a child. His problem is that his parents are typical, and he isnât.
11/15 Too Late for Apologies
Beginning (153 words)
Christabel was still fuming as she and Morgan walked the last couple of blocks from the Crouch End tube station to Naomi Bradleighâs house. He had not reacted to the scene she had made with Isaac Magnin at the after party for Winter Solstice at the Royal Albert Hall as she expected him to, and when he had come back to find her replete from her lovemaking with Isaac Magnin, all he had done was ask her if she had enjoyed herself.
She half-suspected he was planning to make a scene at Naomiâs house, where they were going to a private and belated Solstice celebration. Itâs what she would have done were their positions reversed. Hoping to forestall any such eventuality, she stopped a few doors short. âNot a word about last night when we get to Naomiâs.â
âWe already said everything that needed to be said.â
âI know youâre angry with me.â
âThe last time I was this angry with somebody, I burned every bridge I had with my family. I thought I had something good going with you and with Crowleyâs Thoth, and I donât want to throw it away, but every word I hear out of you makes it harder.â
âWe should have had this fight in the room before we left.â
âI donât want to fight with you,â said Morgan, his voice taking on an edge that discomforted her. âLook: Iâm happy to be your faithful goth bimbo for the fans as long as you keep your affair with Isaac Magnin backstage instead of making a public spectacle of it.â
11/16 Too Late for Apologies (1800 words)
Though Isaac had left her hours ago, Christabel was still replete with the memory of his hands on her. She was awake, enjoying the full English breakfast that Isaac had arranged for room serve to bring her when Morgan had returned at nine the next morning. He said nothing, but retrieved his luggage from the closet and began packing the few things he had taken out when they checked in the night before the Winter Solstice.
She hastily finished her bite of toast liberally coated in butter and marmalade. âWhere are you going?â
âI snagged a single for myself last night. I just wanted to get my stuff so I could get ready for Solstice dinner at Naomiâs later. You remember that she invited us over to celebrate since we were too busy with the show, right?â
âOf course,â said Christabel. Putting aside her tray, she slipped out of bed. She was about to reach for his shoulder when she thought better of it. Something was wrong, and after a momentâs reflection she realized what it was. He had spoken with utter indifference, as if he was determined to go to Naomiâs with or without her. âAre you angry with me?â
âWhy should I be?â
âI cheated on you.â
âYouâre not my property.â
Damn his logic, she thought. âItâs because I thought you had cheated on me with Naomi.â
âLook at me,â said Morgan. His face was an impassive mask as he stood with his arms crossed beneath his chest. âDo I look like somebody who cares about your reasons?â
âSo, you are angry with me.â
Morgan closed his suitcase and latched it with deliberate care. âChristabel, the last time I was this angry with somebody, I burned every bridge I had with my family. I thought I had something good going with you and with Crowleyâs Thoth, and I donât want to throw it away, but every word I hear out of you makes it harder.â
âIâm sorry.â
âIt was too late for sorry when you looked me in the eye and kissed Isaac Magnin.â
At least heâs talking, Christabel thought as she cast about for the words that would ease the knife-edge tension between them. Though she had desperately craved Isaac the night before, yielding to that desire and indulging it as she had now seemed the sort of mistake that might jeopardize her mission. If I fuck this up worse than I already have, I could lose him.
Another possibility occurred to her as she recalled something Isaac had told her. âI need Morgan Cooper to be my enemy,â he had said one night when they were alone. âHaving him wield the Starbreaker against the Almighty is necessary but insufficient. I also need him to wield it against me. As long as I remain, neither humans nor asuras will ever be free of the tyranny of demons.â
The hard part was deciding how best to turn Morgan against Isaac Magnin. I could say he forced me, and Morgan would feel duty-bound to believe me so that he can see himself as a decent man, thought Christabel, but heâd probably just insist on going through the proper channels.
Morgan had finished getting his things together, and was about to open the door and leave when Christabel spoke. âIâve been working for Isaac Magnin the whole time.â
He slowly put down his bags and turned around. âIs this some kind of depraved joke?â
âNo,â said Christabel, shaking her head in protest. âPlease sit down. Order breakfast, or at least make yourself a cup of tea. Iâll tell you everything.â
Morgan opened the door. âIâm not willing to wait that long.â
âIsaac Magnin isnât human, either. Heâs some kind of immortal who made einherjar like you to serve on the front line in a war against the heavens, but he decided you were too soft and wanted me to help make your dreams come true and poison them. Heâs trying to make your life a prison of his own design, and is determined to tighten the screws until you until you doâuntil you /become/âwhat he wants.â
The door snicked shut. âWhy tell me this?â
That he was still here was a small victory. Likewise the fact that he had not dismissed her explanation out of hand. âIâm still working for him, and serving his cause by telling you the truth.â
âSuppose I walk out on you? Suppose I decide that I no longer need Isaac Magninâs help getting a foot in the door, and reach for my dreams on my own?â
Shaking her head, Christabel laughed at him and his naĂŻvety. âDo you think it would be so easy? If youâre lucky, heâll just find somebody else. Perhaps somebody who will succeed where I failed. If not, do you think youâd ever so much as get a slot at an open mic anywhere on Earth?â
âHeâs not that influential.â
âHeâs influential enough,â said Christabel. âAnd he knows people, who themselves know people. You know how these things work. Corruption feeds upon corruption, spreading like a contagion.
âBesides, I know why you wear that Saint Judas medal. I know all about the people you kill for the Phoenix Society, the people they threw under a maglev once theyâd outlived their utility. Youâll be next; theyâll run you through a meat grinder and use you for chum if thatâs what it takes to end you.â
âHow do you know this?â
âI have your dossier. I get weekly updates.â
Morgan nodded. âSo, you know everything about me that the executive council does.â
She thrust out her chin in defiance. âI might know more. After all, I know how insipid a lover you are. So gentle, so considerate, so concerned with being a âgood manâ that youâre not a man at all.â
âIs that why you went with Isaac Magnin?â
Christabel shrugged. âNo. I did it to hurt you.â
âBullshit.â Sitting on the edge of the unused bed, Morgan leaned forward with his elbows on his knees and stared into her eyes. âHow blind do you think I am? Did you really think I wouldnât notice that you werenât into me? Why do you think my sexual interest in you faded?â
âI figured it was because youâd rather be with Naomi.â
âI actually got to know her as one adult with another while we were touring. Iâve earned her respect as a musician. Weâre actually friends. Do you really think Iâd ruin that for a shot at fulfilling an adolescent fantasy?â
âI think youâre afraid youâd disappoint her like you have me.â
âYour disappointment is your own fault. If there was something you wanted of me, all you had to do was ask.â
âWhat if I wanted you to use me, to exploit me without any consideration for my feelings or your oh-so-noble ideals? What if I wanted you to hurt me? What if I wanted to be utterly helpless before you as you came to me with everything you really are, to be the machine you are and not the man you pretend to be and overpower me? Could you do that? Would you have had the balls to even try?â
âIf you had bothered to tell me what you wanted like an adult we might have reached some kind of accommodation,â said Morgan, âBut I suspect that even if I bounced you around the room and used you cruelly enough to make you regret sharing your fantasies it still wouldnât be enough. Worming your way into my life was the job you did for Isaac Magnin. I was never the man you wanted, but Iâll grant you this much: you made it so fuckinâ easy to con myself into believing otherwise.â
âIs that why you hate me now? Because you realize how foolish a man-child youâve been?â
âDonât flatter yourself,â said Morgan. âYou arenât worth hating.â
âStop trying to act tough. The act doesnât fool or impress me. I can hear the hurt in your voice. I can see your eyes shimmer as you hold back your tears. I see how hard youâre working to keep from clenching your fists.â
âMaybe I canât hide my pain, but Iâll be damned if Iâll give you the satisfaction of seeing me lay my heart at your feet. If I wanted to be treated with such cruelty Iâd see a dominatrix.â
âA dominatrix?â Christabel could not hold back her laughter, but honesty would have demanded of her that she admit to not having made much of an effort. âMen richer than youâll ever be would pay good money for me to do them like Iâm doing you. Stop being such a little sissy and try to enjoy it.â
âOh, Iâm enjoying it immensely. You fucked up, you know it, and watching you flail about trying to salvage the situation has been such wonderful fun.â
âYou know what will happen to you if you walk away, but think about what will happen to Naomi. If you dump me and walk away from Crowleyâs Thoth, Isaac Magnin will see to it that she wonât even be able make a living singing torch songs in a dive bar on a penal habitat orbiting Uranus.â
The silence between them stretched until it felt to Christabel like an hour had passed. Morgan gently lifted her chin with his fingertips, forcing her to look up at him. âYouâre trying to manipulate me into going after Isaac Magnin. You think Iâll throw everything away, and deprive Naomi of her dreams in the process, just to have my sword at his throat. The next time you two fuck behind my back, tell him that Iâm not going to play his game. Iâll keep up appearances as your faithful boyfriend. Iâll continue with Crowleyâs Thoth, and Naomi and I will make you a bit player in the band you founded. Do not try to force my hand again.â
âWhat if I do?â
A long moment passed before Morgan answered, but when it did his voice was antarctic in its frigidity. âIâll forgive you once, because I should have known better than to fall for you. Do not count on being forgiven a second time.â
Releasing her chin, he took a step back. âIâll be waiting in the hotel lobby if you want to go to Naomiâs for Solstice dinner. If youâre not there by noon, Iâll tell Naomi that youâre not feeling well and decided to wait it out in your room.â
Reaching into his coat pocket, he threw a couple of small, gift-wrapped packages into her lap. âI found these in the trash by the desk. Next time you decide to be so contemptuous of othersâ generosity, at least try to be a little more discreet.â
12/8 Why We Canât Have Nice Things
A seemingly familiar face tugged at Naomiâs attention from the periphery of her vision. She turned to place it, only to be jostled as stage crew rushed past her. She was sure one of them had said something, but she still had her earplugs in place. It wasnât far to the one room backstage she had shared with Christabel, Morgan, and the members of the other bands playing tonight at the Flaming Telepath in Brooklyn.
The phrase âdressing roomâ was one she used loosely and only in the privacy of her own mind. It was too cramped to serve four bands, fifteen musicians total. One of the other bands as a trio: a drummer, a guitarist, and a vocalist who played bass. They called themselves Bomber, and were just kids who had started a Motörhead revival band on a lark. They werenât the only revival act; the four-piece that had just rushed to the stage to take over for Crowleyâs Thoth billed themselves as Damage Incorporated.
The headline act, whose members thought their place at the top of the bill gave them license to spread out across half the room, was a five-piece: drummer, bassist, two guitarists, and a vocalist. While the vocalist was a decent tenor whose raw talent would have benefited from voice lessons, the bandâs name escaped her; they didnât mine the public domain, but claimed to do original material that to her ear sounded mostly like by-the-numbers power metal in which the phrase âso far awayâ seemed to occur in at least half their songs.
The venueâs owner had strung clotheslines and hung blankets to partition the prep room and provide a semblance of privacy; it was mostly men in here and it would not have been practical to change in the ladiesâ room or exile all of the guys while Naomi and Christabel got dressed and did their makeup.
The kids who called themselves Bomber sat on the floor in their space, the blankets drawn aside to indicate that they were dressed and feeling sociable. One of them, the bassist on vocals, waved her over as she pulled out her earplugs. âYouâre Christabel, right?â
Naomi shook her head and flashed a smile. âSorry. Iâm Naomi.â Extending her hand, she added. âI caught your set; itâs hard to believe youâre just kids on a lark. Youâre tight enough that if you kept at it you could go somewhere.â
âKind of you to say so, but we saw you guys and weâre nowhere near your level,â said one of the other members of Bomber, the drummer.
Bomberâs guitarist spoke up next. âWe thought you were Christabel because we knew Christabel and Morgan are dating, and figured you had to be her after we caught your set.â
âExcuse me,â said Morgan, his voice soft. He held an amplifier case by its handle in each hand, carrying them as easily as if they were half-full sacks of groceries.
âDid you want a hand with those?â Naomi asked because even though she had not been with the band long, she had noticed that Christabel never offered to help with either the setup before a show or the tear-down after. Her reluctance to get involved did not preclude her possession of opinions about how the crew should do their jobs; nor did her understanding of etiquette preclude her from voicing said opinions.
âIâve got these,â said Morgan. âSydâs got your keyboards, and Eddieâs watching the van. I was going to help him, but he said something about having help from somebody he called Comrade Puffsky.â
Wonderful. Why have me involved at all if Eddie Cohen is going to shadow the kid anyway? Taking a breath, Naomi shook her head to calm herself. For reasons she had not examined she was reluctant to reveal the extent of her acquaintance with the old sharpshooter.
âThatâs what Eddie calls that rifle of his. Comrade Puffsky, the Magic Dragunov. He claims he took it off a dead Russian designated marksman during Nationfall. The other guy shot first but his aim was just a bit off.â
âNo wonder he keeps going on about the importance of taking oneâs time,â said Morgan. He turned to Bomberâs guitarist. âHey, how did that tuning I helped you with work out?â
âIt was just what I needed. Thanks.â
Naomi gently tapped Morganâs shoulder. âOi. We have roadies and guitar techs, you know.â
âWeâve got one crew and one tech working with four bands,â said Morgan, âOne of the other techs walked out after Christabel pitched a fit over how one of her violins wasnât tuned properly, and never mind that she wasnât paying the guy and violins arenât necessarily within a guitar techâs purview. Turns out her G string was an eighth-tone sharp.â
The members of Bomber snickered until Naomi glared at them. She figured they could make all of the sophomoric jokes they liked elsewhere. Of course, it figured that as soon as Morgan said something perfectly innocent about G strings, Jacqueline Russo would show up.
Her old friend and former partner breezed in with Christopher Renfield in tow, which was just what Naomi wanted tonight. âSo, whose G string was a bit sharp? Because I can tell you from personal experience having a sharp G string digging in is not comfortable.â
âNow I know where Claire gets her casual disregard for boundaries and appropriate conversation topics,â said Naomi, yielding to the inevitable and letting Jackie hug her. âI wasnât expecting to see you in New York.â She turned to Christopher and accepted an embrace from him. âNor you. Whatâs the occasion? And dare I ask why you two are together?â
âHer idea,â said Christopher. There had always been something about Morgan that reminded Naomi of the other man, but until they were in the same room together she had not managed to identify it. It was the way they carried themselves, simultaneously alert and relaxed, as if they were in a safe place that could instantly become a battlefield. âI met her at the bar.â
âI recognized him from the stories you told, Nims, but you never told me he was a hottie,â said Jackie. She slapped Renfieldâs shoulder. âIf I hadnât promised Rodney Iâd consult him before bringing blokes home, Iâd have dragged him back home to London directly.â
âDonât you think you should consult me first?â said Christopher. âDoes your daughter know youâre like this?â
âClaireâs my niece, and I donât think so.â
âI see you two have hit it off,â said Naomi. âNow, where did Morgan disappear to?â
âOver here,â said Morgan from behind the towering wheeled case that housed the CARL-9000 unit that served as drummer for Crowleyâs Thoth. It was as heavy a piece of machinery as it was valuable, and should have had two roadies to wrangle it off the stage.
Joining him, she brushed one of his hands with her fingertips to get his attention. âIâve got a couple of old friends backstage.â
He shrugged as they got the CARL-9000 moving again. âFine by me, but Christabelâs gonna have kittens if they donât have passes to show. I think we still have a couple of crew t-shirts.â
âRight.â Naomi retrieved a couple of extra-larges out of the merch box and thrust one each into Christopher and Jackieâs hands. âSorry, but youâre both hired for the next couple of hours.â
âDrafted again?â said Christopher. âDammit.â
âWeâd better get paid for this,â said Jackie.
âTrust me,â said Naomi. âNot having Christabel yell at you will make up for not getting union scale.â
âWhere the hell is my violin?â Christabel stalked into the backstage room, eyes darting to and fro. âNaomi, you made sure nobody stole my violin, did you not?â
âItâs probably already in the van,â said Naomi, doing her best to keep her tone soothing. âMorgan had just brought CARL out back. Once heâs done you can ask him directly.â
âYou know how valuable an instrument that is, right?â
âItâs insured, just like the rest of our gear.â
âCold bloody comfort if that sleazy old man hot-wires the van and makes off with our equipment. Who the hell is he, anyway? The employment agency didnât vet him.â Christabel stopped short as she finally caught sight of Jackie and Christopher. âAnd who are these two? If theyâre crew, what are they doing back here?â
âMandatory coffee break,â said Christopher.
âWhat he said,â Jackie added. âUnion rules are a bitch, ainât they?â
Christabel glared up at Christopher with her hands on her hips. âWhereâs my violin?â
Naomiâs stomach sank as Jackie muttered something that sounded suspiciously like try the dumpster. Christabel must have caught it too, because she turned to the other woman. âMind repeating that?â
âSure. I said try the dumpster.â
And off we go, Naomi thought, bracing herself for the toilet-bowl tempest Christabel was all but guaranteed to stir up at what she was now sure had been a calculated slight on Jackieâs part.
Christabel had already drawn in breath to launch a tirade when Morgan returned. âItâs all right, âBel. I loaded your violins first.â
âAll of them?â
âAll of them. The four-string, the five-string, and even the alto.â
âItâs a viola, not an alto violin. You know this.â
Morgan also knew every viola joke ever made. He had learned most of them from Eddie, who had apparently dated a violist for a few years. Most of them were unflattering at best. Both he and Naomi had learned that one did not mention the viola within earshot of Eddie.
âWhat do you call a violist who keeps time and stays in tune?â Eddie must have heard, because he was now inside leaning against the wall. âA fuckinâ miracle.â
âSpeaking of miracles,â said Christabel, already keyed up and just looking for an excuse to vent the rage she had worked up over the thought of one of her instruments having gone missing. âHow are you not dead of cirrhosis?â
Before Morgan or Naomi could speak up, however, Eddie did so himself. He stepped forward and mussed her hair. âI was too sinful for heaven and hell was afraid Iâd introduce democracy.â He turned his attention to Morgan as Christabel stalked off in a huff. âWe almost ready to lock up the van?â
âAlmost. Was all of that really necessary?â
âNot really,â said the old man. âI could have let her rip into you over violins we all know you already packed up and loaded first, because thatâs her idea of foreplay.â
Now Jackie was staring at Morgan. âYouâre dating that woman? What the hellâs wrong with you?â
âNever mind that,â said Christopher. He took a step toward Morgan. âArenât you the guy who killed Quincy Westenra? He was part of my squad back in the day.â
Though Naomi had not expected Christopher to hurl the death of a squadmate at Morgan, she could not help but be disappointed that Morgan had not spoken to her about it. That must have been how he got his Saint Judas medal, she thought.
For his part, Morgan stepped forward and extended his hand. âYes, Iâm Morgan Cooper. And you are?â
âChristopher Renfield, formerly of the North American Commonwealth Army. So you admit to killing Westenra?â
âI offered him a chance to surrender. He was determined to go out fighting, so I obliged him. I understand if you have a beef with me, but if youâre here for a fight I must insist that we at least go out back.â
Christopher nodded. âI just wanted to know if you had the guts to own what you did.â He turned to Naomi. âThe kidâs all right. Can I meet you later?â
It occurred to Naomi that it might be a good idea to tell him a little about what was going on, so she texted her hotel room number. âSure.â
âThanks,â said Christopher, leaning in to steal a kiss. âI missed you.â
Once he left, Naomi glanced at Morgan to see if he had reacted, but he was currently in an animated conversation with Jackie. Iâd better make sure heâs not in over his head.
âLook, I think itâs sweet that you want to stick up for your girlfriend, but you could do so much better.â
âItâs not about doing better,â said Morgan. âWeâve got a good band going. Dumping Christabel, even if that was a good idea on a personal levelâ
âWhich it is, given how she ripped into you,â said Jackie.
ââit doesnât make sense for the band. Besides, Naomi hasnât had a steady gig in a while.â
Grabbing a beer out of the cooler provided for the bands, Jackie twisted off the cap and drank half at once. âYou and Nims could get something steady going. I think sheâs more your type anyway.â
âSheâs seeing somebody.â
âOh, Renfield? Heâs just a frenemy with benefits she met in Clarion a few years ago.â
âJackie,â said Naomi. âWhy are you trying to break up my band-matesâ relationship?â
âBecause itâs abusive?â
âChristabel isnât abusive. Sheâs just high-strung and sometimes she takes it out on other people. Better me than the crew; I can take it.â
Jackie shook her head. A text from her came to Naomiâs implant a second later. «Heâs already making excuses for the bitch. Arenât you supposed to be looking out for him? This is why we canât have nice things.»
1/8 Naomiâs No Good Valentineâs Night
Iâve never experienced the freefall infatuation that society and centuries of culture led me to expect from falling in love. The development of my regard was perceptible only in hindsight. Rather than having my defenses shattered with a single kiss the slow accretion of fleeting moments, trivial courtesies, little kindnesses, and tentative, accidental touches gently eroded the studied indifference with which I approached my subject out of necessity, for how could I justify loving a man when duty might demand his death by my hand? Itâs hard not to feel cheated; it seems Morgan got to fall in love with me twice as a boy and then a man, but did I ever get to fall for him? I think not. In me love grew, but what if I only think he fell twice for me because I could not see how his love for me grew in him? I only know what he tells me, and weâve dared tell each other so little.
What hurts most is that this realization comes to me not while Iâm with Morgan, but with Christopher. Heâs here in bed with me, being the little spoon for me completely ignorant of what Iâve only just figured out for myself: heâs not the one I want to cling to right now.
In fact, Iâm not sure I ever want to see him again. Itâs not his fault. He isnât even a bad person. Heâs kind and respectful to me. He looks out for his old squadmates, some of whom are profoundly fucked up because of the lives they had gotten stuck living after Nationfall.
Heâs never made any sort of demands upon me, or burdened me with his own feelings. And though he had been decades out of practice when we met (at least with women, but I never asked and heâs never told) weâve always been good to each other in bed. When I wanted a man and he was in town, he never said no to me.
He did tonight, though. He had stopped right in the middle, pulled out, and yanked off the condom. When he came back from the bathroom he gave me a warm towel and told me point blank that he was just wasting both my time and his. He was right, damn him. I couldnât get out of my own head. Where was I instead of present with him? Why couldnât I appreciate his efforts on my behalf?
Itâs not like I ever wanted to be in love. That was never how I saw myself. And yet I never saw myself using a man like Iâve been using Christopher. Perhaps Iâm not using him as badly as he had been by his birth nationâs military, but the soft, vulnerable sounds he makes when I draw him into my arms after weâve scratched our itches together suggest that he has unfulfilled emotional needs that heâs thus far refrained from making my problem.
What are we to each other, anyway? To me, Renfield is a reliable booty call. Heâs better than a rent boy because I need not pay him to go away in the morning. But what does he get out of our arrangement? I know Iâm the first woman heâs had since Nationfall, but surely there are others, and surely at least one of those other women are better for him than I am.
Then again, if Iâm no good for Renfield what good would I be to Morgan? I use men and throw them aside once theyâve ceased to amuse me. I try to pick men who are content to use women as I use men, men too sensible to fall in love with somebody like me, but here I am spooning with one man wishing all the while I was with another.
Renfield doesnât deserve me. Morgan doesnât, either. But what do I deserve? If I demanded more for myself, if I demanded more of myself, could I the sort of woman Morgan deserves, somebody worthy of the regard he wastes on me?
And where is this mealy-mouthed self-loathing coming from, anyway? Am I sitting here castigating myself because I chose the life I thought I wanted instead of buying into some Hollywood fantasy of meeting a nice boy in school, getting swept off my feet, and ending up married with two kids, a dog, and a cat in the bloody suburbs? That dreamâs been dead so long there isnât a scrap left to pick off the bones.
Hell, Morganâs probably with that cow Christabel. Maybe I should stop laying here feeling sorry for myself and go rescue myself a little prince.
First, though, Iâve got to get out of this hotel room. Christopher woke as I pulled free, naturally. Looking up at me with those big blue eyes of his he asks, âGoing somewhere?â
Nothing for it but the truth, I suppose. âLook, Chris, you can have the room if youâd like. Itâs paid for until the morning of the 16th.â
âYou donât have to leave on my account. Iâll go, instead.â
âNo, itâs fine. Iâm not leaving because of you. Iâm leaving because being with you helped me realize something.â Leaning over him, I gave him one last kiss. He deserved that much for helping me. âWe had some good times together, but what we have isnât what I want and Iâm not convinced itâs really what you want either, but I appreciate that youâve always been there for me.â
He didnât say anything for a moment. He just watched me get dressed. As he handed me my boots he finally asked, âIs it the kid?â
âMorgan?â
âYeah.â
It was funny. Eddie calls Morgan âthe kidâ, too. It was less jarring because he looks almost as old as he is. Chris looks to be my age despite being at least Eddieâs. âYes, itâs Morgan. I donât know if Iâll end up hurting more than Christabel has, but I want him.â
âYou werenât thinking of him earlier, were you?â
If anybody else had asked me such a question, I might have drawn my sword on them. But after the way I had treated Christopher tonight, I couldnât begrudge him his question or the truth. âNot until you gave up. But I didnât have my mind on us then, either.â
âIâve seen the way he looks at you,â he said. âAnd Iâve seen the way he looks at that skinny brunette heâs supposed to be dating. Heâs a better, stronger man than I am. Thatâs all Iâm going to say on the subject.â
It didnât help. âYouâre suggesting that Iâm not good for him?â
Rather than answer immediately, he lifted the St. Judas medal out of my blouse. âYouâre wearing this because of him, arenât you?â
âYes,â and damn him for guessing it. Had I been so obvious?
âYou used me because your mission demanded it. I didnât mind, since I was using you because I was lonely and touch-starved. But if you use him the way youâve used me, put him aside when youâre done, and leave him heartbroken as a result, then youâll actually deserve to wear this.â
âI wouldnât.â I couldnât help but protest. I didnât want to see myself as somebody who would do thatâeven if I had done so to Christopher with what seemed at the the time his enthusiastic consent and cooperation.
âYou might not mean to do it,â said Christopher. âBut youâre not as good a person as you try to be.â
He let me chew on that as he got dressed. Rather than me leaving him, he ended up leaving me. That would take some getting used to. In the meantime, I wanted Morgan. Just hearing his voice would be enough.
In any case, it would not do to show up all uninvited and unexpected. Even a voice call was too much. He might be in bed with Christabel, all eyes closed and thoughts of England. Nor could I simply invite him over here for obvious reasons.
But what harm could a text do? If he was asleep he wouldnât see it until tomorrow, and I could just pass it off as a drunk-text. «Hey, are you still awake?»
«Iâm at the hotel bar.»
«Is Christabel there?»
«No. When I got back to our room I found a note saying she was going to be with Isaac Magnin through the weekend and that I was welcome to amuse myself in any way that pleased me.»
At least he wasnât suffering through duty sex with Christabel. «Are you by yourself, then?»
I rather doubted it; his appeal to women was a bit broader than mine to men. Pale and snow-blonde with crimson eyes is too close to albinism for many menâs comfort, and weeding out the fetishists was a pain in the arse.
«No. Can you come and rescue me, please? Iâve tried being polite, but she thinks itâs part of the flirtation.»
The temptation to tease him a little as I waited for the elevator proved impossible to resist. «Donât tell me youâre not flattered.»
«I think sheâs more interested in seeing me with her husband.» Mmm, kinky. Good thing Claireâs not seeing this. «Heâs not my type.»
Once I got down there I could see what Morgan meant. The woman with him kept sneaking glances at a heavy-set man in a navy three-piece with a close-cropped beard. Approaching his table, I sat across from him and brushed the back of his hand with a fingertip. âExcuse me. Are you with the redhead at the bar?â
The way he jumped suggested he was guilty as charged. âWe werenât looking for a woman to join us.â
âThatâs fine,â I said, and meant it. Between consenting adults anything goes. âYour partner is flirting with a friend of mine, and heâs asked me to rescue him. Would you mind collecting her? Iâm not quite as reluctant to make a scene as my friend, but Iâd rather not embarrass him without cause.â
Hubby threw up his hands. âLook, lady, Iâd love to, but once Janice gets an idea in her head thereâs no stopping her. I told her I was fine with going to Xanadu House, butââ
It was late and I couldnât be arsed to listen to the rest of his bullshit. Janice didnât see me coming, but Morgan did. Those big green kitty eyes of his got even bigger as I tapped her shoulder. âExcuse me, but heâs mine.â
âI donât see him wearing a ring.â
âHeâs wearing my collar. Discreetly, of course. He is after all a gentleman.â
It was cruel of me, but I couldnât resist making Morgan blush. He does it so prettily for somebody who thinks nothing of bringing a sword to a gunfight.
Once Janice had buggered off, Morgan turned away and tried to hide his embarrassment. The bartender finally showed up as he did so. âSorry,â she said, âWeâve seen that woman before. She likes to ply young men with alcohol, but she knows some of the owners so we simply canât throw her out. Instead, we get busy elsewhere.â
âFine. House red for me, and a brandy for my gentleman.â
âOf course.â
«Brandy? I suppose you think my nerves need settling.»
«I know it wonât help, but Iâm not about to point out that you could drink Bacchus under the table.»
At least that got a little smile out of him. «Sorry. I should have handled this myself.»
«I donât think anything short of violence on your part would have done the job. Do you?»
«I was afraid that would be the case.»
Though I was sure heâd pull away, I reached for his hand and took it. âIâm sorry if I embarrassed you.â
He blushed again. âItâs all right. I wouldnât admit it to Eddie or the other guys, but I like the idea of being your gentleman. Just as long as Iâm not one of your gentlemen.â
Now there was a tempting thought: me as some kind of gangland bitch-queen surrounded by loyal and adoring muscle. Really, one guy is enough for me as long as heâs the right guy. âI think Iâve ended things with Renfield.â
âFine night for it.â
That was certainly true. âCan we go somewhere else? It doesnât have to be your room. Just somewhere more private.â
âMy roomâs fine,â he said, and pulled out his wallet before I could. He paid for our drinks, and left a generous tipâsomething I appreciated. I had been with men who tipped poorly, which often proved to be neither their only shortcoming nor the extent of their stinginess.
Once we had gotten to his room, Morgan poured me another glass of wine from the minibar. Not that I needed it, and I really should have said no, but if I took it slow I figured it would be all right. âDid Renfield hurt you?â
âNo, of course not.â Was that why Morgan was so concerned? Of course he might reach that conclusion. Why else would a woman leave the guy she was with and turn to somebody with whom sheâs never shared anything more intimate than friendship? Oh, Christ. What was I thinking? âI donât know what youâre thinking, but Christopher didnât hurt me. If anything, he realized that I wasnât into it before I did and stopped.â
I was still a bit miffed about that, but that was probably just my pride.
âYou seemed to like him well enough.â
Oh, dear. Oh, damn. How was I supposed to explain this? âI had gotten to thinking afterward. I was in bed with him, and it occurred to me that he wasnât the one I wanted to be my little spoon.â
It might be time to lay off the wine before I say something truly unforgivable. I suppose Morgan thought the same, because he took my glass without a word, and finished it so at least decent wine wouldnât go to waste. A phrase from a manga Claire had left in the loo came to me out of nowhere: âindirect kissâ. By drinking from the same glass I had used, Morgan and I had shared an indirect kiss. It was the sort of thing to set the hearts of young teenagers unused to deeper intimacies aflutter, but it still seemed sweet to me. âIâm sorry. I shouldnât have said anything. Hell, I shouldnât have come.â
âIâm glad you did. I just donât understand why. Youâve always been cordial, but kept it strictly business. Now weâre drinking together and youâre telling me about your personal life.â That blush was back again. âAnd when you told that woman I was yours. Iâm sure there were other ways you could have handled the situation, but you chose to claim me as your own.â
âIt seemed like a good idea at the time.â Please, please, please donât ask me if I had meant it.
âDid you mean it?â
If there is a god who takes a personal interest in my life, and finds amusement in my tribulations, then heâs a rat bastard and I hope his wife gives him herpes. Now I had to either tell Morgan the truth or break his heart, because the way heâs looking at me suggests that he wants me to tell him I meant it. Hell, the way Christabelâs been treating him he might even need it. Heâs been putting up with too much for too long to keep the band together, and heâs been doing it because he thinks the bandâs breakup would hurt me.
Admittedly, it would have a few years ago, but even then I would have survived. Letâs just say that when my father breaks out the hush money, he lays it on nice and thick. It would have hurt my morale more than my finances. Nowadays, Morgan and I could throw Christabel under a maglev and start our own band. That slag needs us more than we need her.
If only he would figure that out. Heâs smart enough for it, but seeing it would mean that heâs wasted years on somebody who never gave a toss about him. Hard to blame him for not wanting to face so harsh a truth.
Best to offer him a sweeter, gentler one. âI meant it.â
If this were a movie, or even a romantic novel, I suppose Morgan would be kissing me senseless right about now. Instead, he stared out the window. Cold rain battered the panes, making bright particolored smears of the lights outside. âShit.â
Hardly the response I had expected, but I suppose I was still a bit tipsy and hoping for that kiss. After all, at the show he had insisted on covering âHand on Heartâ. When he breaks out that old power ballad itâs always because heâs thinking about me. âWasnât that what you had hoped to hear?â
âIt was, dammit. But now that Iâve heard it I donât know what to do.â
âYou could kiss me.â What was it they said about audacity?
His was the smile of a man eating his own heart and finding that he liked it because it was bitter. âI think I could have kissed you a long time ago, but who would I be if I had? Who would you be if you let me?â
âWeâd still be ourselves.â
âIâd be the guy who cheated on his girlfriend.â
âAs if she hasnât been cheating on you for years.â
âThatâs on her. It doesnât justify me doing the same to her.â
Damn him for being right. If he treated her as shabbily as she treated him, what would stop him from treating me just as shabbily? How would I be able to trust myself to him if he was that kind of man? âI donât want to care about any of that tonight. I want you to sleep with me.â
âNo.â
God, Iâd like to slap that nobility right off his face. Or maybe kiss it off instead. How can somebody who serves as the Phoenix Societyâs assassin be so scrupulous when he isnât arranging funerals for scumbags who choose death over exile?
Before I could stop myself, I had my arms around him and my lips at his ear. âI just want you in bed with me. Leave your underwear on. Put your damn sword between us if you must. Just let me fall asleep holding your hand. I think I could, if you just let us have that much together.â
His hands burned through my clothes. One was at the small of my back. A bit lower and heâd have a handful of my arse. I wanted him to have that handful, but it was obvious he wouldnât indulge either of us. Instead, he pushed me away as gently as he could. âIâve got a spare t-shirt you can sleep in, if youâd like. It doesnât look like you brought anything to wear to bed.â
Such a gentleman. It really was a waste, but I was right. His hand in mine was what I needed to get to sleep that night. And I kept the t-shirt. Call it an indirect cuddle.
1/10 Naomi Bradleighâs Journal, 15 March 2101
I think todayâs the first day I havenât had Witness Protocol telemetry beaming out of my head since the day I joined the Phoenix Society and enlisted in the civil rights defense corps. I can tell when itâs running; itâs not like the daemon running on my implant to record everything I see and hear, compress it so that itâs neatly packed, and beam it to the Phoenix Society over the network doesnât show up whenever I have my implant provide a POSIX shell and run âdoas rcctl ls startedâ to see which daemons itâs running.
In theory itâs only supposed to run when Iâm on the job and acting in my capacity as an Adversary. However, Iâm an Inquisitor under orders to surveil a particular subject. As such, I am never not on the job, which means that under normal conditions Witness Protocol could be recording when it shouldnât be. This could prove awkward for reasons Iâm reluctant to belabor even in this journal since it is not for my eyes only.
Iâm glad Eddie thought of disabling automatic audiovisual telemetry before I had to bring it up. That too would have been embarrassing. The problem is that in its absence Iâm supposed to periodically report directly to him and Desdinova. If they think Iâm going to take time out of my day to record video updates for them theyâre out of their demon-ridden minds. Anybody trying to eavesdrop could tell Iâm sending video just by monitoring my implantâs transmissions and watching for large uploads. Email isnât really viable, either. Iâm supposed to be undercover. Somebody monitoring my transmissions and spotting emails addressed to Phoenix Society personnel could easily expose me. Message contents might be encrypted, but that doesnât matter. Just use the metadata to identify the sender and recipients, then beat one of them until they decrypt their mail for your perusal. Why use an AI for brute-force cryptanalysis when a length of pipe is both cheaper and incapable of raising ethical objections?
It was Claire who suggested a workable solution. My implant has a terabyte of solid-state storage, more than sufficient for a plain text diary. My implant then periodically uses secure file copy to push a copy of my journal to a virtual host whose secure shell daemon is configured to grant access only to authorized public keys. Mine is one of the authorized keys. Eddie and Desdinova hold the others. At their convenience, they can pull copies of my journal and read it with their implants.
Anybody else who attempts to access this virtual host via secure shell will get redirected to my network site, which is hosted on the same machine. I upload my private journal while updating my public one. Unless they know exactly what to look for, anybody trying to break in is likely to think this is just a network site for a musician run by a sysadmin with a particular distaste for unauthorized penetrations.
God, Iâm starting to sound like Claire now. Enough with the bloody tech. If Eddie and Desdinova are already reading this, they can rest assured that theyâre most likely to be the only ones doing so at the momentâthough my conscience might eventually demand I let Morgan Cooper have a copy, too. It might be the only way to prove to him that I had his best interests at heart.
Yes, it seems paranoid. Nevertheless, here I am engaged in espionage. A measure of caution on my part is justified. I just hope that this ends with Morgan living to hate me instead of dying by my hand. He had seemed like a sweet and earnest young man the last time I met him. Now? I think the earnest sweetness is still there, but heâs learned to armor his heart instead of wearing it on his sleeve. Nonetheless, neither Morgan nor Christabel are nearly as wary of me as they should be, especially given the history of the day weâve met. The ides of March is a day for gathering with friends and stabbing people in the back, though I should watch mine. I donât know if Isaac Magnin is aware of my involvement yet, or if heâs warned Christabel against me.
If Eddie had not told me that she was not what she seemed, I might have thought her a slightly posh rebel who had gotten into rock to spite Daddy. Sheâs got the style down pat and if gate-keeping were one of my hobbies Iâd be hard-pressed to prove Christabel a poseur; she plays her chosen role well enough that without prior knowledge I might mistake her for a lifelong fan.
The flaw is that all of the bands she claims to like are universally acclaimed. She doesnât have a single âguilty pleasureâ act whose records she hides in the depths of her closet, only plays when sheâs sure sheâs alone, and makes bloody well sure to wear headphones even then. After all, thereâs no telling when somebody might walk in on you. Morgan, on the other hand, has a bunch of bands he would never admit to liking in public. I wonât name any of them, out of respect for his privacy, but I daresay Claire would recognize a few of them. Iâve got a few of my own, of course. I wonât name them either. Letâs just say that if one of those acts got a revival and I was involved Iâd probably be the scary one. Or perhaps the posh one.
Why do I know this? Apparently blowing Morganâs mind and impressing Christabel somewhat at the audition wasnât quite enough. Instead, they dragged me to a nearby pub and grilled me over dinner. They wanted to know whether my tastes were compatible with theirs. This was fair enough, but Christabel also wanted to know why I left the last dozen or so bands Iâve worked with.
At least thatâs what she said at first. Her true aim was to determine whether I was the type to try dating my own band-mates. Not that she had any legitimate way of knowing that I didnât take fellow Adversaries to bed, I wasnât about to engage in similar behavior as a musician. In any case, the selection left much to be desired. Christabel was not my type at all, and Morgan? Heâs still too young, even without the possibility that I might have to kill him.
No way in hell I was about to admit any of this. Instead, there was nothing for it but to insist that I had no interest in using the band as a matchmaking service, and that I had been kicked out of at least one band because I refused to go to bed with one of the other members. Iâm a professional, dammit.
Suggestions from Fan No. 1
2020-01-08 (Naomi Bradleigh and Christopher Renfield)
Naomi ran her fingers through Renfieldâs hair as she spooned behind him. They had never pursued a full-on relationship but fallen into a friends with benefits with neither conversation or problem.
âChris.â She brushed a finger over his earlobe sending eliciting a soft moan from him. âI donât think we should do this again.â
âIs it the kid?â He replied without rolling over.
âYes. I know he is still suffering in his relationship with Christable..but I donât think I can wait any longer and this isnât fair on you.â
Finally Renfield sat up letting the sheet to fall from his chest to pool around his waist. God he was beautiful.
âItâs about bloody time.â He smiled as he chuffed her under the chin. âWere you worried I would react badly?â
âNo. But I donât know whether Morgan is ready to take a chance.â
âWell I suggest you ask him. One look at the way he watches you, it is clear he is infatuated.â
Authorâs Note
I abandoned work on this novel because of plot issues and because my fatherâs cancer diagnosis and eventual death made it impossible to write.